AN Again, been a bit since an update. I was watching the next three eps and sadden to see not a lot of w/t moments. And really other then a couple in season five, just not a lot. Well, I'm gonna do some in between things if you don't mind. The story behind the story. Hope you all enjoy. And to my muse who I love always, thanks for being there.
So much had happened since the incident. Since Oz had come back and had thrown their lives out of whack. It was only a couple days that he had been around, but it was enough to turn Willow and Tara's lives upside.
But it had also been for the best. For it had made them that much closer. Had them express that love that had been there all the time. It had made Willow really want to share that love with everyone. But yet, she had to hold back a little. For Buffy had been a little freaked. How would Xander and Giles take the news that she and Tara were definitely more then friends.
The young witch was happy at the moment. She was in Tara's dorm room where she practically lived now. And she had the little kitten that was oh so adorable in her hands. Just playing and having a good time. Not wanting to think about the future that was at hand. But having to at the same time.
It amazed her how at ease she had become with Tara and so quickly. It had been a struggle at first because she had never thought about having feelings for another woman. It was just not what she had thought of.
But now, she was totally and completely and passionately in love with the most wonderful woman in the world. And besides her friends reactions, there was also the fact that the world wasn't always ready for different kinds of relationships.
Not that it mattered. The only thing that mattered was how she and Tara felt about one another. And that both were happy. That neither would do anything to hurt the other. And that was all that was on the witches mind.
Well, now that Tara brought it up, living arrangements. Things had been like her living with Tara for so long now that she hadn't even thought so much about it. Really, she had at one time assumed that she and Buffy would be together forever. But now it seemed that they lived separate lives.
So, what was the young witch to do? She so hoped that Tara would maybe want to find someplace to live together. Or there was the possibility of both of them having dorm rooms that were close together. Again, just so many possibilities and not knowing what Buffy was going to do was not that easy.
Willow's mind drifted as she continued to play with Miss Kitty Fantastico. It went back to just a few minutes ago and the conversation. The one where Tara had said that she would be more then happy if the little kitty in her hands could be theirs. Something that together they could own. It was wonderful.
But all good things must come to an end. And that's when the call came. A call to scooby central. And some weird disc thingies that Spike had somehow managed to get his hands on. With everything going on, Willow had to admit that she was not at her full strength computer wise.
But Tara was right behind her. Supporting her as always. The feel of her hand in her hair made her smile. It was what gave her strength. Strength to go out there everyday and fight the good fight. She loved her more then anything in the world.
"Witch stuff?" Willow couldn't help but repeat what Spike had just said. But was that what had really been meant. After all, Buffy already knew about her relationship with Tara. What if she had shared with Xander.
And those two talking behind her back was not a thought that she like very much. Not one bit indeed. Tara meant everything to her and here they were possibly trashing her. And why? Why were they doing this.
Things got bad when Buffy showed up. All those pent up things just flew out. For everyone. Even Giles expressed some pent up anger. Everyone had their say. And that's when Willow and Tara's relationship was exposed.
That's the last way that she wanted Xander and Giles to find out. She had so wanted to sit down and have a talk with them. Different then the one that she had kinda been forced to tell Buffy how she felt. It was so not of the good.
And now, feelings were hurt. The friends that had been inseparable since they had met only three short years ago were now not even talking to one another. Silence was definitely not golden in this case.
Tara watched Willow as she just kept at it. She would not stop trying to decipher the encrypted discs. Her girl was clearly exhausted, but she would not admit it. She would do anything in the fight for evil. And that meant not looking out for herself.
It would be up to the blond to do that. She needed to do that. And she wanted to do that. She was not sure if Willow would let her, but she had to try.
The phone ringing interrupted what they had been waiting for. The discs were somehow revealing all that they knew without the redhead's help. That was another mystery indeed. And Buffy was on the other end of the line. What should she do? Should she just say yeah, Willow was here? No, best be letting her girl decide whether or not she wanted to talk or not.
Willow stood facing her friends. It was awkward to say the least. For one, she now would not think of coming to a meeting without Tara. That Tara was a part of the group and that she belonged here.
But she stood without her everything. And she felt like a part of her was betraying that trust that they had already built up between them. But here is where she needed to be.
She tried to focus. She tried to hear the words. And she even put two and two together along with Buffy to get that Spike was the one that had disrupted their lives. That he was the one that had wanted them a part. But still, if things hadn't been stirupable, none of this ever would have come to be.
Her thoughts went immediately to Tara. Her everything could be in such great danger from this new diabolical scheme of Adam's and it was up to her and the others to prevent it. Having someone like Tara was an extra motivator, that was for sure.
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Willow moved round the dorm room. She didn't want to go. But she knew that she must. For the world counted on her and the others to save it, if it didn't know it. And there was that beautiful blond sitting on the edge of her bed looking oh so worried at the moment.
The redhead turned towards the bookshelf. There were a lot of books that she and Tara had already gone over so many times. And one of them had a spell. A deflection spell. For some reason the redhead thought that it might come in handy when the gang faced Adam.
Suddenly, these strong arms were around her waist. A head was resting on her shoulder. Such love was now wrapped around her. And such strength seemed to transfer over to her in an instant. It was something she had never felt before.
"Are you scared?" Tara's soft gentle voice seemed to only add to the strength that Willow already felt.
"A little." Willow sighed. "But I think it's better to be scared. It keeps you from thinking that you are going to go in and just beat whatever it is you have to face. You stop paying attention and that is not a good thing at all."
"But you think you can win, right?" Now there was a little bit of pleading in the blond's voice. Like she didn't want her to go and that she too was scared.
Willow turned around to face her girl. "Buffy has always seemed to find a way to win. And I've been right by her just about every time. And this time, I have something extra to fight for." She slowly put her hand on the blond's cheek. "I have you to come home to. Now that is incentive if I ever had any. So I'd say it's almost written in stone that we will win. And I can be back in your arms."
Tara leaned in and kissed her. It was a kiss that was full of passion. But it was also just a way for the blond to give what little she had. For it was her girl that was going and facing this big time evil.
"I would say I don't want you to go." Tara sighed heavily. "But I know that you have to. I just wish that there was something that I could do to help as well."
"You already are." Willow squeezed her hand. "Just by being here I gain a strength that I never new existed. And you give me a reason to fight that much harder. I will be all right. I will come back to you, I promise you that."
Another hug between the two lovers. And another kiss. Then, it was silence. Knowing that there really was that possibility that Willow could get hurt or worse. But choosing to revel in the fact that they were together and their hearts would always be as one was what made them know they could survive it.
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The battle was won. The good guys had won. And now was the time to be with their honeys. But Riley was off to Washington and that left Buffy all alone. So this night was dedicated to the scoobies. And with it came dreams.
Willow loved the first part of her dream, though it very odd. For she was with Tara. Alone in the dorm room just the two of them together. But there was also the thing she could sense somewhere out in the shadows.
Then on to a play. One that she had not known about. And Tara was there. But it seemed this was not Tara. What was going on? Everything was confusing. Finally, the attack! And Willow's worst nightmare come true.
There she stood in front of everyone. In her old outfit and that long geeky hair. Trying to focus enough on her report, her eyes went to something she thought she'd never see. Oz and Tara were flirting oh so shamelessly. It was all she could do to stay where she was. But that wasn't long either. For now, she was done. And her life, her spirit, was being drained from her body.
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The whole time in the dream, now in The Bronze. Trying to figure out what was going on. And that was not an easy task. For every time they made progress, something seemed to go wrong.
Anya was on stage. Telling a rather amusing joke if she ever got it right. And that was just as distracting as everything else seemed to be. And now, Giles has it! And is singing his idea to them all.
Willow went along with it all, looking in the slayer chronicles. But her mind was only half there. For it went back to her blond. Everything seemed to go back to Tara.
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Alive and safe, such a wonderful thing. The rest of the gang were with their significant others. And now, it was time that Willow was too. They had survived the dream with the first slayer, so time indeed to celebrate.
Out in the quad, a beautiful sunny day indeed sat the two young witches. A picnic basket was with them and being together was the only thing on their minds. It was a great feeling just the two of them.
"I was scared." Tara lay down, her head in Willow's lap. "The whole time. And Anya is really nice, but she really doesn't have all that much faith."
Willow chuckled. "I wish in a way that you could have come with us. But I'm also glad that you stayed where it was safe. I was worried about you the whole time. I think you are what helped me to get through it all."
"You are your own strength." Tara looked up into those green eyes of her lovers. "You are your own person. All I do is be here and hope that I have a place in your life."
Willow leaned down and kissed her gently. She sat there and stroked the blond's soft hair. "You don't have a place in my life. You are my life. Everything I do now is because of you. You make me whole. And you make me complete. I'm lucky that you walked into my life when you did. I think that you saved me from myself, you wonderful woman you."
Tara sighed. "And you rescued me right back. As one, we are meant to be. Always my love."