Disclaimer; i'm down to 6 pairs of underpants, argh

(italics are lyrics from REM's losing my religion)

Losing My Lulu

That's me in the corner. that's me in the spotlight, losing my religion

"Praise be to Yevon" ? what a joke. I've guarded three summoners, the first two didn't complete their pilgrimages, but for what did they try?

Fight for something, that would never go away?

Fight for a nation that would never be freed?

Fight for a reason that never was...

Consider this, consider you, consider me

This world is bigger than you and me combined.

This lie is bigger than you and this world.

The world of spiralling death

Sin took my parents away, took Wakka's, took Chappu.

Sin ruins lives, homes, dreams

But Sin isn't our biggest problem

"The pure and simple truth is rarely pure and never simple"

Its the lies, summoners are meant to send the souls of the dead on the right path, yet those who impose this themselves are the biggest lie

A thousand years the lies been carried, a thousand years its beaten into the lives of innocence. The lie beats down the door and rips them from the arms of love.

I've guarded Yuna from Besaid, our childhood home. She left so innocent and wide eyed. She tried to drag a huge trunk full of gifts for the temples down the stairs

"Yuna, its a long journey" a very, very long journey. The temples don't need gifts, what use are they to the dead?

I watched as Yuna tried to decide whether to marry Maester Seymour, leader of the Guado. Unite the guado and humans, possibly even the Al Bhed

Such a wedding would lift the spirits of the people.

A bandaid from their pain

But bandaids don't last very long and it stings when they are yanked from the wound, occasionally they take the scab with them and again the wound bleeds

Aeons fly through the sky, through the earth, through the storm. To where a tiny human stands, with a rod in her hand, so different in size. She looks up at the powers of the fayth and gently, so softly, asks for its help

A much smaller power of the fayth was sent to walk beside Yuna in this tireless battle, like an aeon out of nowhere he appeared in the temple, as though somehow summoned by Yuna's prayers.

Yuna could open her mouth and just whisper the words and Tidus would fly out of the sky and scoop her in his arms

The tiny summoner and this small blond man

I don't know what I believe anymore.

But I do believe in the power these two small beings hold within their souls.

The light that shines when their eyes meet.

The warmth that shines from within their hearts.

He looks like Chappu, think that's why Wakka took to him so fast, hoping it was the brother lost to Sin

"My old man" What?

I'm supposedly the wise one, the wise mage.

But confusion is fast becoming a companion of mine, how can I be a proper guardian to Yuna if I don't even know what I'm guarding her from?

Going to the farplane, seeing for himself that Chappu was there, something in Wakka changed, he looked to Tidus as Tidus, not a hope that he knew couldn't be filled.

The one i hoped to see wasn't there

I am Lulu. I am me. But who am I...?

Rikku looks up to me, but what is she seeing that I'm not? What is the secret I'm not in on?

That's me in the corner, wondering my fate

That's me in the spotlight, who everyone looks to for truth

Losing my religion, I thought i knew what I'd been taught, but what i was taught was a spiral of lies, strung into a web by one giant lie

A web that consumes life, to stay dead forever

To be...

To end...

To free