To live again

Chapter three

"I need to be alone." Harry demanded wiping tears away from his cheeks. "I don't want you near me."

"But...Harry."

"I think it would be best Draco, if you left, Harry is having a hard time excepting this. Do you remember how hard it was the first time."

"OK, I'll see you later Harry." Draco said almost in tears himself; the pain that had been a permanent fixture in his heart and had disintegrated when Harry had awoken was back.

Harry said nothing, he didn't even watch Draco as he walked out of the hospital wing, and instead he fixed his gaze on the headmaster.

"Please tell me this isn't the truth." The Gryffindor begged once the Slytherin had disappeared out of the door.

"I'm sorry Harry, I know this is hard, to wake up one day and realise that you can't remember the past year and what's happened, to then realise that you have responsibilities, a son and your engaged."

"I can't do this, I want a life, I don't want to be married at the age of seventeen, I don't want a son."

"Harry you loved Draco enough to say yes to marriage, to mother his son, you need to tap into that emotion that you felt for him if you are to remember."

"I...I don't...want to." Harry said. "I don't want to remember." Dumbledore looked at Harry in a way that asked what he did want. "Could I see Seamus?"

"I suppose, if that would help, but what would you have me do with your new born son?"

"Malfoy can have him, I don't want anything to do with him or anything that is apart of him, veela or not, I will never love him."

"If that is your decision then I will not interfere."

"Thank you, can I go and see Seamus or will you bring him here?"

"I do not think that Poppy would allow you to leave at the moment, you have only just awoken, I will call him here if you would like."

"Yes, that would be good, but could I ask why you have that tone?"

"What tone?"

"That tone of voice, that means you disapprove of my choice."

"You do not remember certain events that I do, but I have to let you find this out for yourself, I will summon him."

An hour later Seamus as in the hospital wing and Draco was in the headmasters office shouting the odds, he wasn't to pleased that his mate was in the company of his ex-boyfriend, the same person that had attacked him twice.

"Hey Harry." Seamus said shyly as he entered the infirmary. "You wanted to see me."

"Yes, well, it's complicated, the last thing I remember is being with you, I guess I wanted to see a friendly face."

"Then why not Ron and Hermione?"

"You don't want to be here."

"I do, it's just, you broke up with me almost a year ago now."

"Can I ask why?"

Seamus paused for a second, this was his chance to get Harry back. "I don't actually recall."

"Well would you stay with me a while...I'm scared, I have no idea what has happened over the last year, I have all these things going on around me and my head is just spinning, I just need someone to keep me sane."

"How so?"

"Keep me on the ground, help me if I need it."

"And how can I help you now?"

"Do you really need to ask?"

"Not really."

Harry opened his arms and Seamus gave him a comforting hug, it felt nice to have someone comfort him, someone he felt he could trust.

Draco was raging in the headmaster's office. He couldn't believe that Dumbledore had allowed Harry to be left in the company of someone dangerous.

"How could you, the one person I will ever love and you left him with no memory and the one person he still thinks he's going out with. You idiot, you complete idiot."

"Draco, please calm down, Harry asked to see him, and besides if it will help him remember then what is the harm?"

"The harm? How could you ask me this, he attacked Harry...twice, how could you let him near Harry?"

"I know of those events Draco, believe me I would never put Harry in any more danger than necessary, in fact you have a solid reason to go to the infirmary, Harry requested that you look after your son for the time being."

"That is not what he said and we both now it, you forget that we have a mind connection, I know he doesn't want anything to do with me."

"I'm sorry Draco, I know this is not the ideal situation that your son was born into but it is either this or not have him at all and I know what I prefer."

"I know, I agree with you on that, but I can feel him right now, his emotions anyway, when he was with me he was terrified and confused but now when he's with him he's happy."

"Then I suggest you go and see Poppy, she will give you...what is your sons name?"

"I was going to call him Harry but I guess I can't now, I always liked the name Joseph I guess."

"Then that is what he will be called, now go, in time he will remember and you will be the one there to help him."

Draco had the feeling that Dumbledore knew more that he was letting on but he decided tp leave it. He knew there was a reason he never liked the old man, he was going a bit funny in the head.

He made his way down to the infirmary as quickly as he could, the pain in his heart was near unbearable but he tried to ignore it as he reached the hospital wing doors.

He went in and was immediately met by un-welcoming glares from the two teens, one of which was from the one person he loved.

"What are you doing here?" Harry spat angrily at his mate. "If you're here to see me you can forget it."

"He doesn't want to see you Malfoy, I think it's time you left us alone."

"When Harry remembers what you did to him your going to regret this, I promise you that, and besides I'm not here to see you however much I want to."

"Then why are you here?"

"Well someone has to look after our son, if you won't I will, you know I always loved you Harry, I always will, I would say I know you inside out, the real Harry wouldn't abandon his family."

"Your not my family, the only emotion I ever remember feeling for you is hatred, you expect me to just except this, if you do then your more delusional than I thought."

"I don't want to fight, I can't, it'll kill me, if you ever want to talk, if you ever want to remember, or even of you want to spend time with either me or your son then you are very welcome to."

"I doubt that will ever happen you bleach blonde piece of shit."

"It's natural actually." Harry said, the other two turned to stare at him.

"What did you say?" Seamus asked testily.

"Harry...what was that?"

"I don't know, it just came out...I think it was from my past."

"It was." Seamus said, he wasn't eager to share.

"Go on." Draco urged him, he had a feeling he knew where that fitted in.

Harry looked at him quizzically, Seamus just shrugged, "I don't really remember the rest." He lied quickly trying to get Draco away from them, he was going to mess everything up if he didn't leave very soon.

"That's ok, it doesn't matter that much, honestly." Harry comforted, Draco was shocked as he watched Seamus sit on Harry's bed and cuddle close to him.

"I can't stand this, Harry please, I am begging you, do you not remember what he did to you?"

"No, and do you know what, I don't care, I will never love you and I want to make that clear right now, I don't know what I did this past year but obviously I made some extremely bad choices that I won't be making again."

"Fine, I'll go...but...you weren't making bad choices, you came to me after he hit you, it was you who asked me to be your boyfriend."

Draco disappeared into Poppy's office and when he remerge he was carrying baby Joseph in a carry chair with a baby bag flung carelessly over his left shoulder. The two Gryffindor's watched him go before Harry asked:

"Is it true? That you hit me."

"No, I would never hurt you, please believe that, he wants you back, even if that means making you not trust me."

"Ok...but you know what, I'm sick of the hospital wing could you ask Madame Pomfrey if I could be taken back to Gryffindor tower?"

"Sure, I'll be right back."

When Seamus had gone he took the engagement ring off his finger and fastened it around his neck on a sliver chair he had got into the habit of wearing.

He had heard honesty and truth in Draco's words, and only uncertainty in Seamus'. He wanted everything to be normal, he wanted to think things through and make some tough decisions that had to be made.

Seamus was soon back and didn't notice that the ring was gone from Harry's finger and now hung, hidden around his neck.

Dumbledore had made an announcement that Harry was alive and well after the birth of his child but could not remember any events of the past year, only select individuals knew the truth, Ron and Hermione being the only ones apart from Dumbledore, Poppy and Draco.

Seamus aided Harry back to Gryffindor tower, quite a few students staring on the way, as soon as they entered the portrait of the fat lady Ron and Hermione rushed to greet them.

"What are you doing with him Seamus?" Hermione asked curiously, she too had been informed by Harry, what had happened between them.

"He asked for me, he still thinks we're dating." Seamus said as Ron helped Harry up the stairs to the boy's dormitory.

"I think it best that you stay away from him, Draco wouldn't..."

"He doesn't want to know Malfoy, or his son for that matter, I'm all he remembers."

"And you're going to take advantage of that."

"Of course I am, I lost him once, I don't plan on doing so again."

"If you keep this up your going to kill Draco, do you want that?"

"Actually yes, he's taken my love away from me once, that hurt, I only want to repay the favour."

"I think you need to remember the fact that veela's don't chose their mates, they're like soul mates, Draco will kill you if you get between him and Harry."

"Does it look like I care, Harry will be mine, no matter what, I know what he is now and how strong he is, the only way to get rid of him is to take Harry away and I've already done that. It won't take long now."

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