Hey people, long time no see! All my own fault of course...
This chapter is pretty important, I just wanted to straighten out the history between Lily and Sev before I went any further, and explain why his reaction in Dumbledore's office was so extreme.
I hope you like it! And I know that some of the scenes are a little soppy, but I had fun. ; )
A shell-shocked Severus wandered down towards the dungeons. His mind was overwhelmed by the information that had just been revealed, and was going round in circles, going over the two facts that stood out. 'Harry Potter is my son. My son hates me.'
He had spent several minutes in Albus' office, too shocked to move. Albus had been very sympathetic, understanding without words the pain that Severus was feeling at the discovery.
He had shown Severus the letter, and, if any of the Hogwarts students had happened to see inside the headmaster's office that fateful day, they would have been surprised to find out that their potions master, contrary to popular belief, in fact did have a heart, and was indeed capable of tears.
Severus collapsed on a chair in his private quarters, the familiar dark blue of the furnishings comforting him. He moved his hand over his eyes, and descended into the memories that had been denied to him for so many long years.
"Sev where are you" the joyful voice called. Severus looked up from the book he was reading. He was sitting under a tree in the magnificent gardens of Magnolia manor. Through the lush green of the arbour, he saw an angel come through, a redheaded angel with eyes of green fire.
"Lily, what are you doing here?" he asked, "I didn't expect to see you for another two days" he continued, rising to hold her in his arms. "Not that I'm complaining of course" he finished, as he lowered his face to hers, for a slow tender kiss.
Lily laughed, a musical sound. "I know, dear, but I just had to see you." She stepped backwards, her hands still adjoined with his. "I have news." She was being mysterious, and loving every minute of it.
Severus pursed his lips and mused, "well, I'm assuming that it's good news, or you wouldn't be quite so happy."
Lily turned her face up to his, her eyes showing her love for the man in front of her. She lifted his hands in her own, and placed them on the slight mound that had filled out her body. Her eyes told a story that her lips couldn't.
Severus' eyes widened as he followed their hands,and their eyes locked as he understood. His mouth tried to form words, but his heart was fit to burst with love for the woman in front of him.
The only words that either could
utter as they embraced under the oak tree as the sun went down in a
blaze of light, was, 'I love you'.
Severus' hand shook as it tried to hide the tears that crept out from eyes that had seen only pain and misery for many years. He had forgotten so much, how could he have let this happen to him. But he remembered that he had had no choice in the matter. Another memory crept up on him unaware. Only this time there were three people instead of two.
Severus sat on a chair in the morning room, reading the paper as he waited for breakfast to be served. He looked up as he heard someone enter the room. There stood his wife, Lillian Snape, a vision in a dress of the palest spring-green. And in her arms, young Harold, named for his maternal grandfather, a happy, chuckling baby, only six months old. He spotted his father and reached for him, all the while gabbling away in baby speech. Severus stood and walked over to wife and child.
"Hello
darling," he greeted Lily with a kiss, then he lifted Harry up, "and
hello to you as well, cheeky." Harry gurgled happily at having his
father's attention. "Where have you been? Taking up Mummy's precious
time, no doubt?" Harry laughed and clapped with glee.
Laughing, the
two adults sat down, after placing Harry in his high-chair at the
table. Severus and Lily conversed for a little while, until the
house-elf appeared with breakfast on a tray, and the mail.
Severus opened a letter from his father with a frown, and read the contents.
"What's the matter dear?" asked Lily, as she fed Harry with a spoonful of porridge.
"Father wants me to visit." He stated, still frowning. "I wish I knew why. He knows I want nothing to do with him."
Lily looked a little concerned, "yes, but he is your father, maybe he just wants to see you." Sev knew that she felt she was the reason that he and his father weren't on speaking terms, his father hadn't wanted for Severus to marry a muggle-born. Lily continued, "you should see him, it can't do that much damage, and who knows, it might even be good for you both.
Severus nodded reluctantly, he didn't really want to see his old man, "and I still need to pick up a few of the cauldrons that I left behind last time. And you never know, I might even tell him he has a grandson." And at that moment, Harry let out a wail, and when his father picked him up, he clung to Sev with a fierceness that surprised him. Little did Severus know that it would be one of the last times he would hold his little boy.
Later that night, Severus stumbled up the stairs and woke his wife. "Lily, Lily, wake up, please." His voice was hoarse, and Lily awoke with a start.
"Sev, what is it?" she was worried; she hadn't seen her husband like this since they had been at school together, before the marauders had stopped bullying him.
Severus knelt by the side of their bed, half lying on top of her, half embracing her. He rocked back on his knees, as if praying for forgiveness. "Lily, you must leave, take Harry and run."
Lily only stared at him in incomprehension. "What, whe..." her voice trailed off. Severus only rested his head on the hand that she lay on his shoulder.
"Lily, my father, no," he shook his head, "no, he's not my father. He laid a trap for me. As soon as I entered his house, I was seized. He took me to Voldemort."
Lily's eyes widened with dawning understanding, "no" she whispered.
Severus only nodded. "I was forced to take the dark mark." His voice trailed off as he shivered with the memory. He looked back up at her, "Lily, you must leave, obliviate me, I managed to make the monsters think that you had left me a year ago, and they still don't know about Harry. You must obliviate me, and take Harry and run, it's the only way that you will be safe."
Lily sat, tears starting down her cheeks as she shook with the shock of his talk. "No, no, Severus, I will never leave you."
Sev started forward and grabbed her shoulders, "Lily, you must. Merlin knows I don't want it, but I won't be forced to do to Harry what my father did to me."
"No, Sev, you are a completely different person than your father, you would never do something like that."
"Lily, you don't understand, my father wasn't always evil either, but Voldemort got to him in the end." He moved to the nightstand and retrieved Lily's wand. "Here, do it now. It's the only way."
They shared one last tearful kiss as Lily raised the wand and sobbed the incantation.
Severus shook his head. He was mourning Lily all over again, but this time as his own wife, not someone else's.
But he cleared his mind. He needed to find his son.
Their son.
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