Unloved

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Chapter Four: Happiness & fear and The Morning After.

Severus and Fera fell asleep in each other's arms, like they had done so many times before. This time was different though. This had been the first time they had been together like they had just been. To an onlooker, the sight would have made anyone smile. Two lovers wrapped in each other's arms, cuddled up on a large bed, smiles plastered on their faces.

Hermione had ran up to her dormitory in tears after Snape had screamed at her. She knew he was a harsh man, but she never

thought he was capable of yelling at a student with that much fury. She grabbed a journal and started to vent her anger and the fear

of her professor she had just acquired.

Dear Journal,

Why would he yell at me like that? All I wanted was to get some help with that bloody assignment the bastard had given us! Greasy

git! What the fuck did I do to him? What was he doing, fucking that slut Edwards? Everyone knows they fuck like rabbits. What she

sees in that man, I'll never know. He's a cold heartless bastard. How could anyone be attracted to him?

Well, anyhow, back to my ranting and raving. The way he yelled at me! It was frightening. His voice was filled with so much anger. I

swore he was going to kill me. I'll never be able to stand up for myself or Ron and Harry against him again. He's to frightening. Damn

him. Professor Severus Snape is the only person that scares me more than the news of Voldemort being back. Thank God Harry defeated Voldemort over the summer. He's even more famous now than he was before!..............................

Severus woke up that morning, to find his beloved Fera still wrapped in his arms. She looked like an angel. Her head was on his chest, her arm across his abs, her leg over his.

He couldn't bring himself to unwrap himself from her loving arms. If he had his way, he'd stay here forever. He was a man no one had loved, until now. He had never thought that any woman would ever love him. He'd been in love before, but the feeling was one sided. He finally knew what it was like to be loved.

He thought about this, and how happy he was now that he had found love at last. He remembered the exact moment he had fallen in love with her. He replayed the scene in his mind.

" Remus Lupin, you sick freak! How DARE you try to touch me!" Fera yelled from the second story of The Order's Headquarters. "How dare you assume I want to sleep with you!"

"Every other member of the female population of Hogwarts wants to fuck me, why not you too?" Remus yelled back.

"I'm not every other slut in the school Remus! I have no intention of sleeping with you ever!" she yelled furiously.

"Then why in the name of Merlin did you come into my room at three o'clock in the morning?!"

"Because, Remus, there was a time when you told me I could talk to you about anything at any time I needed too. But ever since returning to Hogwarts and finding out that damn near every woman and even a few men want to fuck you, you've turned into a sex crazed MANIAC!" she yelled. She stormed out of the room and flew down the stairs. Once she had reached one of the sitting rooms that no one ever used,she broke down into tears. She went to throw herself on the couch, but someone coughed to make their presence known. Fera stopped and looked down to see who she had just intruded on.

"Sorry Professor Snape, I didn't see you there. My apologies. I'll go somewhere else where I won't disturb your rest." she said as she turned around.

"There is no need Miss Edwards. Would you care to tell me what was going on between you and Professor Lupin?" he said kindly.

'Wow, he just spoke to me as if he cared! He sounded HUMAN!' Fera thought.

"Only if you'll listen. I wouldn't want to bother you." she said as she stared at the floor.

"I'll listen to you, come sit down." Severus said as he motioned for her to sit beside him on the couch.

Fera sat down slowly, unsure if she wanted to talk to him. He was the most feared and hated professor in the school and

here he was offering to listen to her ranting and raving her frustrations and sadness away. She took a deep breath before beginning

her story.

" I had woken up from a bad dream and I didn't want to be alone. I went to Remus's

room in search of the comfort he had

given me in the past when I was in need of it. He took this as a sign that I wanted to sleep with him and he started touching me. I pleaded with him to stop, but he wouldn't. I started screaming at him and he did. Then we started fighting...but I gather that you heard

all that." tears were still flowing from her eyes. She took another deep breath and started again. "Remus and I used to be such good friends. I used to come to his room when I couldn't sleep and he'd hold me until I did. Now that he's found out what it's like to be lusted after, I fear I have lost my only friend in the world."

"Surely you must have friends at school?" Severus asked kindly. All he wanted to do was to comfort her. He wanted to wrap

her up in his arms and hold her and tell her everythin was going to be alright. He was here for her; he'd be her friend. But he couldn't.

He was a professor, and she was an underage student. Such things could get them both introuble, but this was in the name of

comforting, so it couldn't cause any trouble could it? He placed his hand on her back and rubbed it gently. He hoped she found it soothing and not disturbing. He half expected her to scream and run back up to her room. Instead she looked at him and smiled. He

held out his arms in an offer to hold her while she cried. He didn't expect her to accept, but she did and soon she was wrapped in her

professor's arms, crying like a child while he rocked her back and forth telling her that it was okay.

Once her crying had subdued she looked up at him.

"I never answered your question. No I don't have any friends at school. You must have noticed that not even my fellow Slytherins will talk to me or be near me if they can avoid it." she said sadly.

Severus looked down into her dark eyes. She was right. He had noticed, but he had always suspected she had friends in

other houses. Apparently she had no other friends.

"I'm sorry." he said quietly. "Come, I'll walk you back up to your room, we both need to rest. School starts in the morning.

She nodded in responce and the two of them walked up the stairs together. Once they were outside her door, she opened it.

"Will you stay with me for a while?" she asked shyly.

" Of course." he said kindly. They went over to the bed and laid down. Severus wrapped her up in his arms once more and the two of them drifted off to sleep.

' I love her.' was the last though that Severus had before he fell into a deep sleep.