DISCLAIMER: I shall own the titans when I become 34234209342347234987234 plus 3, but until then I guess I must write this stupid disclaimers. But I do own: Aquilus, Acerbus, Emily and Michael Greenway blah blah blah all the same story...

Hello once again! I'm hyper and feel like running around so I'll be keeping all smart talking-ness to a certian level.... I'm acting so blonde today....

enjoy,

CHAPTER 5

The envelope

"Azarath metrion zinthos, azarath metrion zinthos, azarath metrion zinthos," The dark gothic girl muttered to herself. She was sitting on her bed mediating trying to forget about Robin. Moonlight shone through the window lighting a patch on the bed in front of Raven, besides that steady stream of pale light the room was completely engulfed with darkness. The quiet and dark atmosphere would have relaxed and calmed her but something more than her stupid problems with Robin and Starfire made her feel uneasy.

I'm not sure what is...but it's almost like I can feel someone here. Raven opened her eyes and scouted the dark room with her violet eyes, but it was empty. Relax Rae; she told herself, you're just being paranoid. Just being stupid... Just like on cue Raven saw something in the corner of her eye. She turned her head sharply to the left where the window was, I could have swore I saw someone there...she mumbled to herself, Grr Raven! You're just being stupid; you're on the fifth floor!

You're not the only one that can fly, said a nagging voice in her head. Raven narrowed her eyes still staring at the window. She carefully unfolded her legs from the crossed position on the bed and crept over to the window. She opened it abruptly and stuck her head out; a rush of the cold bitter night air stung her face. Raven looked down on the ground and the walls beside the window, and then looked up. It was partly cloudy; most of the clouds blew off around sunset exposing a beautiful display of crimson and purples and now exposing the moon. Raven sighed, Even if there was someone here –though I highly doubt it– they could have easily flew up and hid behind the clouds or the roof. Raven inhaled the cold night air deeply, I'm not going on a wild goose chase... with that she closed and locked the window, Just to be safe, she mumbled to herself as she locked it and pulled the dark blue curtains over the window blocking out the moonlight leaving the room in complete darkness. She wandered over to her desk and turned on the small lamp on it, faint purple light bounced off the small desk, giving it an eerie look on it. She pulled out the chair and slumped down on it and sighed giving her temples a rub.

She looked beside and behind her like she expected someone to be there, but like she was outside: she was wrong. She reached a shaky pale hand out toward the drawer. She pulled it open and looked inside. There it was: the envelope. It wasn't an envelope, it was the envelope. The one that haunted her dreams more than the image of Star and Robin. It had been a long time since she actually opened the drawer and gazed upon the dark and disturbing contents, a really long time. Not since Christmas when she sat on her bed and studied it for a few minutes.

She carefully opened the envelope and dumped the contents out on the desk. They were five pictures, but not just of anyone. They were of Raven, one of her and Michael sitting on the step. It was an over head view so she guessed it was probably taken on the roof of the other store and used zoom.

There was another picture; it was taken when Raven was levitating the two boxes. I have to admit it looks pretty cool. Raven ran a finger down the edge of the picture; her eyes were glowing a strange white and her hands glowing with black eerie light. She stood like a 'T' with both arms out, one crate on each side of her started to levitate. Raven remembered that moment and shuttered, she could still remember the pain of her soul slowly pouring out.

There were three more pictures, one of Raven reciting that poem 'Poison', "For two and a half years
I've sat here and cried
And for two and a half years
I've wanted to die.
When will the pain stop?
Revert me to the light.
Make the pain leave me now
Just at least put up a fight," Raven mumbled reciting the first few lines that she still remembered off by heart. Her gaze looked over the other pictures sighing. How could the same person slip my notice every time? Was I really too distracted? No I couldn't be...

There was a sudden knocking at the door. Raven jumped in her chair and hurriedly stuffed the pictures in the envelope leaving the letter still on the table. She quickly walked over to the door and took a deep breath then opened her door. She almost lost her cool when she opened the door and peeked her head out. She quickly hid all emotion and said in a mono-tone voice, "Yes Robin?"

"Can I talk to you?" he asked in a quiet voice. Raven sighed and pretended to be annoyed, "I guess..." Robin didn't even ask if he could go into her room, he knew that she'd just slam the door in his face. So Robin walked over to the wall across the hallway and slumped down so he was leaning against the wall with his legs crossed. Raven closed her door and followed him and sat down pulling her knees to her chest and looking over to Robin. The boy wonder was just staring ahead of him at the door of Raven's room.

After a few minutes he asked, "What do you think of Star?" Raven paused, I thought he was going to ask me about battle training again. Robin sometimes asked Raven to train with him if Cy was busy or sometimes with battle plans, Robin thought Raven was the most logical of the titans and often asked for her opinion.

Raven sucked in a breath, "She's a good fighter and a valued member of the Teen Titans," and a back stabbing bitch...Raven added in her head. "So... that's it?" Robin asked turning his head slightly to look at Raven, "Just a member of the team?" Raven felt a blush slowly rise. Robin was still staring at her with a touch of his beautiful smile on his lips. "I... I guess so... What were you expecting me to say?" Raven asked a bit of sarcastic. "I dunno..." Robin trailed off, "I thought you two were best friends..." Why is he even asking me this? Raven thought, "Were friends, a difference from best friends," She's a bit too bubbly Raven added. "I see..." Robin went back to staring at the wall. Raven sighed inwardly, I think I just gave the wrong answer, she told herself pityingly.

Robin sighed inwardly as he stared off into space, I just have to ask it... "Do you think Starfire's a bit...um... immature?" he asked not knowing what exactly Raven would say. YES! She screamed in her mind, "I guess so, but I guess it's because you're older than her and she doesn't have as much experience on this planet," Raven replied logically.

I have a huge crush on Star; I know she likes me back. She said yes to the date right? So the question is: do I like Star or just how she looks? I'm starting to sound like Raven, putting ever thing all logical when love isn't.

Robin sighed and resting his head against the wall his eyes behind the mask closed. "Something wrong?" Raven asked quietly. Robin looked over at Raven and raised an eyebrow, "Let's just say things aren't exactly as I planned they would be," Raven hid a smirk, "Plans sometimes fail," she said quietly, "Tell me about it," Robin replied. "So..." Raven said, "Wanna share?" she asked.

The way Robin looked at her was like she'd grown another head or something... another head that was giggling and blonde. Raven raised an eyebrow, "What?" Robin paused and rubbed the back of his neck, "Um..."

"Go on," Raven said encouragingly like she was talking to a three year old. Raven leaned against the wall with her eyes closed and still hugging her pale legs, I got to see the date, now lets hear his version of the date...this is going to be good. Raven thought thinking about the hints he dropped the past few minutes.

"Well..." Robin said like he was processing the day's events in his head, "We went to Sammy's, and ordered our meal and Starfire wanted to dance..." Robin trailed off; Raven smiled inwardly remembering, "What was wrong? Wasn't in the mood to dance?" she asked with a bit of playfulness in her voice. Robin tried to hold back a smile, "Nah... I don't think the world could handle my dancing," Raven grinned, "I know what you mean," Raven pretended to shutter. Robin narrowed his eyes, Raven smiled at him.

Robin paused in thought, It's weird...It's like Rae and me are having a real conversation that isn't about plans or stuff like that. Is she opening up to me? Robin smiled inwardly.

"Can I ask you something?"

"Well, you just asked me something, but I guess you can ask another question,"

"You've been kind-of...well...quiet lately, is there anything wrong?" Robin asked hoping Raven would open up. Raven paused turned away from Robin so she was facing the wall across the hallway, "No Robin, everything cool now."

BWHAHAHAHA!!! Look forward to the next chapter: happiness in a bottle or the pain behind my eyes (can't deside which one to pick as a title name) Its going to be really good (I hope) and will explain more about Sarah and somethings that she does will click (I hope)

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