Unloved
Disclaimer: Smurfs are blue, real men wear pink fuzzy kilts, and I don't own Snape or anyone else save for Fera. And if I did own Severus, you'd never see him again. 'Cause he'd be mine! ALLL MINE!
Warning: FLUFF and LOTS of it!
Chapter six: When My Love is Doubted.
Severus walked down to the dungeons slowly. If she was there, he wanted to take his time so she could be alone for a bit. He sighed for the umpteenth time that night.
'This is all my fault. I should have never told her I love her. She'd never have to go through this if it wasn't for me. She still doesn't have to deal with it. She won't deal with it anyway. She'll probably just leave me as quickly as I got her.' he thought as he walked into his sitting room.
He searched the rest of his chambers, Fera wasn't there. He plopped down on his favorite chair as he waited for her to return to him to tell him she never wanted to see his face again.
He sat there for hours, just wallowing in his thoughts and preparing himself for the worst. Just as he was about to get up to get some more firewhiskey, Dumbledore walked in.
"Have you seen Fera?" the aged man asked.
"No, why do you ask, Albus?"
"No one has seen her since she left the Hall."
"WHAT!?" Severus said as he stood up abruptly.
"Miss Edwards is missing, Severus. Perhaps you'd care to help me look for her?"
Severus's reply was running out his door and out of the dungeons as fast as he could. He ran out to the lake, searched every classroom, the library, everywhere he thought she'd be.
"Astronomy Tower." he said to himself as he ran to the spiral stair case that led to the entrance of the unused tower.
"Severus?" Fera said after hearing footsteps by the entrance. Tears had long since subsided, but at least up here no one would insult her,
"Fera!" he yelled as ran over to her. "I've been looking for you everywhere!"
"I'm sorry. I just need to be alone."
" You want me to leave then? Might as well, its not like your still going to want me after seeing what being in a relationship with me does to your reputation. I'm just the Great Greasy Haired Git!" he said as he turned around and left.
"Severus! Its not that. I didn't mean you! Stay!" she yelled trying to get im to listen. It was no good. He was already gone. "I love you.......I don't care about my reputation." Tears welled up in her eyes again as she buried her head in her crossed arms once again. All she wanted, all she needed was to have the comfort of holding him in her arms. She got up and left.
As she walked down to the dungeons trying not to be noticed, she thought about one of the songs she had heard over vacation.
'Holding you holds me together,
when holding on gets just a little to hard.
When this tight rope begins to unravel and
everything's falling apart, holding you holds me together.'
She broke into a run. She needed to tell him she loved him. She needed to hold him, for him to hold her. She needed to be with him. He had to know how much he meant to her.
Panting as she turned the final corner that would bring her to the door to his chambers, she pounded on the door.
"GO AWAY ALBUS!" Severus yelled.
"I'm not Albus." she said softly as she opened the door just wide enough for her to slide past it.
"What are you doing here." he whispered.
" To tell you that I love you." she said as she walked over to him and sat down on the floor infront of his feet.
"Why! How can you love me! NO ONE loves me! I'm the UNLOVED! I'm the Greasy Haired Git! I'm the Great Over Grown Bat! I'm the miserable death eater! Nobody loves me and no one ever will!"
"You can't honestly believe that Severus. I love you. I always will."
"Liar!"
"Why would I lie to you?"
"Because you've now seen what happens to anyone who dares to have a realationship with me. How could you love me after that."
"Insults will not stop me from loving you. Nothing could." She stood up and pulled him over to the couch. "I love you so much Sev, how can you even suggest that I don't?"
She sat down and pulled him down, resting his head on her stomach. She wrapped her arms around him after muttering some words. Music started to play. She sang along with it.
"Holding you, holds me together, when holding on gets just a little too hard. When this tight rope I travel begins to unravel and everything's falling apart, holding you holds me together."
He looked up at her and smiled. A solitary tear rolled down his cheek as he listened to her sing to him. He scooted up a bit and wrapped her in his arms.
" I love you." he said as he kissed her softly.
Severus looked up when he heard someone cough. He turned around to see Albus standing in his doorway.
"Good evening, Albus." Severus said as kindly as he could manage. How dare Dumbledore interrupt such a romantic moment!
"Good evening, Severus. I see you've found Fera. Good. I'll be going now seeing how you two seem to be engaged in something far more desireable and entertaining than talking to some crazy old man."
"Good night then."
"Good night, Severus, Fera."
"Good night,sir."
As soon as the headmaster was gone, the two of them were kissing like two of them were kissing like two very hormonal teenagers. As Severus kissed her for the millionth time that night, he smiled. Every one of her kisses was filled with passion,desire, and above all, the love she felt for him. There was no reluctance,no fear, no regrets, only love and happiness. Nothing could take her away from him now that he was so sure of her love.
Fera sdennly discovered herself being carried to the large four poster bed. She was then laid down carefully, as if he feared he would break her. She felt him lay next to her. She rolled over to look athim.
As she looked into the dark tunnels of his eyes, she found herself lost in them. His eyes were just full of everything she felt for him.
'So this is what its like to be completly in love with someone. This is what its like to be loved. That Moulin Rouge kid was right, the greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return.' she thought as she snuggled against the warmth of his chest.
--wow! 2 chapters in one day! Be proud of me!