October 8

Well somehow I went to school on a weekend, or Saturday didn't happen, it doesn't make sense, I might have gotten the dates wrong too, but however, today is a Tuesday, I am sure of this, because some moron was yelling at it outside my house. I feel like some of these things aren't even happening. But they gotta be happening, people are dying, well just two people so far, who knows, who could be next.

Suddenly its lunchtime, I was just writing the above paragraph during 1st period, and now boom, lunch, man I am totally spacing out or some shit. I don't know what's going on anymore; life is becoming more and more of a blur.

The day ended so fast, I don't know who talked to me, but somehow I ended up with 5 more dollars in my pocket by the time I got home. Today feels like it hasn't gone by at all. I went home, and saw something out of place in my room, there was that red fireaxe that I broke a week ago or so. But there was blood dripping on it, I got really scared, I didn't know who put it there, I just threw it in my closet, without even thinking, because that's the kinda dumbass I am and as I did that, a small hole appeared in the back of the closet. It was a small hole, not enough to go inside of.

I walked closer to the hole and noticed some items, there was a handgun, and different from the one I found at school, I think it was a Berretta, my firearm knowledge isn't as good as it used to be. There were also some knives, and a rope, and some kind of ski mask well at least I think it was. I quickly covered the hole, and laid on my bed, somehow during all that time, time jumped to 1 AM. I headed to sleep.

October 9

Today started off well, much better than usual, no crazy horseshit, and the strangest shit of all, that hole in my closet seemed to disappear. Miya came by this morning to pick me up, she was worried about me, and she had to drive me home apparently yesterday. She said I didn't say a word the entire day. She also said I didn't blink at all, people thought I was on something.

Now we were driving to school, and we were talking about things. You know, just random filler crap that you talk with someone, to either make them more enjoyable, or to make time pass more quickly. Anyhoo, while we were driving, my mind closed off, or something. Everything became red, and slow, exactly like the same night Mindy died, when I shot Ally. It was a strange feeling of euphoria yet complete fear, it felt like I didn't have a single worry in the world. Yet I was deathfully afraid, I felt like I was out of control, hell I didn't even have the feeling of breathing, it was like it was all a dream.

"Max! Max! Are you ok?" is what I heard Miya say when I came too, apparently I have zoned out again like yesterday, but this time it wasn't that long, I came to when we arrived at school, and everything was fine. I headed to class, then shit started shifting again. Everyone in the halls suddenly faded out from reality. Then I see at the end of the hall, Ally standing there, holding something in her arms. On closer inspection it was a scythe. And when I mean closer inspection, I mean she was coming in closer to me, so I did the most sensible thing there was to do: run like hell.

I ran around the corner, then heard Ally say something like "come on Max, it won't hurt, you'll feel better afterwards" what a crazy bitch, I kept running not looking back, or even looking where I was going. I happened to trip and fall flat on my face, now I don't know if you've actually landed with the weight on your face, but it does not feel good. I got up slowly and turned around to see Ally raised with that scythe, the end was near, so I closed my eyes. Nothing happened. I opened my eyes and then I was standing in the hall next to Miya, suddenly out of breath. She looked at me like I was crazy and said "come on, we're gonna be late!"

We headed our separate ways, I went to my first period class, and she went to her's. I spaced out more and more, and now fear that homicidal bitch will be waiting for me at any corner. I figured the only way I can stop her is to face her, again. I could have sworn I finished her off the first time, maybe I didn't, this time, I will. After class, I headed to my locker and got the 9mm, loaded it with a clip, and put it in my pocket; I must be really stealthy, because no one saw me with it.

I waited patiently during the day for the world to change again; this is the first time I wanted the world to change like that. Most of the time I feared it, this time I welcomed it, not with open arms, but with arms of vengeance, for Mark, and for Mindy, and to stop this shit. I don't know what the hell I did to piss that woman off.

Lunchtime came today; I knew it would happen at lunch, it tends to happen at lunch the most. There's no explanation to why it does, it just does. I didn't go to my class that I have my lunch period in. I couldn't bear the excitement; I mean I was actually looking forward to this. Am I sick? Sadistic? Or just plain fucking angry?

I sat down in the courtyard, I was feeling awfully tired for some reason, I couldn't explain why, I did get a lot more sleep last night than I usually do. Well, next thing I knew, I was falling, onto the rock hard cement of the courtyard, the last thing I remembered was seeing the beautiful, yet haunting face of Ally. My first thought was that she drugged me somehow, but that wasn't the case. I woke up, and she was in front of me, with he back towards me, I guess waiting on me to wake up.

I reached for the piece in my pocket, but my arms wouldn't move, it was then I realized that my arms were tied to a pole. Upon closer inspection of the room, it was the same room Miya and me first entered, 'Ally's Room'. Well I was at her mercy and I don't think she saw me wake up yet, because she didn't turn around or anything. I struggled, with every ounce of my body to free myself from those ropes. I could feel the rope's bristle cut my skin, I kept struggling and all without making a sound. I looked back at Ally, to see what she was doing, and apparently she was reading a book. Blood trickled down my wrists, the pain was so fucking unbearable, what the hell kinda ropes was she using? I really wish she'd use something a little softer on my skin.

The rope snapped. Finally. I moved ever so slowly and was careful not to bring attention to myself. I reached in my pocket, and surprise, the 9 wasn't there anymore. Of course Ally wasn't that stupid. I looked around the room to investigate where the piece may have crawled off to, again I was doing this without making a sound. Ally appeared to be really divulged into that book. I finally was able to spot it on a shelf to the left of her, I approached it slowly, and without making a sound. And finally reached for it, and at last it was in my hand..

"Rot in hell bitch." Is what I said to her, as I pushed the gun into the back of her skull, then fired a few bullets into it. As soon as I did that, everything was back to normal, I was in the courtyard again, and I just woke up, someone told me they were all scared and worried that I had suffered a heart attack or something. I told them I was fine and went on with my day. Everything was fine for the rest of the day, at least; maybe things are starting to turn normal again.

October 10

I got to school today, feeling more happy, hell I even gave Miya a kiss on the cheek when I saw her today at school, something I probably havn't since my last girlfriend, and that was years ago.

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I shouldn't have written that, everything went south after lunch. I thought it was all over, I thought I had ended it all, but I am truly fucking insane, you'll see why at the end of this log. Let me start off from after lunch, during the same period I have Miya with, I fell asleep, during class, I knew I shouldn't have done that. It was pretty damn foolish, but I woke up, and alas, I was in that room with Ally, the same bed room, again I was tied to the pole. The first thing I heard from her was "Don't even try to struggle, it's a chain, not rope this time." She said, and followed with "now if you won't repent for your sins yourself, then I'll just have to punish you."

She turned around, back into the dark corner of the room, I couldn't see what she was getting, or doing back there, but then she came back, well 2 people came back, the other, was Miya. She held a knife at Miya's neck.

"I'll give you one more chance Max. I'm being ever so grateful, and after that shit you did 2 years ago, you and what's his name, Mark. But as you remember....hehehe... he's no longer part of the problem" She said, I was confused and really pissed off at the same time, my first thought was, she was referring to that time we smoked up together, I don't know why I thought that. I asked her what the hell she was talking about, and she said "Have you been in denial all this time Max? Fine then, I'll tell you. 2 years ago Max, you and Mark killed those innocents, you killed our followers, and that is unforgivable."

Now everything hit me like a 20 ton, 18-wheeler. I've been trying to block out that memory for years, Mark and me, we did kill those kids, those cultists a few years ago. We were playing truth or dare at the school, and some cultists fuckers approached us, so we defended ourselves, at least that's how I remember it.

"Metatron can't help you this time." She said, then with a swift motion of her left arm, I saw Miya drop to the floor. I guess my adrenal glands were pumping at an alarming rate, because I literally broke the metallic bonds of those chains like it was string, I rushed at Ally, and tackled her to the ground, I saw the knife fly out of her hands, and I picked it up immediately, stabbed her in the face, multiple times. I kept stabbing, I had no choice, she killed Miya, she didn't do shit.

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I then awoke in my room, dazed, and partially confused, but I felt groggy. It's not over obviously, there has to be a way to stop her, and I was going to find out.

Suddenly my mother busted in my room and asked me "Do you know a Miya Lee?" I said that I did and she replied "well, ummm...God...well...They found her dead in her room, with stab wounds on her face. And there was a carving, on her chest, it was an X."

Right then a dark, deep, sinking feeling came into me. I realized something for the first time.

I killed Mark, Mindy, and Miya.

An epiphany occurred as I wrote that. It's all explained on the next page, I gotta take care of something.