October 11

Alright I did some research this morning, instead of you know, going to school like normal people do. I took my mother's car to the library, she will be pissed, but I don't give a shit. I've been in worse scenarios, gotten out ok.

I spent at least 4 hours this morning going through all sorts of strange books in the library, looking up everything on hallucinations, and cults. I eventually found a book entitled Cults by one Dr. Meisenhoffer PH.D. On further investigation of the oddly titled book, it appeared that the book went into great detail on different cult behavior patterns that he studied. Seems like one hell of a waste of time to me, and furthermore, how the flying fuck did he take the time to study some crazy cultists? I'm assuming he dressed up as one of them or something.

In the book, he said he was caught twice, and almost killed once from it, he apparently continued these studies for over 20 years. Why a man would dare research something like this is utter bullshit.

The book was fairly interesting, this man went all around the country joining and studying different cults, from east LA, to up north in Michigan. I was surprised this guy was never on some weird talk show or something, you'd think someone this dedicated to studying humans would eventually get some airtime on one of the late night talk shows. Eventually, I got near the ending; this section was based on a cult nearby, the cult of Silent Hill, as he called it in his book. He claims it could very well be one of the biggest cults in North America, he also says he doesn't even know where the chain goes, they all live underground, and don't bring attention to themselves.

He says that this is the most frightening cult he has ever encountered and he couldn't explain any of the practices in great detail like he could for the other cults. But rumor has it that they operated in nearby towns, such as my town of XXXXXXd and even as far as Colorado! This sick cult has something to do with the strange things that have been going around.

Interesting enough, the book slammed shut, by itself, and I was shifted into another world again, but not of the school, it was the library. Ally appeared from behind a bookshelf, and said "do you think you can hide out in a library all day?" I looked down at her, and saw something gleaming in her hand, it was a glock. If you've ever seen someone come at you with a glock with maliciousness, well you get scared. Once again my adrenal glands kicked in, and I picked up the nearest chair, and charged at her with it. A blow to the head was all it took, and she was collapsed. But that didn't give me time to turn around and rest. I kept going. I was outside, the world was still in its alternative version.

XXXXXXd looked like a ghost town, there was not a single thing moving, it was eerie and yet soothing in a way, any other day of the year where I was being chased I would enjoy the silence. But these are extrenuating circumstances man. I got in my car, and started it up, well tried to start it up, it didn't work, infact, the engine didn't even rev up. Ok, so I got scared, I got out of the car, and started running, I headed into a connivance store, that was also empty, and hid out in there for the night.

For the first few hours in here, I was afraid, then around 7 PM, I let my guard down a little and ate a bag of chips that were here, at least there was food around.

I kept myself entertained for a few hours by reading the various magazines the store had, eventually I was exhausted, a thought to myself fuck it, so I'm off to sleep now.

October 12

I awoke this morning from some cans falling over at the other end of the store, then heard someone say "awww shit!" It wasn't Ally, because it was obviously a guy's voice. I got up slowly, and noticed the busy street outside, apparently it went back to my normal world while I was asleep, so yes, I slept in a fuckin convenience store. I struggled to get up, because after all, sleeping on tile floor hurts like hell the next day. I noticed there was a back door, so I headed out that way strangely it wasn't locked, so I headed outside. I'm a sly man, I am. I don't know many other people my age, or hell, any people period that spent the night on the floor of a convenience store, well at least without the consent of the owner.

During my drive back home, I realized something, that thing I realized was that I had never actually read my old journal entries. I decided maybe I can find some clues, or at least if nothing, get a refresher about stuff from 2 years ago.

The journals were still stored in the normal place, in my cardboard box, labeled "Space Wars Action Figures" that no longer held those old toys. I finally found the one that was labeled 2 years ago, and started flipping through the pages. Wow, I was really fucking depressed back then, I sure as hell needed to enjoy life more. The whole damn thing was filled with "Ooooh woe is me, my life is horrible, Melissa won't go out with me...blah...blah" I actually started laughing at that. I wish I could go back in time and tell my other self about my current life now, see if he still whines then!

The past entries didn't explain anything, nothing at all, they were just boring stupid shit, I tossed them back into the closet and got something to eat.

The drive to school was incredibly longer than usual, I have no clue why. I didn't even feel like I was driving at all, I felt like I was just sitting in a car, and the world was moving around me instead. I didn't even remember stopping at any stop signs or stop lights.

I got to school, I still don't know what day it is, everytime I look at a calander it's blurry, and I can't tell. Now I headed to class, everyone seemed to avoid me, very strange, I tried talking to someone in the halls I know, and they just walked off faster. I never felt this alone until now, I didn't know what else to do, I can't talk to anyone, can't go anywhere, and won't snuff it, I refuse to go down like that. I may have done those things, but that does make me a bad person? Even if I repent?

Around 3rd period, the world shifted again, and away I went into some fucked up reality again. This time it was slightly different, everything turned black for a brief second, and random colours flashed. I was in the courtyard, it was dead, there was nothing green there, just dirt, like when that beast attacked me. Fearing the worst, I reached for my gun, well, the gun wasn't there, I was unarmed.

A young silhouette of a girl appeared from behind a dead tree, it was not Ally, but rather Miya! Well, I was happy for a brief moment; she said to me "don't get your fuckin hopes up Max" and then faded into Ally. Yup, it was Ally, she had some kind of blade, well this time, I didn't run, I just stood there.

"Give it up, Max" she said, "Samael always helps those who follow him, you are the evil one! The one sent to destroy us." What the flying fuck was she talking about? Then a strange feeling came into me, I couldn't explain it at all, like a surge of energy came inside of me.

"I'm the evil one? Well, I guess I better fulfill my mission then!" I said, hell I didn't know what compelled. I rushed at her on impulse, didn't give two shits about what happened. And she took a swing at me, and made a deep cut in my left arm, well I rolled, right into her, and knocked her down. I immediately got up, she was still on the ground and was just about getting up, I got up and went over to her. I then grabbed her by the hair, and took her head, and with one quick snap from my hand, her neck span. Not all the way around, but part of her face was looking directly back at me, as I did that she fell to the ground.

Once again everything was all fucked up around me, well I didn't stay around to find out. I headed out of the courtyard and decided to find a place to hide out again until things went back to normal, I headed to the gyms and went into the girls lockerroom, I figured it would be a least likely place to fi-

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