Author's notes: Bonus Chapter dedicated to Selmak and her fans!

Selmak stopped on the steps, after emerging from the Stargate, and took a deep breath of the dry desert air before heading to the ring location. Her host, Jacob, had willing given her full control of his body. The last time she was actually in control was during their capture, it was not a memorable occasion. However, since that time much has happened. Much that only served to strengthen the bond with her host.

Almost entirely on his own, Jacob finally learned to overcome his deepest pain and reach an understanding about himself. In doing so the relationship with his daughter Samantha grew stronger. As well has the relationship with his son, Mark.

Jacob was a little hesitant when presenting Mark with a special photo album Jacob arranged himself. The pictures were primarily of his wife, Allison, from the time she was a girl to the year she died. At first there was a long agonizing moment, until Mark literally threw his arms around his father and squeezed the breath out of Jacob's lungs. He eagerly returned the favor.

That was her host, her Jacob; he had come so far since their blending. Selmak was so proud of him. And yes, she loved him too. She learned her fears were unfounded for keeping secrets from him. He wasn't angry or upset but understanding and sympathetic. Selmak was pleasantly surprised when Jacob asked her to remain awake during his vacation with his family. After all, they were her family too.

During their vacation Selmak had never felt such happiness from Jacob. There were times his joy was so overwhelming she felt absolutely delirious, allowing herself to be completely consumed by it. His happiness was her happiness and together it made their pain a distant memory.

Now she was home. Or at least close enough to a home. For Jacob home will always be Earth, not even Selmak could persuade him differently nor would she even try. Home for her was, and has been for hundreds of years, the sandy planets and crystal tunnels of the Tok'ra. True the décor was rather dull and boring, but the life of a Tok'ra was anything but dull.

Selmak was happy to be back. Not necessarily happy about running for their lives from time to time but happy to be back with her friends. Once below the surface she was greeted with that tingly sensation when nearing other symbiotes, her friends. She missed the sensation. On Earth she only felt a slight tinge when near Samantha, which made Jacob happy to sense his daughter's presence. Only there was nothing like feeling dozens upon dozens of symbiotes in the immediate vicinity. It was feeling she had all her life and it made her extremely happy. And her happiness was also Jacob's.

Despite leaving Earth and his family, Jacob was already in such a wonderfully mood. And it was difficult to tell whose happiness was affecting who. The only thing spoiling the moment was a small pang of guilt she was feeling deep within. Jacob had opened up completely to Selmak hiding nothing, making him feel blissfully content, while she felt guilty for keeping one secret from him.

So Selmak decided it was finally time, time to reveal the one last secret she was keeping from him. Plus, it was better that she tells him here in their quarters while they were alone. And he was in such a good mood, why not tell him now.

'You know Selmak, I can shave my goatee if you really don't like it,' Jacob said as she unpacked her favorite sweets.

'That won't be necessary Jacob. I've grown accustomed to it.'

'Then what's wrong?'

Selmak sighed, relinquishing control of Jacob's body back to him only heightening his awareness that something was troubling her.

'Why did you do that? I was content to tag along.'

'I know Jacob.'

'So what's wrong?'

'There is something I wish to tell you. One last secret I've been keeping from you.'

'What?' he asked, a little surprised.

Selmak hesitated and her host picked up on it. Jacob seemed more acutely aware of her now. She suddenly began to wonder if she would ever get away with anything ever again.

'What is it, Selmak?'

Of course she would. He knew something was wrong and yet he didn't not know what that something was. Encouraged Selmak continued.

'Jacob, do you remember anything about the last time we had Goa'uld rum?'

'I don't remember. Why?

'Well...how do I put this...'

'It's easier if you just spit it out,' he said playfully teasing her sensing her discomfort. She knew he was relishing the fact that she was uncomfortable for once, instead of him. 'Selmak? Are you still there?'

'Yes, Jacob,' she replied after a long moment.

'Come on. Tell me I won't get mad.'

Selmak was silet but she did squim around a little.

'What can be more embarrassing than my daughter seeing what kind of boxer shorts I like to wear?'

Selmak didn't answer that question. But she was imagining a few scenarios, including the one she was about to reveal to him.

'I'm not sure how to say this.'

'Just tell me...I won't get mad, promise.'

'Iamnotavirginanymore,' she said really fast.

'What did you say? I didn't understand you.'

'I said, I'm not a virgin anymore.'

'I knew that!'

'No, Jacob. I don't think you're understanding me.'

'Selmak...?'

'Well, you are my first male host...'

'Oh God...' Jacob gasped sitting slowly on the bed.

'I was curious...'

'I'm not sure I want to know!' he said covering his eyes with one hand.

'And she was flirting with us...'

'I'm not listening...Lalalalalalalala,' he said plugging his ears with his fingers.

'It just kind of happened!'

'Oh God...Selmak! Please tell me it wasn't Anise!'

Selmak didn't say anything but she was giggling.

'Selmak! Be honest...Tell me it wasn't Anise!'

Even more giggling!

'SELMAK!'

'Oh alright!' she said still laughing and sent him a mental image.

'Oh...well...I always thought she was pretty.'

'Yes, Jacob I know.'

'What do you mean you know?'

'Well...whose impulses do you think I was acting upon?'

Selmak instantly felt Jacob's cheeks blushing.

'She liked your boxers too!' Selmak laughed unable to resist one more remark.

Selmak burst into roaring laughter feeling his cheeks turn an even brighter shade of red. Then after a moment Jacob join her. It was good to be home!