Chapter Six: Just Like Always
Hermione ran up to the common room to see if Draco, no Skye, was there. He was! She really needed to talk to him.
"Skye, eh? It's interesting I'll grant it that." Draco said with a laughing smile.
"This's strange, I don't think I've ever seen you smile and truely mean it."
"I don't think I ever have before. . . if Father ever saw me show any sign of emotion I would get beaten." He started to crawl back into his shell. He had never told anybody about anything personal before, course nobody ever cared enough to listen either.
"Oh, Draco, I am so sorry! Is there something I can do? anything?" Hermione tryed to comfort him but it was to late, his automatic defences had already taken control. He backed off, he did not want anyone to feel sorry for him, nor did he want to show his feelings. . . he was not ready.
"No, nothing. I don't want your pity or need your help. I don't need anyones help for that matter!"
"Oh cut the bull Draco! Don't pull the 'I have to be tough and arrogant' crap on me! It won't work I'm a master at pulling it myself. Don't you remember my first year at Hogwarts, I was too full of myself to realize I needed FRIENDS!" Hermione was crying and screaming at him. "ARE YOU LISTENING TO ME?! Look at me Draco! You have to feel eventually, even your FATHER has, it was just hate, but he still felt! If you never feel you'd be better off DEAD!" Anger flashed through her eyes and tears streamed down her cheeks.
"You know you're right, just like always." Draco said cooly. "I'm sorry, it's just instinct, to pull away. . ." There was a long silence.
"I need to talk to talk to Ron," Hermione said still really upset. "I need to apoligize."
"Why so you guys can go back to dating like all this never happened?!?!" He crossed his arms around his knees and slowly rocked back and forth, he put his down to hide the on coming flood of tears he could no longer prevent.
"Draco, I was wanting you to come with me. . . I could never forget about this time I have had to slowly get to know you. Ron and I are just going to be friends anyway, I don't want to be anymore than that with him for a long while."
'I can't believe I just showed her any emotion at all, I know this day would come. . . I just hoped I could have told her how I felt before this day would come. She is just going to go straight back to him saying 'I'm so stupid for hurting you like that please take me back' I saw the look of jealousy in her eyes at the dance.That's the reason I kissed her, to keep her. . . And who does she thinks she is saying I need friends cause I don't have any?!?!? I have Crabbe, Goyle, and Parkinson. . . And why would I need love anyway all love does is cause pain, I above all people should know.'
"You can go alone, I don't want to go anywhere with you." Draco was still upset but was no longer crying.
"Draco, please! I can wait till you feel like going if you want. . . I beg of you! We are still going out anyway. . . aren't we? So there is no need to be jealous." Hermione said in a soothing and sincere voice.
'She's just saying things to keep me from getting 'mad'. She's not sure of herself. . . should I go or shouldn't I?' then a memory a flash back of something she told him came to mind. '"I do." she trusted in me, I think I should do the same for her.'
"I'm sorry Mione, I kinda went crazy for a second, I'm not used to crying or sharing my feelings at all. Of course I will go with you, but. . . oh never mind I'll tell you later. Let's go talk to Ron, and tell him we are sorry." He swollowed his pride and for the first time was glad he had.
"I forgive you if can forgive me for slapping you today, I guess we both went a little crazy, huh, sexy?" They burst into laughter and started to Gryffindor tower when they had caught there breath.
Draco grabbed hermione and kissed her pationately on the lips right in front of the fat lady. Ron and Harry ran inside quickly trying to hide their disgust. When Hermione saw that Ron and Harry were inside. . . She wacked Draco upside the head so hard he couldn't bear to open his eyes back up for fear that hers will burn them right out his eye sockets with anger.
"YOU BLOODY JERK! I'LL KILL YOU!" Hermione screamed.
A teary eyed Draco looked at her and said, "I'm sorry I just had to let you know how I truely feel." and with that he ran off.
Before he got out of ear shot she screamed, "DON'T YOU SEE WHAT YOU'VE DONE? YOU MIGHT'VE RUINED MY CHANCE OF EVER BEING THEIR FRIEND AGAIN!!!!!"
Draco was in his four poster with the curtains closed crying. 'I will never care again. . . for anyone! It hurts to much. . .' He got up wiped his tears and went to Slytherin tower to be with the people he hated most being with.
"Drakie!!! I missed you!!! Are you free to go to Hogsmaede Saturday? I would love to go with you! Are you still with that mudblood? Have you taken a shower since you last saw her?" Why couldn't Pansy ask someone else annoying questions? Why him?
"Pansy be nicer to Granger than that, no I have not taken a shower in the last five minutes. What were your other questions again? I wasn't listening. . ."
"Oh, Draco don't play like that it's not nice!" Pansy whined more so than usual.
"Whatever," Draco drawled. 'O.K. maybe I was wrong. . . do they count as friends if you hate them? I'll ask later.' He was pulled out of his thought when he heard pansy. . . again.
"Were you even listening Draco? I feel like all you do is ignore me anymore. . ."
"Pansy, that is what I have always tryed to do." Draco stated cruelly and an evil smirk crossed his face. "I have to go do my prefect duties and then go to bed, G'night Pansy."
'I have to talk to Mione, she'll never forgive me, I don't think. . . but I have to try. What am I doing I said I would never feel again and I am thinking about the one person that caused that! I think I am going crazy. All well, one of the few things she has taught me is to fallow my instincts.'
Hermione ran up to the common room to see if Draco, no Skye, was there. He was! She really needed to talk to him.
"Skye, eh? It's interesting I'll grant it that." Draco said with a laughing smile.
"This's strange, I don't think I've ever seen you smile and truely mean it."
"I don't think I ever have before. . . if Father ever saw me show any sign of emotion I would get beaten." He started to crawl back into his shell. He had never told anybody about anything personal before, course nobody ever cared enough to listen either.
"Oh, Draco, I am so sorry! Is there something I can do? anything?" Hermione tryed to comfort him but it was to late, his automatic defences had already taken control. He backed off, he did not want anyone to feel sorry for him, nor did he want to show his feelings. . . he was not ready.
"No, nothing. I don't want your pity or need your help. I don't need anyones help for that matter!"
"Oh cut the bull Draco! Don't pull the 'I have to be tough and arrogant' crap on me! It won't work I'm a master at pulling it myself. Don't you remember my first year at Hogwarts, I was too full of myself to realize I needed FRIENDS!" Hermione was crying and screaming at him. "ARE YOU LISTENING TO ME?! Look at me Draco! You have to feel eventually, even your FATHER has, it was just hate, but he still felt! If you never feel you'd be better off DEAD!" Anger flashed through her eyes and tears streamed down her cheeks.
"You know you're right, just like always." Draco said cooly. "I'm sorry, it's just instinct, to pull away. . ." There was a long silence.
"I need to talk to talk to Ron," Hermione said still really upset. "I need to apoligize."
"Why so you guys can go back to dating like all this never happened?!?!" He crossed his arms around his knees and slowly rocked back and forth, he put his down to hide the on coming flood of tears he could no longer prevent.
"Draco, I was wanting you to come with me. . . I could never forget about this time I have had to slowly get to know you. Ron and I are just going to be friends anyway, I don't want to be anymore than that with him for a long while."
'I can't believe I just showed her any emotion at all, I know this day would come. . . I just hoped I could have told her how I felt before this day would come. She is just going to go straight back to him saying 'I'm so stupid for hurting you like that please take me back' I saw the look of jealousy in her eyes at the dance.That's the reason I kissed her, to keep her. . . And who does she thinks she is saying I need friends cause I don't have any?!?!? I have Crabbe, Goyle, and Parkinson. . . And why would I need love anyway all love does is cause pain, I above all people should know.'
"You can go alone, I don't want to go anywhere with you." Draco was still upset but was no longer crying.
"Draco, please! I can wait till you feel like going if you want. . . I beg of you! We are still going out anyway. . . aren't we? So there is no need to be jealous." Hermione said in a soothing and sincere voice.
'She's just saying things to keep me from getting 'mad'. She's not sure of herself. . . should I go or shouldn't I?' then a memory a flash back of something she told him came to mind. '"I do." she trusted in me, I think I should do the same for her.'
"I'm sorry Mione, I kinda went crazy for a second, I'm not used to crying or sharing my feelings at all. Of course I will go with you, but. . . oh never mind I'll tell you later. Let's go talk to Ron, and tell him we are sorry." He swollowed his pride and for the first time was glad he had.
"I forgive you if can forgive me for slapping you today, I guess we both went a little crazy, huh, sexy?" They burst into laughter and started to Gryffindor tower when they had caught there breath.
Draco grabbed hermione and kissed her pationately on the lips right in front of the fat lady. Ron and Harry ran inside quickly trying to hide their disgust. When Hermione saw that Ron and Harry were inside. . . She wacked Draco upside the head so hard he couldn't bear to open his eyes back up for fear that hers will burn them right out his eye sockets with anger.
"YOU BLOODY JERK! I'LL KILL YOU!" Hermione screamed.
A teary eyed Draco looked at her and said, "I'm sorry I just had to let you know how I truely feel." and with that he ran off.
Before he got out of ear shot she screamed, "DON'T YOU SEE WHAT YOU'VE DONE? YOU MIGHT'VE RUINED MY CHANCE OF EVER BEING THEIR FRIEND AGAIN!!!!!"
Draco was in his four poster with the curtains closed crying. 'I will never care again. . . for anyone! It hurts to much. . .' He got up wiped his tears and went to Slytherin tower to be with the people he hated most being with.
"Drakie!!! I missed you!!! Are you free to go to Hogsmaede Saturday? I would love to go with you! Are you still with that mudblood? Have you taken a shower since you last saw her?" Why couldn't Pansy ask someone else annoying questions? Why him?
"Pansy be nicer to Granger than that, no I have not taken a shower in the last five minutes. What were your other questions again? I wasn't listening. . ."
"Oh, Draco don't play like that it's not nice!" Pansy whined more so than usual.
"Whatever," Draco drawled. 'O.K. maybe I was wrong. . . do they count as friends if you hate them? I'll ask later.' He was pulled out of his thought when he heard pansy. . . again.
"Were you even listening Draco? I feel like all you do is ignore me anymore. . ."
"Pansy, that is what I have always tryed to do." Draco stated cruelly and an evil smirk crossed his face. "I have to go do my prefect duties and then go to bed, G'night Pansy."
'I have to talk to Mione, she'll never forgive me, I don't think. . . but I have to try. What am I doing I said I would never feel again and I am thinking about the one person that caused that! I think I am going crazy. All well, one of the few things she has taught me is to fallow my instincts.'