AN: Piroko again. I think I may have finally managed to get my act together. DDR's good for that. Cleanses the body, mind and soul. AMV's do the same thing. They also seem to be a good source of songs to use for songfics. Thanks to my "good friend" MajinKenshin, and his AMV "Toushi" I'm able to write this fic. This song was "borrowed" from that AMV. Now I'm not promoting anything here coughdownloadToushinowcoughbut if you know him or know when he's on AIM, tell him thanks, and that "Toushi" soooooooo totally r0x0rz. Also, the title of this fic was given to me by my good friend 'Ancient of Faith', because I was lacking in that department. As per usual, read and review, I don't own TT or the song used in this fic (which I still have no idea the name of or the name of the group that does it, oh well). Enjoy.
BTW: This is an alternate ending to one of the "Aftershock" episodes. Follows Ravens feelings of letting the Titans down and not looking deeper into Terra's betrayal.
::I'm everything you knowYou wonder friend or foe
I'm the burning in your throat when you swallow
And when you spit me out
You're stomach full of doubt
Now you're faking every word out of your mouth::
"And I know all about your little 'temper tantrums'." She heard the voice ring clearer now than it had during their brief skirmish.
Raven had been plagued by that defeat endlessly. She couldn't stand the idea of having been beaten, the idea that someone knew her that well, and could take full advantage of her. That would never happen again.
::And when you wanna go
It's all about control
Understand I'm going to lead
You will follow
Now I don't wanna stay
And I'm running away
Don't you hear me when I say…::
Raven headed out into the living room. Abandoned. The rest of the Titans were asleep. It was midnight after all. And after "mourning" the loss of Terra, they all decided that they needed a goodnight's rest, save one.
"So this is it. The last time I see this room. The last time I'm in this tower. Gone. Never to return. Sad almost," She spoke in a low, solemn tone. For it was true. She would leave, never to return.
::Goodbye
So long
Nice Try
I'm gone
You don't like being second
I don't like being wrong::
She left the room and headed for the elevator. Raven hit the button for ground floor and emerged into the night. She reached shore by levitating the short distance over the water. The darkest Titan, feeling that she had failed and let everyone down, took one last look at Titan's Tower. Tears welled up in her eyes as she turned her back on what was all she'd ever really known. She'd never find friends like that in the real world. She'd never find friends again. She was lost in this world, never to be found.
::I won't forget
The way you made me feel
I won't regret
Running away from here
So I say goodbye again
So I say goodbye again…::
She turned and ran, tears streaming down her cheeks. Running blindly into the darkness. She had let them down. She had let them all down, every last one. She should've seen it coming, but was blinded by the trust she had just handed to Terra. No one had just been handed trust from her. Raven never just handed out things like that. It was her fault. She couldn't save Robin. She couldn't save Beast Boy. She couldn't save Starfire or Cyborg. Even Terra fell because of her. She couldn't even save herself.
::Goodbye
So long
Nice try
I'm gone
You don't like being second
I don't like being wrong
I won't forget
The way you made me feel
I won't regret
Running away from here
So I'll say goodbye again…
I'll say goodbye again…
Everything was her fault. Raven was merely a hindrance to the Titans. There was no reason for her to be there. They would be much better without her. But what about her? It didn't matter. Nothing mattered anymore. She just ran, deep into the night.
AN: Yes the song was altered for use in this fic. No, I don't intend to update twice in one week unless I've posted a PFD (Piroko Filler Day) and just come up with something in the same night/day/weekend. Hope you enjoyed it. Possible sequel, but I wouldn't bet on it.
-Piroko
