Warning. The thingy you're about to read is kinda explicit – not enough to rate R or NC-17, but getting there. Also, it's yaoi. Blatant two-guys-screwing. Run or read on, it's your choice…the lack of capitals and some punctuation were intentional, but they might make it difficult to read.
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when you let me take you, it's not submission for you, not dominion for me
-- it's acceptance for us both --
unspoken permission in the way your hands trace themselves over my cheek, how you kiss me
-- not rough like it usually is, but gentle, oh so gentle, your tongue sliding over mine. you taste like steel and spices. sharp, irresistible, unforgettable --
no words; words would ruin everything. instead the silence broken only by the softest, the lowest of sounds. touch me, you say with your eyes, half closed behind long dark lashes. do it
-- so rare, these moments. you're so willing --
the first time this happened, i thought it was a dream, that you would never allow it from anyone, much less from me
-- a private miracle, that you let me near you at all --
there is more than perfection here in this room, i always think to myself – something far, far better. there is warmth, and the first coherent phrase that passes from your lips. my name, you whisper my name, and it's all i could ever ask for
-- you don't resist me as i enter you, body relaxed underneath mine, only the set of your jaw and the way your nails dig into my arms betraying pain that is a twinge in the dark and gone. i know that much – our positions are so often in reverse --
i never understand how you can be so unresisting, giving yourself up in this most intimate of ways. always you fight for dominion, for authority, for power over others. why not here? even when he claimed you, you resisted. so how come with me, of all people, that is never the case?
-- because i don't expect it, don't ask for it, don't ever take it for granted? --
skin to skin, desire for desire, movement for movement, pleasure for pleasure; spirits, loving you like this is indescribable. nothing in the world matters more than this moment. ride it with me
-- i want you to feel, to forget him even if it's just for a short while. to be gentle where he was hurtful (though i believe it when you say you've gotten over that, it's just something i have to do.) i want to heal your old wounds and smooth away every…last…trace… --
heat, desperate strain and the feeling of a rising, cresting wave of sensation that crashes down and sweeps me away in the white light of release
-- bound by the feel of your heartbeat against mine and the breathless gasps resounding in my ears --
the room seems very warm and very quiet when i finally open my eyes and pull away from you. as i watch, your breathing slows, evens out, but you don't open your eyes, face relaxed and drowsy. turning over, i pull you into my arms, tracing the familiar pattern on the span of your back; for once, you don't shove me away
-- and the night folds velvet wings as you let me hold you, drifting blissfully into the realm of dreams…--
share it with me awhile.
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A/N: Geeeehhhh. I never wrote anything THAT explicit before, though…well…is this counted as R? I don't think it deserves a rating so high, though…
I LIKED writing this, truth be told…and not really for its content, you perverts. I guess I'm just a sucker for the 'dreamy' feel I tried to include in it, and the sort-of-undertones of what could be a plot. (Yeeeaaaaaah.)
Beta 4 Hire – Fluff good. Unintentional Nightmare – I've seen a couple of RenLyserg comics, very funny things XD Everyone loves Ren, ne? And Horohoro shouldn't wear shorts all the time. He'll catch a cold. EneriRenie – Alam ko! Okay nga e, masarap pag malamig! Mwahaha…my RenHoro fangirlness is catching…mwahaha…Ren/Pilica is good too though *nods* Mahojin - *squish* I'm glad you liked it… *JEALOUSY* YOU HAVE MANKIN MANGA?! It's so hard to find manga here… *whimpers* I wanna order Shonen Jump.
So, can you guess the pairing here, and the 'him' who keeps getting mentioned? To my eye, it's really easy…but I dunno. List your guess in the reviews if you like – I'll write a one-shot on request for whoever gets all three right first, as long as it doesn't involve a Mary-Sue or a pairing that is just too darn impossible (e.g. Chocolove x Kalim or something….argh! BAD IMAGE!)
Sou da, read, review, make your guesses and I'll see you all next chapter!