A/N: hey readers, I am really really pissed at my mother, so I'm sorry if any of my caracters sound pissed also. Dont blame me, blame my mother. And also, somehow, when we renewed my computer, the microsoft word program got messed up so I have to write in this wordpad thingy.
It might look weird, and different from the other chapters, and this one doesnt have spell check so sorry for any grammar mistakes, please bare with me until I get it fixed. k, here we go..
Oh, right...
Thanks to...
Crimson3: you are soooo right. I do write this for myself, and I really dont care how many reviews I get. That is such good advice! Thank you so much! And it is not true that your stories suck, I love Past Memories, which you have to update soon, I'm dying waiting for the new chapter.
Tensleep: Ha, my older sister calls me weird too, I guess I should start calling my little sister that. She's too cute tho, and I'm not as mean as my older sister. You are sooo lucky to have an older brother. Lol, I love cliffhangers too! I'll try to finish this chapter with one just for you.
Naria4: hope you like this chapter, sorry to keep you waiting for so long.
Sareal: Yeah, I love cliffhangers. I might end this chapter with one too. I promise to update faster. Enjoy.
Ok, I think thats it, I am totally lost, and I lost track of the reviews, so thank you for those whom I mighta forgotten.
I sighed. I really didnt feel like fighting. I reached for blade in the back pocket of my jeans. There was nothing. No blade, no nothing. Oh shit! I think I mighta left it in my other jeans. I started to get nervous.
"What do you want?" I shot them one of my 'dont bother me, I'm not in the mood' look.
"Oh, you know, just looking for some fun, how do you feel about a good run?"
I sighed again. It was gonna be a long night....or morning really.
"Or we could do something funner."
I cocked one eyebrow. Terrible toughts past through my mind. "What do you mean?" I asked, almost not wanting to know the answer.
"I think you know what I mean." the soc said.
"No, I think I dont." I tried to sound like a smartass, and keep my cool, but I was scared as hell.
"Then we can show you." he move towards me, as I backed up.
"No, I'd rather if you not." I looked around for anything. A piece of pipe, a chain, a broken pop bottle, but there was nothing.
'Damn these people, they always litter, except when I need them to' I though to myself.
Two of the socs grabbed my arms and held me back. One of them grabbed my long brown hair behind my back. I shrieked as he pulled on it. I think he mighta pulled a handful off. The (I assumed) leader soc, took my thin, narrow glasses off, and crushed them under his foot.
Nausia came over me as he picked them up and showed them to me. Damn, now I couldnt see. Great, fucking great! I suddenly knew what he was about to do to me.
A chill when down my spine as he burried his face into my neck. I winced as he put his hands under my shirt. In a second he ripped open my pajama top and unbuttoned my jeans. I was down to my pink underwear and bra. The worst thing was that the stupid soc's stupid soc gang would be watching the whole time.
Ok, no that wasnt the worst thing, the worst thing was that I was here, and getting raped by a soc. A million thoughts swam in my mind.
What if I get pregnant, what if...oh, god, my 15 years of being a virgin was ending right now. I felt so dirty! I snapped out of my thoughts and realized that maybe...just maybe if I yelled loud enough, someone would hear and come help me.
I went wild, I screamed for someone, anyone. I kicked and cried, but no one came running to rescue me nor did the socs stop the awful thing they were doing to me. I just wanted it to be over. I closed my eyes, and let the tears fall.
When the dirty bastard finished his business, he let me go. He kissed me hard on the lips and thanked me for "the delight" as he put it. I winced at the sound of his voice. I never wanted to see him or any of his friends ever again.
I got up from the ground, and got dressed. I could barely walk. My legs felt unattached from my body. I noticed that I was limping. That dirty son of a....I held myself from blowing up. Cuz when I get upset I cry. And I really didnt want to cry at this point, not to mention in the middle of the road.
I carried myself to the nearest bench and collapsed. I closed my eyes and let the tiredness take over.
*~*~*~*
I must have fallen asleep in the park for quite some time. When I woke up there was light. There were people that were having a walk in the park with their kids, and getting seriously disturbed with the view of a 15 year old mess. I groaned and forced myself to stand up. I got as far as a lot, dragging my left leg, which hurt like a bitch!
I spotted some guys playing football in the lot. They looked around my age, maybe older. One of them turned around to get a look at me. It looked like......he was........Ponyboy Curtis?
*~*~*~*
Sorry to end it here. It's short, but it's the best I can do. I basically forced myself to write this, becuase I want to continue this story, but I just dont know where to go. I could use some ideas, but please dont pile a bunch of them on me. I will try to update faster this time. I've just been really busy with school, friends, and tennis.
I'll probably start writing the next chapter tomorrow, so it should be out on thursday, the latest, I promise!
As always,
TARA
(oh, and some of you know my name as Kate, I mean it is Kate, that's my first name, but lately, I've been going with my middle name, Tara, it just seems more right. So yeah, tara it is.)
It might look weird, and different from the other chapters, and this one doesnt have spell check so sorry for any grammar mistakes, please bare with me until I get it fixed. k, here we go..
Oh, right...
Thanks to...
Crimson3: you are soooo right. I do write this for myself, and I really dont care how many reviews I get. That is such good advice! Thank you so much! And it is not true that your stories suck, I love Past Memories, which you have to update soon, I'm dying waiting for the new chapter.
Tensleep: Ha, my older sister calls me weird too, I guess I should start calling my little sister that. She's too cute tho, and I'm not as mean as my older sister. You are sooo lucky to have an older brother. Lol, I love cliffhangers too! I'll try to finish this chapter with one just for you.
Naria4: hope you like this chapter, sorry to keep you waiting for so long.
Sareal: Yeah, I love cliffhangers. I might end this chapter with one too. I promise to update faster. Enjoy.
Ok, I think thats it, I am totally lost, and I lost track of the reviews, so thank you for those whom I mighta forgotten.
I sighed. I really didnt feel like fighting. I reached for blade in the back pocket of my jeans. There was nothing. No blade, no nothing. Oh shit! I think I mighta left it in my other jeans. I started to get nervous.
"What do you want?" I shot them one of my 'dont bother me, I'm not in the mood' look.
"Oh, you know, just looking for some fun, how do you feel about a good run?"
I sighed again. It was gonna be a long night....or morning really.
"Or we could do something funner."
I cocked one eyebrow. Terrible toughts past through my mind. "What do you mean?" I asked, almost not wanting to know the answer.
"I think you know what I mean." the soc said.
"No, I think I dont." I tried to sound like a smartass, and keep my cool, but I was scared as hell.
"Then we can show you." he move towards me, as I backed up.
"No, I'd rather if you not." I looked around for anything. A piece of pipe, a chain, a broken pop bottle, but there was nothing.
'Damn these people, they always litter, except when I need them to' I though to myself.
Two of the socs grabbed my arms and held me back. One of them grabbed my long brown hair behind my back. I shrieked as he pulled on it. I think he mighta pulled a handful off. The (I assumed) leader soc, took my thin, narrow glasses off, and crushed them under his foot.
Nausia came over me as he picked them up and showed them to me. Damn, now I couldnt see. Great, fucking great! I suddenly knew what he was about to do to me.
A chill when down my spine as he burried his face into my neck. I winced as he put his hands under my shirt. In a second he ripped open my pajama top and unbuttoned my jeans. I was down to my pink underwear and bra. The worst thing was that the stupid soc's stupid soc gang would be watching the whole time.
Ok, no that wasnt the worst thing, the worst thing was that I was here, and getting raped by a soc. A million thoughts swam in my mind.
What if I get pregnant, what if...oh, god, my 15 years of being a virgin was ending right now. I felt so dirty! I snapped out of my thoughts and realized that maybe...just maybe if I yelled loud enough, someone would hear and come help me.
I went wild, I screamed for someone, anyone. I kicked and cried, but no one came running to rescue me nor did the socs stop the awful thing they were doing to me. I just wanted it to be over. I closed my eyes, and let the tears fall.
When the dirty bastard finished his business, he let me go. He kissed me hard on the lips and thanked me for "the delight" as he put it. I winced at the sound of his voice. I never wanted to see him or any of his friends ever again.
I got up from the ground, and got dressed. I could barely walk. My legs felt unattached from my body. I noticed that I was limping. That dirty son of a....I held myself from blowing up. Cuz when I get upset I cry. And I really didnt want to cry at this point, not to mention in the middle of the road.
I carried myself to the nearest bench and collapsed. I closed my eyes and let the tiredness take over.
*~*~*~*
I must have fallen asleep in the park for quite some time. When I woke up there was light. There were people that were having a walk in the park with their kids, and getting seriously disturbed with the view of a 15 year old mess. I groaned and forced myself to stand up. I got as far as a lot, dragging my left leg, which hurt like a bitch!
I spotted some guys playing football in the lot. They looked around my age, maybe older. One of them turned around to get a look at me. It looked like......he was........Ponyboy Curtis?
*~*~*~*
Sorry to end it here. It's short, but it's the best I can do. I basically forced myself to write this, becuase I want to continue this story, but I just dont know where to go. I could use some ideas, but please dont pile a bunch of them on me. I will try to update faster this time. I've just been really busy with school, friends, and tennis.
I'll probably start writing the next chapter tomorrow, so it should be out on thursday, the latest, I promise!
As always,
TARA
(oh, and some of you know my name as Kate, I mean it is Kate, that's my first name, but lately, I've been going with my middle name, Tara, it just seems more right. So yeah, tara it is.)