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The lyrics below are from " Serenity " by Godsmack

Tragic visions slowly stole my life
Tore away everything
Cheating me out of my time
I'm the one who loves you
No matter wrong or right
And every day I hold you
I hold you with my inner child

I need serenity
In a place where I can hide
I need serenity
Nothing changes, days go by

Harry woke when he felt a pair of eyes watching him as he slept. He sat up startled and came face to face to Remus Lupin. Harry breathed in a sigh of relief and ran a hand through his hair precariously. Lupin smiled silently at Harry and moved to sit cross-legged next to him on the rood.

" Sleep well, Harry? " Lupin asked.

" As well as can be expected sleeping on a rood. " Harry grunted, rubbing his eyes gently. " What time is it? "

" Nearly ten. " Lupin replied. He sighed softly. " Harry what were you thinking? "

" What the hell do you mean? Malfoy has his hands all over my girlfriend. " Harry snapped, angrily.

" So that gave you the right to punch him? " Lupin's voice was disdainful as he eyed Harry.

" I'd say so. " the boy replied. " What are you doing here anyways. "

" Tonks and I came to wish you a Happy Christmas. Apparently it hasn't been so Happy though. "

" That's the understatement of the year. " Harry snorted.

" Don't get lippy with me boy. I came up here to make sure you were ok. Everyone is worried sick about you. You ran off earlier and no one could find you then you ran off again and no one could find you. Harry what happened? " Lupin asked, concerned.

" Serena lied to me. " Harry stated simply.

" And? " Lupin urged.

" She told me all this bullshit about how she loved me and so on and so forth and then I find out that she had this boyfriend in America all this time who sent her a ring for Christmas and asked her to marry him. I couldn't help it. I lost it and told her that she was a conniving bitch. I had to get away for a little while so I ran into the woods to calm down. When I came back to the castle I saw Malfoy with his hands all over her and I blew up again. He called me a pussy and that was the straw that broke the camel's back. So I hit him. " Harry explained.

Lupin sighed heavily, " Did you bother to give either one of them time to explain? "

" Why are you defending Malfoy? " Harry asked angirly.

" I'm not, but I am defending the fact that you acted without thinking and didn't give either Malfoy or Serena the chance to speak. You heard what you wanted to hear and chose to act by that. You can't do that, Harry. Especially if you want to be an Auror. You'll get kicked out of training before you've even began if you keep going at this rate. " Lupin said firmly.

" I know, I know. " Harry said, irritated. " It just hurt so bad. Seeing the ring and the note..."

" I know, Harry. You don't think that I never had a heartbreak over a girl before. I have. It took quite a while to get over the hurt but I managed. I think you should try and talk to Serena. " Lupin said, patting Harry's shoulder.

Harry shook his head, " I can't right now. I don't know if I'll be able too. "

" Then that's your choice, but don't ruin something that has so much potential just because you're stubborn. " Lupin stood and gave Harry's shoulder an affectionate squeeze before making his way off the roof and back into the castle. Harry pulled his knees up to his chest and wrapped his arms around his legs. Now more then ever he felt completely at a loss. He was to embarrassed to go back and ask Serena to forgive him for his behaviour and if he crossed Malfoy's path this soon he might strangle the Slytherin. So he sat alone, debating a course of action on top of the Astronomy Tower.

Serena stared up at the cieling of the Hospital Wing from her bed. She didn't know why she was there only that Madame Pomfrey had wanted her to rest from the emotional strain she had gone through. She curled up on the bed and closed her eyes, the days events again traveling across her mind in slow motion. She had utterly messed up this time and it didn't seem that there was a way to get out of this one. She wracked her brain for a thousand ways to apologize to Harry but each one seemed less like to work then the first. She gave up after awhile and went back to staring at the cieling.

A little less then a hour later, a shadow crossed over Serena's bed and she looked up to see the pink-haired Tonks, standing next to her bed.

" How are you feeling? " she asked, smiling warmly.

Serena shrugged. " I'm alright I suppose. Just trying to figure out a way to fix things. "

Tonks nodded and took a seat, " I know how that is. Harry doesn't think before he acts. He's much like his father was in that way. Their thought processes are slow. The point I am trying to make is that you need to let Harry come to you. Hermione and your friends told me about what happened and it wasn't your fault. It really wasn't your fault with what happened between you and Draco either. "

Serena nodded and smiled. " Thank you, Tonks. I just feel awful. I never wanted Harry to find out about Ray but I should have told him in the first place. "

" You probably should have, but Harry made the choice to react how he did. You can't be blamed for another's choices. " Tonks stood from the chair and patted Serena's shoulder. " Rest for now. You'll feel much better in the morning. "

Serena nodded and bid goodnight to Tonks. She turned on her side and laid awake for a little while longer before falling into a dreamless sleep.

The next morning, Serena was released from the Hospital Wing before breakfast. She quickly made her way up to her room and showered and dressed in clean clothes. She felt better after getting cleaned up and then headed down to breakfast. Kat and Leah smiled in greeting to her and she sat down to eat. She put on a smile for her friends but on the inside she was still ripped to shreds. Every thirty seconds it seemed, she was glancing at the entrance to the Great Hall to see if Harry would walk through. He hadn't joined Ron and Hermione for breakfast. Serena's heart sank when breakfast was over and Harry had not yet showed up. Standing from the table, she trudged back up to the common room, faintly wishing classes would start sooner then later. At least she would have something to keep her mind off of Harry. Once inside her room, she grabbed a hold of her red acoustic guitar and strummed a few random chords. Music was her solace when she was upset and this time was no exception. All she had to do was close her eyes and it came pouring out of her fingers like a waterfall. She didn't even realize it at first that she was strumming out new music. When she snapped back to reality, she smiled and played the song over again. This time she added lyrics to it. She sang softly to the chords:

Take me away from here
Save me now from this immortal fear
I can't break these binds
That hold me here against my will.
I know my screams seem silent
And you can't hear me
How can you just turn away
Without a second thought

Don't turn away from me
I'm falling so fast
Into a pit of nothingness
I'm grasping for something I can't reach
Turn back around and find me again.

Why do you deny me
The saviour I desire
And close the door in my face
I'm bleeding internally
Being torn apart by every silent word
This truth drives me into insanity
When will I find solace

Don't turn away from me
I'm falling so fast
Into a pit of nothingness
I'm grasping for something I can't reach
Turn back around and find me again

You shut me out from the warmth you emanate
Leaving me with ice running through my veins
How can you be so cold?
When I stand here and offer all of me.

Serena smiled as she finished her new piece of work and quickly took Hermione's gift and began furiously writing the music onto the compostion paper, she added the lyrics after and smiled again and the finished works. She couldn't wait to show her bandmates and she even felt better that her emotions were now on paper as art. With a heavy sigh she placed the journal aside and started on some of her homework.

Harry laid on his back staring up at the ceiling of his four-poster bed. He had completely ignored Ron when his friend tried to urge him to go down to breakfast. He didn't even pull the curtains back to let in any light. He was still brooding and he didn't care if it was childish. He wanted to be left alone to his thoughts, to think things through and to figure out exactly what he was feeling. He wasn't sure whether or not he could forgive her as easily as everyone wanted him too. She had lied to him after all. Maybe he would have understood better had she been honest with him to start. He couldn't tell now.