Chapter 31:
Meanwhile, Alucard watched the sea as it splashed against the raft. He could feel the saltiness of the air that loomed around them both. He wondered if they would reach the other bank before sun up, and knew that it was a risk that had to be taken if he were to ever see Seras again.
Wilhemina sat lazily with her legs to the side, she was still wearing that black dress that went all the way down, so she had to sit that way or risk the sea wind taking up her dress. She looked at him and felt the rumble in her stomach and the ache in her teeth for blood. It is always the same dullness, the same immortal existence of night by night, living only in this curse. She was not born with it, and knew that she had been human, but has forgotten what it feels like to feel dying every day.
"Alucard?" Wilhemina looked at him in a questioning tone. He seemed not to respond. "ALUCARD!" She repeated until he finally turned her way.
"Huh…hmm…What is it?" Alucard asked in a somewhat amused way as his coat almost hit her when he turned around against the wind.
"I was wondering…" She paused for a moment trying to find the right words for her question, "If you remembered what it was like when you were still a human..."
Alucard looked at her with a slightly furrowed brow and put his hand to his face as if to hide it. He then tilted his head back a little and made a malicious laughter that resonated against the sea wind. "Hehehe…You expect me to remember something so long past? No, it is you who are forgetting and wondering if it is natural, to forget, hmm..?" Alucard said in a half high insane voice but with questioning undertones.
Wilhemina looked at him for a moment with a gasp, and looked down when she started to speak. "So it is fate, to lose yourself in vampirism… I know that I have been forgetting little things about when I was younger, but now I can't even remember the face of my husband. I still remember my work, as that is my life's work, but everything else before you bit me is getting blurred in train of thought…"
Alucard looked at her in a smirk, but not exactly a happy or sad one, but more of an understanding. "Welcome to being a vampire...Mrs. Wilhemina Harker." He said somewhat sarcastically and then seemed to loom over her, and yet still be right beside her. "Hmm..I remember your face as you were…one of purity and light. I do not remember biting you, but back then I went by another name...hehe...I barely feel that I was me during those times."
Wilhemina looked up to see him looming over her, with his dark red eyes reflecting her own. Through a memory in her mind, she could see where a moustache and beard would be on his clean and white perfection of a face. She drew in breath sharply from her recognition, and could feel the rumble in her stomach more than ever. Alucard just sat there with his long legs crossed in a weird sort of way and to the side so that he used his arms to help keep him up right. Wilhemina, mustering up her courage, quickly reached her hand to the inside of his coat searching for a bag of blood, which seemed to take longer than should have been for such a long coat.
Alucard knew what she was doing and did not have to ask, but it just seemed a bit odd to him. As he looked down at her, the blackness of her hair and mannerist as her way is, came at him like a wave of something that he should have seen. In the five to ten seconds that she was digging in his coat, he felt the urge to just grab hold of her, and keep her there, but shook his head against it.
Wilhemina, thinking nothing of it, got her blood bag and ripped off a piece of the end and bit into it hungrily. Alucard seemed to have lost his appetite and just watched as she slurped the bag down like it was a Caprie Sun, but twice the size.
What was that I felt when she was near…Alucard mused to himself and just watched the raft as he turned back around and looked out at the sea again. Did I really bite her then…why? Hehe…how ironic this is…Searching for Seras and I end up finding someone else that caries my markings…It's laughable.
Wilhemina finished her food and tossed the empty bag over the side. She yawned, being a little bored with the not so well put together raft. "Aren't you going to eat?" She asked, noticing that he turned around again as his coat was no longer practically in her face.
"I'm not hungry…" Alucard said kind of pathetically in a tone that was not as dark as it usually is.
"Ah, come on now, I know you are. Besides, if you do not drink, you will become weak and have even more trouble searching for this girl you sired." Wilhemina said sternly in something sounding like a protest.
Alucard was quiet and remembered that he said practically the same thing to Seras, and mused to himself about it silently in his mind. Wilhemina just looked at him expectedly, and then let out a sigh.
"You are hopeless. Not taking any food as if it were to prove something and watching the sea as if it you could read it like a map that has been long laid out for you." Wilhemina said trying to provoke him somehow, hoping to cause a little bit of excitement or fun on this raft in the middle of this deserted sea.
Alucard just looked on, as if it was his understanding for him to just be. After a good ten minuets or so, after his eyes became too moistened from the salty sea spray, he turned around more carefully so that his coat would move as he wished it to.
"I guess I'm just tired." Alucard said in a somewhat exasperated deep voice. "I have not traveled by sea for awhile and the remembrance is of me in a different time and name. Even that I do not remember a great deal of… hehe…I still remember the stars and directions. We are going South by South east." Images started flashing in his mind, weird things that distorted as they tried to clear and make a good enough image for him to see.
Wilhemina looked at him with eyes soft of light red understanding, though, with the undertones of amazement that he could be so evil and yet gentle when he wanted. It is amazing, sometimes. It is like there are two of him in that same body, or that he struggles against his own mind and memories to save the only sanity he has left. Even if he bit me, and made me what I am…I can't help but feel pity for such a curse.
"Can you sense her presence, the one you are searching for?" Wilhemina asked, not really caring that much, but knowing that it was the only mission.
Alucard's glasses slid down to the crook of his nose, revealing his dark red eyes. He shook his head in the negative, and took his glasses fully off as if they started to bother him. "Hmm…nothing…I feel nothing from her. She must have found a way to sever the connection, or at least block it….It could also be my end, but there is no way to check …not like I could these images are preventing me from thinking." He said the last bit a little higher in a semi-insane voice, but still in control.
After another few minuets, "...Al..." Wilhemina started to say, but then her mind went blank and the same images that Alucard had remembered ended up in her head and she could not clear them, but she could see them better. Alucard looked up when she had started to speak, and was now staring at her with a questioning furrowed brow.
"…I remember now, what you were seeing. You were in a casket in the dirt of your homeland and floating on a boat across Marea Neagra and up the Arges River making way through the Carpathian Mountains and to your old castle. Then, you were stopped coming around Carpathian bends by my husband and his followers. You rode by coach and carriage, awaiting the downfall of the sun above. You had just reached the gates when the sun finally went down, and you came out, attacking the first one in your way….but you were sliced through the neck by the Texian and died there as far as I know…yet you are still alive, and I am still a vampire. Only after a decade did I find that my vampirism grew inside of me, and from there it was hard, I had to quit my day work and could not play outside with the children. I never grew any older and my husband died with me by his side…saying, how much he still loved me, how much he still wished to be with me even though I was no longer…human…" Wilhemina almost broke down after her memory speech and had to look down. Alucard seemed unmoved for the most part.
After sometime and Wilhemina looked up Alucard just stared blankly, and in a dark husky voice said, "…I ...remember…Mina." He seemed to have trouble speaking as these new thoughts entered him of a time that once was, and Wilhemina's startled look by her old nick name, one that was last said by her husband all those years ago. Alucard looked down on her, his dark eyes starting to come into focus on her again, burning holes if they could.
Wilhemina could not take it, she did not know how much he remembered, but knew that she loved him once. That she was his, and it had tore her up inside when he could not remember, and that she only knew certain things. Wilhemina knew that if she was going to move, now is the time. She moved closer and in a quick movement of her arms, wrapped them around his middle, under his big coat and laid her head against his chest.
Alucard gasped and did not know what to do, but wondered…Was this the feeling I had before…is this what I wanted…Alucard looked down at her, and noticed the niceness of her against him, the warmth so unexpected from an undead like himself. Without saying anything, his body seemed to react to her before his mind did, and he too, wrapped his long arms around her, bringing her into a large embrace. Is this what I wanted…He questioned, but after a time, he did not care.
Wow, it has been sooooo long…I am so sorry guys, this was not my fault. I have been working on this and then what happens but the holidays, meaning tons of family and tons of food, plus my brother stealing this computer after I had already started this chapter x__x…I had to wait till he left and what does he always do, but kill the computer…DAMN HIM… so dad had it for awhile, and then after like a month, I got it back^^ But then, he took it again when he went to Colorado…and now…I HAVE IT BACK ONCE MORE…MWH HA HA^_^…FEAR ME… I WILL FINISH THIS STORY…I MUST FOR YOU GUYS/GALS^^