Ok since LightningStrikes wants to know what happened to the "blue haired woman" I guess I will just have to write another chapter. Maybe I'll remember to tell you about her…. Maybe.

Chapter 6

Last Chapter

Makoto's mind had refused to function correctly after that. She had refused to accept Ami's death until she had seen the grave, and even then she had run from the pain. Makoto was no longer whole, she had died that day.

In her piteous state Makoto had not heard the entrance of another person. But the sound of an ever familiar clink upon stone steps brought Makoto back to reality. Without lifting her head she knew who it was.

"Hello Pluto."

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"Hello Lady Jupiter." Pluto watched Makoto lift her head and stand from her place before the tombstone. Makoto brushed off her knees and looked at the vertical stone that held the name of her love.

"I'm not sure if I deserve that name." Makoto said without turning around.

"It is your path, you are a senshi." Pluto said to the Makoto's back. Makoto made a short laugh.

"I haven't followed that path in years. I am no longer pure of heart, my mind is warped, and my hands are bloody. How can I hold the name of a soldier of justice when I am one of the monsters." Makoto turned around. Pluto had expected anger, sorrow, or guilt in Makoto's eyes; however, there was nothing. Pluto stared into the eyes of a dead woman. Pluto had never feared Makoto until that moment. Pluto brought her chin up a little higher, stood a little straighter, gripped the Time Key and little more; no need to show Makoto that she feared her.

Unfortunately for Pluto, Makoto had seen the subtle changes. As an assassin she had learned the look of hidden fear, she could smell it on Pluto like a faint perfume. She could almost taste it, Makoto knew at that moment the joy she would feel from watching Pluto die by her hands. Of all the kills Makoto had made she would enjoy the death of the time senshi the most. Makoto made a wicked smile.

"You have a destiny to fulfill." Pluto said trying to calm herself. Though Makoto may have sunk into the abyss she would not hurt her…maybe. Makoto tilted her head and smiled a little more. Pluto watched as her eyes where filled again with light, but this was the light of madness.

"You speak of destiny and paths, but you know as well as I that man makes his own destiny and chooses his own path. My path at one time was that of the thunder senshi, but she is dead." Makoto tilted her head to the other side. "and I am what remains." Makoto reached into her jacket pocket and could feel the Colt under her hands. "Do you remember what it feels like to die Pluto?"

The question caught Pluto off guard. Pluto shook her head no. What was Makoto trying to ask her?

"I do. I remember each time. I remember the pain, but I also remember thinking that I was dying for a reason. That I was giving up my life so that my princess could use my energy to save the world." Makoto stroked the gun in her pocket. "I was always brought back too. Some part of me always knew that I would be brought back." Makoto lowered her head. "But Ami wasn't brought back. She stayed dead." Makoto lifted her head and had the face of a curious child when she asked Pluto. "Why did she stay dead?"

Pluto blinked at the random changes of Makoto's character. Makoto had truly lost her mind. Makoto's face shifted again from a child like innocence to a stern anger. "What's wrong Pluto too complicated for the all knowing time senshi? Well how about I make it a little easier for you." In a blur of motion Makoto pulled the Colt out of her pocket and with one hand pointed it at Pluto. Makoto had moved her body into a shooting stance without realizing it. Too many years of killing. "Maybe I should kill you and see if you stay dead." Makoto smiled waiting for Pluto's fear to leak into her eyes, but it never happened. Makoto looked at her puzzled. She knew Pluto was scared she could taste her fear like a fine wine on the back of her tongue, but Pluto made no outward motion that she feared her. "This can not be we must make her fear us." Her inner voice told her.

"You won't kill me Jupiter." Pluto said it with such authority that Makoto almost believed her. Makoto looked at her with confusion. She had killed so many why wouldn't she kill the time senshi, it would be a great little trophy in her little kill book.

"You say that like you truly mean it." Pluto took a step toward Makoto. "This woman is crazier than we are."

"Why do you run from your destiny?" Pluto's own eyes had become cold and distant, so much like that day. "Don't think about that, just shot her and get it over with." Makoto had to physically shake her head to quite the voice. Her lack of concentration was all that Pluto needed.

She suddenly bolted toward Makoto and grabbed her arm. The touch ignited the Time Key with a flash. When the flash had ended Makoto stood in Ami's bedroom. She watched as Ami stood from her desk to go to the door.

"Ami." She called out, but Ami made no notice of her presence. She watched as Ami opened the door to reveal Makoto standing on the other side. "What the hell is going on here?" Makoto asked. Pluto was suddenly by her side.

"The Time Key has brought you back to the day of Ami's death. That you may remember what truly happened." Makoto became very angry and turned to face Pluto her eyes hot with rage.

"I know what happened that day!" she yelled. "It haunts my dreams. I told Ami that I loved her and she told me the same, and just when I thought someone could love me again, fate decided that I couldn't have anyone to love." Pluto looked down at the angered Makoto.

"Are you sure that is how it happened?" Makoto clenched her fists in rage.

"Of course, that is what happened!"

"Then watch." She said calmly. Makoto turned to face her past self. Makoto watched as she stood from the bed and put her hands on Ami's arms. She heard the words that she had spoken, she heard Ami say oh Makoto and sigh.

"See just as I remember." She said triumphantly to Pluto.

"Keep watching." Makoto then heard Ami say something she had not remembered.

"Makoto I do love you, but not as a lover. You must understand that my heart does not belong to you."

Makoto's entire world crumbled underneath her. Ami did not love her. How could this be? The dreams, the memories, they were not lies…..were they? "Of course not, it's just a trick. Pluto is trying to deceive us."

There was another flash and they had been moved to the location of Ami's death. Makoto watched as the youma that had killed Ami battled against them.

Makoto watched as suddenly her past self tried to call upon her element. "No this was after he had killed Ami. Pluto is wrong." As much as Makoto tried to believe the voice she remember what she had been thinking right at that moment.

The youma was stronger than they had anticipated. Ami was taking too long in finding a weakness. She remembered thinking that she could kill it with out them. That she could save the day just by channeling her power. She remembered the feel of searching for the rain storm and forcing it to do her will. She remembered the surge of adrenaline as the wind started to howl.

Makoto watched as her past self called upon the lightning bolt. She remembered the pure heat of the strike, of the feeling of the power rushing through her body into the earth and back into her grasp. She remembered at the same time as her past self the moment when she first saw the youma's fear. It was the first she would taste its sweet nectar, but not the last.

As she watched Sailor Jupiter burn the youma, she remembered that the power had been too much. It needed to go somewhere. At that moment Makoto had remembered the pain that Ami had given her. She had took her heart and crushed it in her hands. Makoto couldn't let her do that.

Makoto watched as Sailor Jupiter turned the rest of her attack toward her fellow senshi. She hadn't meant to hit her only to scare her, but she didn't have complete control and the lightning struck Ami in the chest throwing her into a wall and burning her clothes.

In a flash they were back in the cemetery. Pluto's hand still holding Makoto's arm. Makoto dropped the Colt and fell to her knees. She didn't breathe for a few moments. She had killed Ami. Makoto felt the tears start to fall, after so many decades she had forgotten how to cry. She brought her hands up to cover her face as her body convulsed with her sobbing.

Pluto bent down on to her knees and placed the Time Key on the ground. She pulled the sobbing Makoto into her arms. Makoto collapsed into Pluto crying.

"Why did you make me remember?" she asked between sobs.

"Because you still have an obligation to your princess. She still needs your protection." Makoto's tears started to slow.

"If she needed my protection fate would have…." Makoto stopped for a moment. "brought me back to Japan." She finished. Makoto sighed, her tears now quieted, but she still remained in the crook of Pluto's body. "Does this mean that Ami has…"

"Lady Mercury has been resurrected." Pluto finished for her. Makoto thought about this for a moment then sat up from Pluto. She looked up into Pluto's face her eyes red and swollen. For a moment Pluto thought she saw the eyes of the old Makoto, but it vanished quickly into the dead, unreadable face that Makoto had become so fond of wearing.

"You said Lady Mercury, she doesn't know anything about Ami or how I felt about her past self." Pluto remained quiet for a few moments. She inhaled deeply then let the air slowly leave from her body.

"She knows of her mission and is aware that she had a past life that ended in tragedy. Beyond that only time can tell." Pluto reached for her Time Key, stood and in a flash was gone.

Makoto remained on her knees in the grass. The cool dampness of the late evening soaking into her pants. She turned her head to look at Ami's tombstone.

She had killed her. All those years of madness, it was all her fault. She had been the cause of her own suffering.

"This is not your fault. Ami caused her own pain. If she had just loved you then she would be alive today. You know that I am right. I'm always right." Her inner voice sneered.

Makoto stood and smiled, today had been a good day.

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Ok in case you missed the point Makoto has completely lost it. I hope that I had successfully gotten that across. I got a review that there should be more sex and all I can say to that is if I'm not getting any why should she? Ok thank you and please review.