Disclaimer: I still dont own anything damn it
( Hey guys sorry but Gunn and Fred are still together I just cant do the Wes and Fred thing)
3rd person
"Ok what just happen?" Gunn asked to no one particular.
"I believe we where just left in charge." Wesley says still in shock.
"Aw guys did you see Angel and Spike holding hands. That's so adorable. They haven't done that in a long time and then Angel picked him up that's just so adorable too. Charles, why don't we do thing like that anymore?" Fred said dreamily.
"You mean this?" Gunn ask while scooping Fred up and kissing her. Wesley just rolled his eyes.
"Can we please stay on the fact that we are taking Angels place for only god knows long" Wesley saying in his watcher voice
"Uh oh Fred, I think we made English mad." Gunn whispered into his girlfriend's ear. Fred gave a small giggle.
"Ok Ok Wesley, we will behave." Fred said with a little giggle in her voice.
Wesley sighed this is gonna be one very long few weeks or months. God I hope not months Wesley thought
Spikes Pov
Haha I bet those wankers don't know what just happen. I give a content little sigh and lay my head on Angel's shoulder. The plane just took off and we are off to Ireland, My luv's homeland.
"Will?" Angel says softly
"Hmm?" I say
"Do you think they are ok? I didn't leave much instructions. Should I call them?" Angel ask like a worry parent
"No I don't think you should bloody call them." I say getting irritated.
"I should at least call Fred. I should apologize. I have been a complete ass."
"I do think you should call her. The poor chit. I like her. If I wasn't with you and she wasn't with Gunn I probably would of shagged her." I tell Angel matter-of-factly way
I hear Angel give a little growl and I have to chuckle... Possive git he is. "Don't worry I am in love with you so don't panic." I say still chuckling.
"Up Will, I need to call Fred." He says and starts to push me off his lap.
Angel's Pov
"Up Will, I need to call Fred." I say as I start pushing Spike off my lap. He slowly gets up, not to happy about moving. Oh well I will make it up to him later. Right now its Fred.
I get up and walk to the back of the plane which happens to have a small office with a phone. I dial her number and listen to it ring.
"Hello, This is Fred Burkle Head of Wolfram and Hart Science Department How May I help you?" Fred said in a Monotone voice
"Hey Fred its Angel." I say. I hope she forgive me. I will understand if she doesn't.
"Oh hey Angel, Whats up?" Fred says in her bubbly little voice. God I love her she still has her innocents and that just so adorable (my favorite word of late hehe).
"Fred, I just want to say how sorry I am for the way I treated you. Your like a little sister and you trust me and I in return messed it up horribly. I didn't mean to make you cry. I am so so sorry. And that I love you even if you don't forgive me." I say sincerely. I really hope she forgives me.
"Angel, of course I forgive you. Your like an older brother to me and I love you too. You just were really stress. It happens to the best of us. Don't worry I was just being over sensitive." Fred say softly
"Fred, you're the best you really are. If you guys need me at all just call me ok." I tell her
"Of course I will but don't worry and have fun. You and Spike need some bonding time ok." Fred said.
Spike came walking in to the office. "Hey luv, can I talk to Fred?"
"Yea, hey Fred here is Will." I say to Fred then handing the phone over. I get up and walk out of the office. I sit back in the seat I was before and pull out my wallet. I have a small photo album in my wallet. The first picture is the original gang me, Doyle, and Cordy. I miss them so much. I wish I could go back and spend one more day with them and tell them how much I loved them. The second picture is with Wes, who I am still mad at and wish I could let him have it still, me, and Cordy. I go through a few more picture each showing our small group getting bigger. Then I get to the one picture that is insanely hard to look at, me and baby Connor. I run a thumb over Connor. Every time I look at this picture I get upset. I miss him so much. I hope I did the right thing when I sold my shanshu for a normal life for him. No one knows about that. I wish I could hold him one more time. I couldn't protect him. The one person who meant the most I couldn't protect. I start to cry softly. God if just move a little faster that night Holtz took him I could of saved him. I hear Spike walk up behind me.
"Luv, Whats wrong?" Spike ask concern. He is now standing in front of me. I pull him down to sit on my lap and wrap my arms around him and bawl. I need this right now.
"Shh, luv its ok" Spike says softly while rubbing my back. I take a few deep calming breaths that I don't really need.
"When you calm down you can tell me what's this is all about ok?" Spikes says. I cry for a few more minutes before I can start.
"Will it's a long story." I say still calming down
"Well we have a long time until we get to Ireland. Now tell me botherin ya." Spike tells me. I take a deep breath and start to explain.
Spikes Pov
Angel is almost done telling me this horrible story. No wonder why he has been like he has poor guy lost his son and what not.
"So she turns on the TV and show me Connor holding up a sports store. She then tell me there is away to give him a better life." Angel say with a sigh
Flashback
"One time offer only, Angel. Walk out that door, deal's off. Stay, and it's all yours." Lilah says calmly
" People like you, this place, that's what's wrong with the world, Lilah. I will never be a part of this. Not the way you're hoping. Now let me tell you what the deal's gonna be." Angel says in a low threatening voice.
"tsk tsk Angel, you should know by now your not gonna be able to set all the rules in this deal. We are talking about a huge thing here." Lilah said while playing with her nails.
"Fine lets start talking this deal out" Angel said angrily. The two leave the office area and walk into the Conference room and sits in in the plush chairs.
"Ok Angel here is the deal, We take all memories of Connor away from the gang except you. He, in in return, won't remember you or the gang. But for this to work we are gonna need to take another life. I am not sure why but we do. You get to choose the life that is taken."
"What will happen to him Lilah?"
"Connor of course will get a new and better life with another family. They will be implanted with fake memories and they will think of Connor as their own."
"You can take my life."
"Well Angel we would but your dead so therefore you have no life." Lilah explained
"You can take my Shansu." Angel said
"Well let me see if they can do that then we have a deal." Lilah said with a small sadistic smile
End of flashback
Spikes Pov
"We found out that my shansu would work so I signed the contract in my blood. Went in to the sports store where Connor was and had a little conversation. I told him I was doing this for his own good and that I loved him more then anything then I killed him so he could have a new life. I came back here, mention his name and no one knew anything about him." Angel finish trying hard to hold back his emotions.
Bloody hell, and Buffy thought she had reason had to complain. Poor Angel here lost his son to Holtz then gets him back only to have to give him up again. Between loosing him and giving him up. Connor decides to send angel on an ocean tour in a metal coffin. Poor guy.
"aw Luv, why didn't you call me?" I ask
"because last time I saw you, you were rather pissed off and I thought you hated me." Angel says now rubbing his face with his hand. I get up from the spot where I moved to during the story and walk over to Angel and kiss him.
"First off you knew I didn't hate you, second off you should of called for help. I am sorry though for the shit you been through. I thought me and Buffy had reasons to complain but not one of us had to do what you did then not say anything about it. You're a very strong man and I love you more then you will ever know." I tell him softly and kiss him again.
"Do you think I did the right thing? How am I going to tell the gang that I will never be human. What if I just decide I have nothing to live for and loose my soul. What was the purpose of the soul? Of all this. For me, it has no meaning. All the pain, the losses. What does it mean now? Nothing it means nothing. I remember when Cordy and Wes found out I would become human one day they were so happy. I just want to go back there where we were happy, Will" Angel said choking on his own words "I don't wanna hurt anymore."
God poor angel. I am little jealous he wish he there again and not with me. But the poor bugger has had a hell of a time. He lost the Irish dude and then Cheerleader. Oh yea and we can't forget his son. I wish I could have been there with him through all this. I hug him tightly. He hugs back and lets a few tears trickle down.
"Why don't we go to bed luv? After all the emotion you just let out you must be exhausted." I get off him and and tug him into the bedroom area of the plane. By tomorrow we will be in Ireland and we can start to fix his mental state. I sigh get change and crawl into bed next to Angel and cuddle up to him.
I had to let out what i thought Angel has been feeling. The poor guy looses his son not only once but twice and he has no one to talk to about it. And i had to had Buffy complain about being in heaven and what not cause it pissed me off. Oo i went to heaven so now i have to treat spike like shit. pff whatever. any way chap 4 will be up soon