A Peek into Ryoga's mind: God how I wish she felt that for me too... but she doesn't. It's all about Ranma. It always is.
UNFAIR
I don't like when things get too complicated. And that's why I really don't like my life that much anymore.
You see... I was never a normal boy. Always getting lost in more than a way. But that was it. There wasn't any curse, or weird techniques and there wasn't any Ranma. Back then, it was just me. A slightly weird boy that could never find the way to anywhere. I can't say I was happy... I don't think I've ever been truly blissfully happy... but, back then, I definitely wasn't unhappy either.
Then Ranma came along. And that was it.
Hell.
Everything went to hell.
Including me.
So now I'm not just a lost boy... I'm also a cursed boy who turns into a pig... I'm a pig boy... a pig boy in love... a pig boy who's been lying the girl he loves... a pig liar boy who can never win the only challenge he is interested in winning. So then I'm a pig liar loser boy in love.
I'm Pchan... that's what I am.
And It's all his fault. If Ranma had never crossed my path nothing of this would have happened.
See... How could I ever like my life?
How could I not hate him?
How can anybody blame me for wanting him dead?
He deserves to be dead or at least he deserves to be unhappy... you'll definitely have to agree with me in this. I mean the guy doesn't deserve half the things he has. He should be miserable! Really miserable! Just look how many lives he has jinxed. It wasn't just mine. Mousse... Shampoo... Ukyo... The Tendous... My beautiful Akane. All those lives messed up because of HIM.
Yeah HIM.
And what really, REALLY pisses me off is that he thinks he's miserable too.
So he turns into a girl... BIG DEAL!!!
I turn into a pig. A PIG... That's DINER for Christ sake!
And he has more fiancées that he can handle... so what? At least he is wanted, and beloved... not like me or Mousse.
So his life's chaos 24/7... my life is hell 24/7.
God I hate the guy!
He is a jerk! An arrogant jerk!
And he has so much... so many things he doesn't deserve and he isn't even thankful for it! He's always bitching around and complaining!
And above all this.
He has her.
He has the girl I want... the girl I love... the girl I know could make me happy just by smiling or talking or being near.
And he doesn't really want her, not like I do... not with the same vehemence, and he knows it but still he keeps her from me.
He hurts her so much that my heart aches. I can't count all the times I've seen her crying for something he did or said... and then sometimes at night... when he did something nice during the day, anything, no matter how small... she would smile. Just for him... and be happy... just for the possibility that he might want her.
And I'm right there... seeing it... hearing her.
And I know... I know everything she feels for me, for her pet, for him. God how I wish she felt that for me too... but she doesn't. It's all about Ranma. It always is.
Life's so unfair.
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And that was another peek... pretty small peek