Author: [sob] Nobody's reviewing anymore!!!!! Why is there so much hate for
Kouga that no one will read his quest for happiness!?!?!?! Alas, such is
the fate for a true believer in Kouga...[sigh].
Oh well, to the few, the proud, the Kouga fans..I bequeath another chapter of "What about Me" (BTW I'm gonna start proof reading these chapters now ()
Chapter 4:
Not a sound could be heard among the multitude of bodies gathered at the rocky entrance to the Den. Shock consumed their faces, thoughts, and ability to rationalize this sudden turn of events. As they all stood there with their mouths gaping open, they could only wonder what exactly was going on, let alone why it was happening.
In a similar situation, Lilian looked up at the face of her current supporter, in pure, gaping disbelief. "What's" and "why's" sought to overtake her mind as she leaned against the wolf's embrace, in utter futility, knowing that she would fall should he let go. Trying desperately to convince herself that the events that had just transpired were all just out of a bad hallucination or nightmare, her expression still remained in a chilly medium between shock and disbelief, hoping to wake up at any given moment.
Quickly regaining her rationale (but not being quite able to remove the look from her face) she began to plot any way possible to get out of her current dilemma; however, her current lack of weapons and steadily worsening leg injury, seemed to cancel out most of her plans at the "escape" phase. Only the looks of the multitude of youkai wolves, gave her comfort, hoping that their disapproval would cause Kouga to call back his declaration; it was a long shot, and she knew it, but there was no hurt in hoping.
The pack realized that Kouga had a tendency to make declarations of love without actually loving the person, this time, they thought, it probably was no different. With Kagome, it had been the power to see the shikon-no- tama pieces that made her invaluable, but there was no apparent reason to any of the awestruck youkai as to why he would declare this woman as a mate. Besides the recent display of enormous ki energy, there was nothing the wolves could make about her that seemed any more than usual, and after spending a good amount of time staring at her trying to figure out her secret, their gazes shifted all at once back to Kouga.
A beaming look of confidence was irradiating from Kouga's bold figure, and in his eyes beheld a look of pure certainty and pride, which the youkai had seen only a few times before. It was in this look that, they too, began to feel some of that boldness and began to agree in their minds to stand behind the leader that had never steered them wrong. It was but a few seconds before a loud audible voice could be heard among the group, voicing the thoughts that all of them wished to say, but had not come far enough away from the initial shock to speak.
"We stand behind you Kouga!!!!!!!" It called out "Let us prepare a feast in the name of Kouga and our soon to be sister!!!"
All at once, the group was alive; shouts and cheers rose high into the air and fell back down gracefully over the mountainous terrain.
Even though she normally hated spoiling other people's good moods and celebrations, Lilian would not stand for this outrage. Gathering her little strength she pulled away from Kouga with quite a bit of force, nearly knocking herself down. She stood slouched over, holding a nearby boulder trying to keep her weight off her wounded leg, as she took a deep breath and concentrated on just standing.
Kouga was the only one to notice this event and looked at her with puzzled eyes. Slowly, he stepped toward her to hold her again but was met with an unexpected backhand to the side of his face.
At once, everything was still and even the wind seemed to hold it's breath. The entire youkai tribe stopped amidst their cheering and laughter, scarcely breathing in awe of what just happened. None of them however, were as surprised as Kouga himself. He stood their, slightly off balance, his head tilted slightly over to the side, with a blank look in his eyes, and his jaw dropped nearly an inch and a half.
As the small red mark on his face began to slowly show itself, Kouga also turned to look at Lilian, who hadn't moved after the strike, and probably couldn't move much at all. Beads of sweat ran down the side of her face, and her breath was hard. She turned to meet Kouga's gaze with anger and hate burning fresh in her eyes, as the fires that could never be quenched.
In that instant, the memory in which Kagome had done the same thing pushed itself to the front of his memory. It was that moment that had undoubtedly started the cataclysmic chain of events that had lead to Kagome choosing Inuyasha over himself. Terror filled the youkai at the thought of it happening all over again, because this time, it was different, there was something more about her that made Kouga nearly shiver at the thought of losing her. What scared him more, was that he had already started down the same path as he had taken with Kagome, and he did not how to turn back; he didn't know any other way to win her. He knew youkai females normally mated with whoever was the strongest suitor, and Kouga knew that he was by far one of the strongest; however, Lilian wasn't like that, and unfortunately that was all Kouga had ever known.
Kouga took a deep breath, and continued to gaze on Lilian. Her raspberry eyes erupted with passionate hate, and just being looked at with them made Kouga cringe on the spot. Each passing second under the loathsome gaze of her eyes, felt as though it took with it parts of his heart, and scattered them, one by one on the winds which he so adored. Looking at her figure, pained him more and more with every moment, serving as a reminder that he could not even delay the inevitable: she was going to hate him, and there wasn't a thing he could do about it.
His eyes fell to the ground as he struggled with this absolute. He fought off tears he could not understand, and wallowed in the self pity that threatened to destroy him. But amidst the darkness that attempted to steal his joy, there was yet a glimmer of hope that stood out in the back of his mind waiting to be noticed.
The moment remained quiet, as everyone stood absorbing the drama that took place so potently. The youkai pack stood altogether, still dazed at the moment, and had they wished to say anything at all, they would not have been able to force the words off their lips. Lilian slowly pulled her attacking arm back to the boulder and shifted herself to a more comfortable position, still holding her eyes on the impeding wolf, her mind scheming, trying to plan out the her next move, but coming up with nothing.
Meanwhile, the wolf youkai took in a deep breath and stood tall once again, denying his even his own comrades the sight of his weakness. He cracked a false grin on his face and took two steps towards the nearly immobile huntress, and in one clean maneuver swept her up bridal style before she had time to protest. Without a word he turned toward the Den and slowly and carefully made his way there, making sure not to harm the precious cargo, and avoiding eye contact, lest he lose his composure. All the while, his pack still remained awestruck and silent.
Lilian looked up at the wolf youkai, and her rage continued to burn, yet not as brightly due to her overwhelming fatigue. Trying to suppress the urges to fall asleep in his arms, she mustered what little strength she had, attempting another strike to the side of his face; however, she overestimated her stamina and by the time her hand reached his face, it was nothing more than a gentle caress. The touch caused Kouga's tail to involuntarily move out to the right, then the left, and back down; though she herself didn't notice it. Her hand slid back down to her stomach, then off to dangle out of the reach of the youkai's arms. With that, her will and determination to escape were totally enveloped by her need to rest, and she slipped off suddenly to peaceful unconsciousness.
Kouga continued to walk slowly, when he felt the shift in weight as her head turned on it's side and rested a soft cheek on the on the crease of his elbow, he breathed a soft sigh and looked down onto her face. All of the strain of anger and hate, had quickly drained from her, showing the innocent side of her which Kouga wished he could meet. He passed by his pack and flashed a smile to his comrades to show that everything was alright, and continued onward toward the Den.
Finally the silence was broken when a voice amidst the crowd spoke out to lighten the mood. "It's probably better that she's asleep Kouga," he said "that way she can't complain"
Kouga stopped at that, and there was a moment of silence once again. A true smile made it's way across his face as he turned it slowly there way, and chuckled. Confidence ignited amongst the wolf youkai as the moment's tension slowly declined.
"She would have nothing to complain about" returned Kouga.
"Riiiiight." yelled out another voice from the pack. "Just make sure that if she does wake up, you warn us so we can be ready to pick up your charred body again."
Laughter sprung up from the group after the comment, and even Kouga let out a chuckle. He looked down at the maiden in his arms and smiled once more before raising his head again to continue.
"She would be too busy telling me how great I am to remember the words for the technique" Kouga replied beaming with pride, knowing full well that if he did rape her in her sleep and she woke up, she would blast him with extreme prejudice, and he really did not want to be hit with that from close range without armor.
"Keep kidding yourself Kouga" called out Kiro, emerging to the front of the crowd. "The only reason she would be calling your name, is to figure out what your trying to do to her, that is if you can even make it inside before you pop your top."
The laughter grew in volume and some of the pack members had even dropped to the floor at this point.
Kouga bowed his head, shut his eyes, smirked, and shook his head, "Well, I think I'm pretty good..but that's just me, why don't we ask Mina what she thought of last night."
Everyone knew that Kouga had too much honor to touch another one's mate (that is why he stopped chasing Kagome), but the joke still caused many more of them to be slain with a fit of laughter.
Mina slowly made her way to Kiro's side, the recent joke was not as funny to her or Kiro as it had been to the other's, but she still had a light smirk etched on her face. Kiro placed his arm around her, stroking her shoulder lightly, as she leaned into his side.
Kiro had the same smirk on his face and Mina and shook his head a little. "Cold, Kouga, nice one though." He said "but at least the first mate I chose, chose me back"
To Kiro, it had been just a joke, but no less than Kouga deserved, but to Kouga; it was much more.
Kouga smiled and pretended to not care, but had truly lost the will to joke around at the time. He continued joking around half heartedly for a while then made his leave.
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Still carrying Lilian in his arms he entered the Den, ignoring the woots and cheers from his pack mates behind him. The walls of the caves were dimly lit by the torches placed every ten feet apart on both walls. He made his way to the catacombs within, until he found his quarters.
The whole time there he had avoided looking down at the lavender haired goddess that had driven his wild so far, because every time he looked at her, it reminded him that he would inevitably lose her, and this, to him, was a fate worse than death. It wasn't until he laid her down on the straw bed he normally slept on that he looked upon her face, and everything he had tried to forget rushed all back to him.
He kneeled down beside her still body and gently stroked her hair. He gathered all of the lavender locks together in one hand, with the other he hooked a single strand in his index claw, and swiftly cut through it. As best he could, he tied her hair together with the strand, and set the attempted ponytail down.
He sat there for what seemed like hours, just listening to her breathe, enjoying her scent, and looking upon her face in the dim light. One thought ran wild through his head the entire time as he sat in the presence of the sleeper 'he had to have her, and he would not give up without a fight.'
He bent down by her head and whispered into her ear "I will find a way to make you want me", he kissed her softly on the cheek and quietly got up. He turned and made his back into the dark maze of walls and eventually out to the entrance.
Outside of the cave held no more light than the cave itself, the half moon and the stars were the only light that shown on the mountain. A little way's out from cave he spotted Gekido sitting and enjoying the night air.
"Gekido" Kouga called out when he reached speaking distance.
The "young" youkai turned around to see a silhouette which, using his sense of smell, identified as Kouga. "What do you need?"
"I'm off to go see Trent to ask him about some things, please watch over Lilian while I'm gone. She is in my quarters, do not enter them, but do not let anyone else in either." Kouga asked, solemnly and quietly.
"No problem" replied Gekido standing to his feet "But why do you need to see Trent, our pack is well, and there are no invaders coming, why do you seek his advice?"
"To prevent what happened with Kagome from happening again." Kouga said at nearly a whisper.
"You must really care for her to go seek the wisdom of Trent to please her." Gekido said as he walked over, stopping right next to him, but facing the Den.
"You have no idea my friend, thank you" Kouga replied, and with that the two went their separate ways.
Author: IIIIIII LLLLLLIIIIIIVVVVVVEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I finally finished this chapter (I've been off and on writing it for about a month) hopefully the next one will be quicker.
Oh well, to the few, the proud, the Kouga fans..I bequeath another chapter of "What about Me" (BTW I'm gonna start proof reading these chapters now ()
Chapter 4:
Not a sound could be heard among the multitude of bodies gathered at the rocky entrance to the Den. Shock consumed their faces, thoughts, and ability to rationalize this sudden turn of events. As they all stood there with their mouths gaping open, they could only wonder what exactly was going on, let alone why it was happening.
In a similar situation, Lilian looked up at the face of her current supporter, in pure, gaping disbelief. "What's" and "why's" sought to overtake her mind as she leaned against the wolf's embrace, in utter futility, knowing that she would fall should he let go. Trying desperately to convince herself that the events that had just transpired were all just out of a bad hallucination or nightmare, her expression still remained in a chilly medium between shock and disbelief, hoping to wake up at any given moment.
Quickly regaining her rationale (but not being quite able to remove the look from her face) she began to plot any way possible to get out of her current dilemma; however, her current lack of weapons and steadily worsening leg injury, seemed to cancel out most of her plans at the "escape" phase. Only the looks of the multitude of youkai wolves, gave her comfort, hoping that their disapproval would cause Kouga to call back his declaration; it was a long shot, and she knew it, but there was no hurt in hoping.
The pack realized that Kouga had a tendency to make declarations of love without actually loving the person, this time, they thought, it probably was no different. With Kagome, it had been the power to see the shikon-no- tama pieces that made her invaluable, but there was no apparent reason to any of the awestruck youkai as to why he would declare this woman as a mate. Besides the recent display of enormous ki energy, there was nothing the wolves could make about her that seemed any more than usual, and after spending a good amount of time staring at her trying to figure out her secret, their gazes shifted all at once back to Kouga.
A beaming look of confidence was irradiating from Kouga's bold figure, and in his eyes beheld a look of pure certainty and pride, which the youkai had seen only a few times before. It was in this look that, they too, began to feel some of that boldness and began to agree in their minds to stand behind the leader that had never steered them wrong. It was but a few seconds before a loud audible voice could be heard among the group, voicing the thoughts that all of them wished to say, but had not come far enough away from the initial shock to speak.
"We stand behind you Kouga!!!!!!!" It called out "Let us prepare a feast in the name of Kouga and our soon to be sister!!!"
All at once, the group was alive; shouts and cheers rose high into the air and fell back down gracefully over the mountainous terrain.
Even though she normally hated spoiling other people's good moods and celebrations, Lilian would not stand for this outrage. Gathering her little strength she pulled away from Kouga with quite a bit of force, nearly knocking herself down. She stood slouched over, holding a nearby boulder trying to keep her weight off her wounded leg, as she took a deep breath and concentrated on just standing.
Kouga was the only one to notice this event and looked at her with puzzled eyes. Slowly, he stepped toward her to hold her again but was met with an unexpected backhand to the side of his face.
At once, everything was still and even the wind seemed to hold it's breath. The entire youkai tribe stopped amidst their cheering and laughter, scarcely breathing in awe of what just happened. None of them however, were as surprised as Kouga himself. He stood their, slightly off balance, his head tilted slightly over to the side, with a blank look in his eyes, and his jaw dropped nearly an inch and a half.
As the small red mark on his face began to slowly show itself, Kouga also turned to look at Lilian, who hadn't moved after the strike, and probably couldn't move much at all. Beads of sweat ran down the side of her face, and her breath was hard. She turned to meet Kouga's gaze with anger and hate burning fresh in her eyes, as the fires that could never be quenched.
In that instant, the memory in which Kagome had done the same thing pushed itself to the front of his memory. It was that moment that had undoubtedly started the cataclysmic chain of events that had lead to Kagome choosing Inuyasha over himself. Terror filled the youkai at the thought of it happening all over again, because this time, it was different, there was something more about her that made Kouga nearly shiver at the thought of losing her. What scared him more, was that he had already started down the same path as he had taken with Kagome, and he did not how to turn back; he didn't know any other way to win her. He knew youkai females normally mated with whoever was the strongest suitor, and Kouga knew that he was by far one of the strongest; however, Lilian wasn't like that, and unfortunately that was all Kouga had ever known.
Kouga took a deep breath, and continued to gaze on Lilian. Her raspberry eyes erupted with passionate hate, and just being looked at with them made Kouga cringe on the spot. Each passing second under the loathsome gaze of her eyes, felt as though it took with it parts of his heart, and scattered them, one by one on the winds which he so adored. Looking at her figure, pained him more and more with every moment, serving as a reminder that he could not even delay the inevitable: she was going to hate him, and there wasn't a thing he could do about it.
His eyes fell to the ground as he struggled with this absolute. He fought off tears he could not understand, and wallowed in the self pity that threatened to destroy him. But amidst the darkness that attempted to steal his joy, there was yet a glimmer of hope that stood out in the back of his mind waiting to be noticed.
The moment remained quiet, as everyone stood absorbing the drama that took place so potently. The youkai pack stood altogether, still dazed at the moment, and had they wished to say anything at all, they would not have been able to force the words off their lips. Lilian slowly pulled her attacking arm back to the boulder and shifted herself to a more comfortable position, still holding her eyes on the impeding wolf, her mind scheming, trying to plan out the her next move, but coming up with nothing.
Meanwhile, the wolf youkai took in a deep breath and stood tall once again, denying his even his own comrades the sight of his weakness. He cracked a false grin on his face and took two steps towards the nearly immobile huntress, and in one clean maneuver swept her up bridal style before she had time to protest. Without a word he turned toward the Den and slowly and carefully made his way there, making sure not to harm the precious cargo, and avoiding eye contact, lest he lose his composure. All the while, his pack still remained awestruck and silent.
Lilian looked up at the wolf youkai, and her rage continued to burn, yet not as brightly due to her overwhelming fatigue. Trying to suppress the urges to fall asleep in his arms, she mustered what little strength she had, attempting another strike to the side of his face; however, she overestimated her stamina and by the time her hand reached his face, it was nothing more than a gentle caress. The touch caused Kouga's tail to involuntarily move out to the right, then the left, and back down; though she herself didn't notice it. Her hand slid back down to her stomach, then off to dangle out of the reach of the youkai's arms. With that, her will and determination to escape were totally enveloped by her need to rest, and she slipped off suddenly to peaceful unconsciousness.
Kouga continued to walk slowly, when he felt the shift in weight as her head turned on it's side and rested a soft cheek on the on the crease of his elbow, he breathed a soft sigh and looked down onto her face. All of the strain of anger and hate, had quickly drained from her, showing the innocent side of her which Kouga wished he could meet. He passed by his pack and flashed a smile to his comrades to show that everything was alright, and continued onward toward the Den.
Finally the silence was broken when a voice amidst the crowd spoke out to lighten the mood. "It's probably better that she's asleep Kouga," he said "that way she can't complain"
Kouga stopped at that, and there was a moment of silence once again. A true smile made it's way across his face as he turned it slowly there way, and chuckled. Confidence ignited amongst the wolf youkai as the moment's tension slowly declined.
"She would have nothing to complain about" returned Kouga.
"Riiiiight." yelled out another voice from the pack. "Just make sure that if she does wake up, you warn us so we can be ready to pick up your charred body again."
Laughter sprung up from the group after the comment, and even Kouga let out a chuckle. He looked down at the maiden in his arms and smiled once more before raising his head again to continue.
"She would be too busy telling me how great I am to remember the words for the technique" Kouga replied beaming with pride, knowing full well that if he did rape her in her sleep and she woke up, she would blast him with extreme prejudice, and he really did not want to be hit with that from close range without armor.
"Keep kidding yourself Kouga" called out Kiro, emerging to the front of the crowd. "The only reason she would be calling your name, is to figure out what your trying to do to her, that is if you can even make it inside before you pop your top."
The laughter grew in volume and some of the pack members had even dropped to the floor at this point.
Kouga bowed his head, shut his eyes, smirked, and shook his head, "Well, I think I'm pretty good..but that's just me, why don't we ask Mina what she thought of last night."
Everyone knew that Kouga had too much honor to touch another one's mate (that is why he stopped chasing Kagome), but the joke still caused many more of them to be slain with a fit of laughter.
Mina slowly made her way to Kiro's side, the recent joke was not as funny to her or Kiro as it had been to the other's, but she still had a light smirk etched on her face. Kiro placed his arm around her, stroking her shoulder lightly, as she leaned into his side.
Kiro had the same smirk on his face and Mina and shook his head a little. "Cold, Kouga, nice one though." He said "but at least the first mate I chose, chose me back"
To Kiro, it had been just a joke, but no less than Kouga deserved, but to Kouga; it was much more.
Kouga smiled and pretended to not care, but had truly lost the will to joke around at the time. He continued joking around half heartedly for a while then made his leave.
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Still carrying Lilian in his arms he entered the Den, ignoring the woots and cheers from his pack mates behind him. The walls of the caves were dimly lit by the torches placed every ten feet apart on both walls. He made his way to the catacombs within, until he found his quarters.
The whole time there he had avoided looking down at the lavender haired goddess that had driven his wild so far, because every time he looked at her, it reminded him that he would inevitably lose her, and this, to him, was a fate worse than death. It wasn't until he laid her down on the straw bed he normally slept on that he looked upon her face, and everything he had tried to forget rushed all back to him.
He kneeled down beside her still body and gently stroked her hair. He gathered all of the lavender locks together in one hand, with the other he hooked a single strand in his index claw, and swiftly cut through it. As best he could, he tied her hair together with the strand, and set the attempted ponytail down.
He sat there for what seemed like hours, just listening to her breathe, enjoying her scent, and looking upon her face in the dim light. One thought ran wild through his head the entire time as he sat in the presence of the sleeper 'he had to have her, and he would not give up without a fight.'
He bent down by her head and whispered into her ear "I will find a way to make you want me", he kissed her softly on the cheek and quietly got up. He turned and made his back into the dark maze of walls and eventually out to the entrance.
Outside of the cave held no more light than the cave itself, the half moon and the stars were the only light that shown on the mountain. A little way's out from cave he spotted Gekido sitting and enjoying the night air.
"Gekido" Kouga called out when he reached speaking distance.
The "young" youkai turned around to see a silhouette which, using his sense of smell, identified as Kouga. "What do you need?"
"I'm off to go see Trent to ask him about some things, please watch over Lilian while I'm gone. She is in my quarters, do not enter them, but do not let anyone else in either." Kouga asked, solemnly and quietly.
"No problem" replied Gekido standing to his feet "But why do you need to see Trent, our pack is well, and there are no invaders coming, why do you seek his advice?"
"To prevent what happened with Kagome from happening again." Kouga said at nearly a whisper.
"You must really care for her to go seek the wisdom of Trent to please her." Gekido said as he walked over, stopping right next to him, but facing the Den.
"You have no idea my friend, thank you" Kouga replied, and with that the two went their separate ways.
Author: IIIIIII LLLLLLIIIIIIVVVVVVEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I finally finished this chapter (I've been off and on writing it for about a month) hopefully the next one will be quicker.