He wandered around the house now at a loss for what to do, he didn't feel like sleeping. As he passed by the study he knew Terri was still in there as he could hear the sound of her keyboard being tapped away at noisily. He wanted to talk to her about Nina, he was still feeling guilty for turning the argument around onto her, when in fact she had been right to have her suspicions.
He grasped the gold door handle lightly but didn't turn it. He couldn't. He decided it would be best not to disturb her whilst she worked, but he knew it was just an excuse to put it off. He backed away from the door and turned away heading back down the hall, he couldn't tell her, not today. He flopped down into his chair as he promised himself that he would tell her tomorrow. He knew she would be mad at him for what he would be telling her, but part of himself didn't care, he had already tried to tell her once, and she had been uninterested, but now, when he wasn't comfortable having the conversation, she had decided she felt like talking about it. 'Brilliant,' he thought sarcastically, 'Just what I need on top of everything else.'
He suddenly felt quite angry towards her because of this, and the fact that she had decided to bring it up on the day of Walsh's funeral. She knew how close they had been and how devastated he would be today. Maybe she thought she would get through the defences by hitting him with it while he was down, he wondered, or maybe she simply had really bad timing and hadn't stopped to think her accusations through.
He felt tired but stayed sat in his chair until he fell asleep, he didn't want to spend the night next to a nervous wreck, and that is what she would be like in bed with him he though viciously, his anger now controlling his thoughts. If she doesn't want me near her, then that's just fine, I'll stay away. Those were his final angry thoughts as he slowly drifted off to sleep, whilst his mind continued to torment him.
Jack woke up the following morning to the strong smell of pancakes filtering through his senses. He half opened his eyes groggily as Kim pulled open the thick curtains and light streamed into the room, destroying any chance he had of getting back to sleep. He sat up and stretched, noticing the blanket he had draped over Kim last night, which was now covering him.
"Hey Daddy." She smiled, seeing he was now partially awake.
"Hey, what times it?" He asked, still a little groggy from his awakening, the light was stinging his eyes which were still accustomed to the darkness and had to adjust, so he squinted across the room at her, making her laugh in the process.
"Its 10.30 dad, a little late for you sleepy head!" She giggled, before adding. "I made breakfast for you, are you hungry?" She asked enthusiastically.
Jack tried not to moan when Kim told him she'd made him breakfast, so he put on a fake smile, and spoke gratefully, whilst inside he tried to comfort himself by hoping that maybe her pancakes wouldn't be as bad as they usually were. Still he smiled as he spoke to her, the last thing he would was hurt her feelings, no matter how bad the food was.
"Thanks sweetheart I'm starving!"
He laughed as she wandered back into the kitchen, returning shortly with a plate topped with brown pancakes. He took it trying to look grateful, he didn't know if he pulled it off with his upturned nose, they didn't smell too good up close.
"They are a little well done though." Kim warned looking a little disappointed with herself.
"Well done?" He asked between a mouthful. "Just the way I like them." He said, as she left him to go see to more things in the kitchen.
Jack ate the things as fast as he could, trying not to let the taste register in his mouth. He knew it was worth it when he entered the kitchen with his empty plate, seeing the smile on her face as he kissed her on the head then thanked her for the 'wonderful breakfast.' Kim smiled proud of herself, before announcing that she was going to wake her mom and give her her serving. Jack laughed as she left, imagining the look upon her face as Terri woke up to them.
Jack continued to laugh to himself as he washed his dishes, wondering if today was going to be any better than yesterday. With the thought of what he was going to confess to her about Nina, he decided that it probably wasn't going to be much better after all. Reviews would be gratefully appreciated :)