(A/N) FOURTH CHAPTER!!!! Wahoo! I can't believe it! I think something must have inspired me. Or else all the caffeine pills I've been taking for my exams are affecting the speed I write at. Which they probably are, I certainly can't sleep anyway! But who needs sleep anyway? Long live Lucius! And Captain Hook, and Jareth while I'm at it!! Read, review and I will love you!!! Wild moon flower.

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CHAPTER FOUR: Kiss Me Once and I'll tell you a Secret

Remus entered the dormitory silently as if he were but a shadow. He crept over to his bed and lay down, a smile spreading slowly over his face. He felt better than he had ever felt in a long time. With a contented sigh he turned over and fell asleep. The time was three in the morning.

In the bed next to his Sirius Black lay still, he was awake and had heard his small friend sneak in. Sirius wanted to confront him now but something held him back, he liked to think of it as his inner James- the voice of reason in his rather unreasonable mind. With an irritated sigh Sirius let himself drift into an uneasy sleep.

He was dreaming; Sirius knew this because the sight before him could not be real. Remus was standing in the middle of a ring of toadstools. Around him floated glowing yellow orbs of light. Fireflies, Sirius recognised. Remus seemed to be smiling, shyly, his delicate hand beckoning to Sirius, asking him to come closer. Sirius moved forward and as he did so Remus began to change. His skin began to grow thick silver fur and his bones cracked and bent until he was hunched on all fours. Finally his white teeth grew and he growled at Sirius from inside the fairy ring. "You think you can help me?" the wolf growled. "You can never help me!" Sirius took a step back in fright and suddenly he found himself plummeting backwards toward the ground.

James walked along the corridor whistling to himself. He wasn't whistling any particular tune, he was just whistling. Suddenly his peace and quiet was broken by the sound of angry voices coming from the dormitory. He checked his watch, it was only seven o'clock. Surely Sirius could not have woken up just yet? Just the he distinctly heard Remus shout "Fuck you Sirius!" Shaking his messy haired head James ran up the stairs as fast as he could.

Entering the dormitory he was greeted by the sight of Peter cowering in the corner and Sirius and Remus standing in the middle of the floor, glaring at each other. Each boy had anger coming off them in waves and James wished he had not left the dormitory early that morning. "Sirius," he said with warning, but still gently as ever.

Sirius made no sign that he even knew James was there, instead he moved closer to Remus. "Why won't you listen?" he asked. "WHY DO YOU RUN OFF TO HIM?"

Remus's eyes flashed and his lips thinned, baring his teeth as if he were the wolf at that very moment.

"What do you think," Sirius hissed, his blue eyes glinting angrily. "What do you think will happen when he discovers you're a Werewolf? He'll hate you that's what. And then where will you be?"

"No!" Remus cried, "He wouldn't hate me!"

"Yes he would!" Sirius said. "He would hate you because he's a MALFOY Remus! A MALFOY and most probably a Death Eater! You can't trust him, he'd tell everyone."

Remus shook his head violently, his honey coloured hair whipping around his pale face. Sirius advanced on him, angered once more. That was the curse of Sirius, once he got angry it only took the slightest thing to make him more so. Remus looked up at him sorrowfully and Sirius thought he saw tears brimming in the amber eyes. At once his heart softened. "I'm sorry Remy, I'm sorry. It's just I'm your friend. You're supposed to turn to me, not....Malfoy!"

Remus just shook his head even more, backing away from Sirius he bumped into James. Remus whirled around in fright. When he saw who it was he shook his head again. "Why can't you all just LEAVE ME ALONE!" he screamed, the words tearing from his lips. Sirius stopped and stood still, James looked at him in shock and Peter whimpered, hiding behind the curtain. "Just leave me alone." Remus repeated in a whisper, his hands pushing at James a little. "Leave me alone." He said once more before turning on his heel and running out of the dormitory.

A heavy silence hung in the air. It was so heavy that James felt that it would crush him. He had to break it, "Well, that went to plan then Sirius?" he asked.

Sirius glanced at him, a half smile forming on his lips. He laughed; a kind of strangled sound that shouldn't come from one as bright and cheerful as Sirius normally was. James stepped towards his friend hesitantly. James didn't understand what was going on but he knew that he needed to be there for his friends.

"Why does he hate me James?" Sirius asked rather pitifully.

James's warm brown eyes widened, "He doesn't hate you, he doesn't." he said sincerely, knowing in his heart that it was true.

"Then why is he..." Sirius broke off, looking miserable.

"I don't know." James sighed. "But we're getting nowhere shouting at him. Let me try talking to him Padfoot, maybe I can help."

Sirius nodded, albeit sadly. "It's just; I wanted to help him James. It should be me, not Malfoy."

Remus ran, why was he always running? He ran down various corridors, blindly making his way to an unknown destination. Suddenly he found himself banging on a wall so hard he was sure his knuckles were bleeding. "Leave me alone." He repeated like a chant under his breath. It felt like the walls were closing in on him and he couldn't breathe. He knocked on the wall harder, why did nobody answer?

Suddenly the wall slid away and Remus stumbled slightly before regaining his balance and meeting the black eyes of...Snape. "Lupin?" Snape asked disbelievingly. This was the second time he had met the Gryffindor at the door of his common room and Snape was getting slightly curious as to why he was there. "What do you want?" he asked.

Remus blinked as if he was just really noticing him and then said "Lucius, I mean Malfoy; I need to talk to him. Let me in!"

Snape frowned but he moved away from the entrance all the same allowing the smaller boy to slip through. He was about to ask the Gryffindor something else when he realised that Remus had already gone.

Remus knocked sharply as Lucius's bedroom door, he knocked once, twice, three times, four, until finally Lucius opened it. The blonde haired Slytherin stared at him in shock but seeing the state that Remus was in he quickly pulled the younger boy inside, shutting the door tightly behind him.

"Why you?" Remus cried pushing Lucius slightly. "Why you? Why can't it be Sirius huh? Why are you the only one who makes me feel....who makes me feel...remotely alive?" he ended his tirade in a whisper, banging his fists once more against the Slytherin.

Lucius, lost for words, grabbed the boy's honey hair and pulled his face up to his. Closing his silver eyes Lucius did the only think he could think of, he kissed him, a quick light kiss that was over as soon as it began.

Lost for words Remus pushed the silver eyed boy away. "You'll hate me." He whispered.

Lucius looked at him, bewildered. "Why would I hate you? You're the only one in this whole school who treats me like I'm just 'Lucius' and not Lucius Malfoy."

Remus looked at him with scared amber eyes. "You would hate me if you knew...if you knew what I really am." Every part of Remus's mind was screaming at him to turn and leave. Why was he telling Lucius his secret? Did he want to ruin everything? But it was too late now. He had already ruined everything with Sirius; why not destroy everything else in his life while he was at it?

Lucius shook his head, everything was happening so fast; he felt breathless but he didn't want to stop. "I could never hate you. I never did and I never will." He told the Gryffindor quietly. Lucius wanted so many things in life, but most of all he wanted to be free and so, he sensed, did Remus. They could free each other if they tried.

Remus turned so that Lucius couldn't see his face. Ignoring the screams in his head he began to speak, he had to see if Sirius was right. He just had to. "I'm...I'm a w...werewolf." he whispered, part of him hoping that the Slytherin would not hear.

But Lucius did hear and he was not afraid. He moved closer to the Gryffindor and turned him around so that their eyes met. "I knew it," he said. "I knew you were a child of the moon."

A flicker of hope that Sirius was wrong shone in Remus's eyes and he asked nervously "You aren't afraid? Do you hate me?"

Lucius smiled, "Why should I be afraid? You are Remus with werewolf blood not a werewolf with Remus blood. I know you wouldn't hurt me on purpose. You may have been cursed by a dark creature but you aren't that creature. You're still Remus and I don't hate you."

Remus made a small choking noise, even Sirius and James hadn't been this understanding, they had needed 'time to get used to it'. But here was a boy he had once thought his enemy accepting it as if it were nothing. "Sirius said you would." Remus whispered.

"Black doesn't know one thing about me." Lucius said matter-of-factly. "Black cares only about himself."

"That's not true." Remus said quietly, and then he looked up at Lucius again. "He says you're a Death Eater, is that true?"

Lucius looked away for a moment, his eyes taking on a wild look. "Would you hate me if I was?" he asked, dreading the answer.

"No." said the quiet smooth voice of Remus. "No I wouldn't."

Lucius nodded and then shook his head, his white-gold hair swinging in its ponytail. "I'm not, not yet anyway, but my father is and he does want me to join as soon as I'm ready. Sometimes I feel as if I never want to join and sometimes I feel as if I do. There is something evil growing inside me Remus. Sometimes I want to rip it out of me and then at other times it feels so easy to give in. But I know that if I do give in to it, I'll never escape it."

The two boys stared solemnly at each other, their faces cast golden by the glowing fire. Outside the sun shone and the birds sang. They noticed none of it.

Sirius bashed the boy's head against the wall as hard as he could. The boy moaned in pain and Sirius smiled in satisfaction. Again he forced the boy's head to meet the wall, and again and again. Finally the let go and the boy struggled to stand.

Snape opened one bloody eye and looked blearily at the towering figure that stood before him. His head hurt like hell and it felt like he would never be able to see properly again. "Go away Black." He croaked feebly. What had he done to deserve this?

"Where's Remus?" Sirius asked.

"I don't know." Snape said, shaking his head though it hurt to do so.

"WHERE IS HE?" Sirius yelled. "I KNOW you know!"

Snape shook his head again and Sirius raised his arm back, readying another punch when someone else stepped in front of Snape. It was James, the voice of reason. "Sirius, Sirius," he said. "Come on, there are other ways to find Remus than this."

Slowly Sirius brought down his hand. With one last glare at the wounded Snape he stomped away angrily.

Crouching down James spoke to Snape. "I'm sorry about that," he said, feeling truly sorry for Snape. Although he did hate the Slytherin Sirius really did have no right to take his anger out on him like that. "He's just upset and more than a little wound up." He said before getting up and following Sirius out of the old classroom.

Snape struggled to rise again, tears threatening at his eyes. Why was it he always ended up being a punch bag for frustrated Gryffindors? One day, he thought, he would make them all pay for their treatment of him. But for now he would just have to put up with it.

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End of chapter four.

(A/N) So? Good/bad?. I do feel that Sirius would beat Snape up like that after all he does almost kill him in the books. Anyway thanx for reading! And review, review, review!!!