A/N: I've been thinking about how to write this chapter for days and days.
And I've finally come up with something. Here goes:
Chapter 22
~Summer's POV~
I hate to say it but the last couple of days that I have spent with Jake have been the most boring days ever. I had to cook for him and look after him after school until Rain got home which was for about half an hour tops, then she had to go to work. I actually got away having some of his friends over and keeping him occupied with that. I have to see Pony soon. I sometimes see him at school, but I barely have any classes with him, it's really hard to catch him during lunch too, because he usually walks over to the DX with Steve and Two-bit, and I usually sit with Charlotte in the lunch room. I've been sitting with her the whole week. Ever since we got drunk at the party (A/N: Sorry I forgot to tell you, Charlotte got ripping drunk at the party too.) her brother's been being mean to her. And I sit with her so they don't actually kick her out of the table or something.
Ugh, I'm going to kill myself. It is so boring just to sit home everyday after school. I so want to go places with Charlotte and her brother's friends.
After moping around the house, waiting for Jake and Rain to come home I finally decided to take a bath. I filled the tub and soaked in it for about 15 minutes. I looked at my thin, long legs. I hadn't shaved in a long time. I looked over at the blade on the side of the tub. I felt so depressed and that blade looked so friendly. I took it in my hands, feeling the cold metal handle. I held it for a while. Then I held it against it my skin, without putting showing cream or anything on. The cold blade felt so comforting held against my bare skin. I dragged the blade from my ankle up to my knee. I relaxed after doing the same thing couple more times. This felt so good.
I opened my eyes, and dropped the blade in the water. I suddenly froze, what have I done? I looked at my cut up leg. I gasped at the sight of how much blood was coming out of the cuts. I quickly grabbed the blade, and washed the blood off, next I washed the blood off my legs. The water turned pinkish by the time my legs stopped bleeding. But you know what? I actually felt good after doing it. Maybe I'll do it when I feel really depressed. Not often, just sometimes. How hard can it be to control it?
I got of the bath tub and let the red water run down the drain. I winced as I pulled my underwear up my thighs, which went over the cuts. It felt good at first, yeah, but afterwards, it hurt like a bitch.
I got dressed in long sweat pants and went into my room.
Rain and Jake got home around 5:30; I was watching TV at the moment.
"Hi Summer!" Jake yelled, as he jumped on the couch.
"Hey Squirt." I said tiredly.
I felt weak, and I just wanted to sleep. After playing with Jake for a while, I decided to go to bed.
"I'm gonna go to bed you guys, good night." Good thing Rain wasn't working that afternoon, or else I would have to stay up and watch Jake.
"You haven't even eaten." Rain said.
"I'm not hungry." With that, I went to my room, and climbed into bed. I laid there for a while. I couldn't fall asleep no matter how tired I was. Tomorrow would be Saturday, I thought. I gotta get out of here. Rain works, and Jake's over at his friend's house. I'll call Charlotte and sneak out. It's a plan. I closed my eyes and instant sleep took over me.
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I woke up around 12:30 and got up to call Charlotte. She answered the phone.
"Hello?"
"Hi, Charlotte?"
"Yeah, Summer?"
"Yup. How are you?"
"I'm good, how bout you?"
"I'm okay, um, I was wondering if you wanted to do something today."
"Uh, sure. Me and my brother's friends are all going to the dingo for lunch, you wanna come along?"
"Yes! Anything to get out of here."
"Good, we'll pick you up around 2."
"Great, see you then."
"Bye."
I was so glad to finally get out of the house. I was glad to finally do something out of school.
I went to my room to look for something to wear. I searched through my closet, but there was nothing pretty, that was long enough to cover my cuts.
I finally decided to go through Rain's closet. Her room was so damn tidy. Jesus how can she do it. I'm home all day after school, and my room still looks like crap. I mean it's pretty and all, just not clean. I pulled out a long sleeved black shirt, and a pair of jeans. Now all I needed was makeup and I would be ready to go.
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I know it's a cheesy place to end, but I need to get ready for my drum lesson and I still have some homework to finish. So I just wrote a chapter as quick as possible since I've been making you guys wait for so long. I hope you liked it. I want a good amount of reviews for this chapter. I don't know if it's because I haven't updated in so long, so because I just want a lot of feedback. Just do the only kind thing, and review. Thanks a lot ;)
Tara
Chapter 22
~Summer's POV~
I hate to say it but the last couple of days that I have spent with Jake have been the most boring days ever. I had to cook for him and look after him after school until Rain got home which was for about half an hour tops, then she had to go to work. I actually got away having some of his friends over and keeping him occupied with that. I have to see Pony soon. I sometimes see him at school, but I barely have any classes with him, it's really hard to catch him during lunch too, because he usually walks over to the DX with Steve and Two-bit, and I usually sit with Charlotte in the lunch room. I've been sitting with her the whole week. Ever since we got drunk at the party (A/N: Sorry I forgot to tell you, Charlotte got ripping drunk at the party too.) her brother's been being mean to her. And I sit with her so they don't actually kick her out of the table or something.
Ugh, I'm going to kill myself. It is so boring just to sit home everyday after school. I so want to go places with Charlotte and her brother's friends.
After moping around the house, waiting for Jake and Rain to come home I finally decided to take a bath. I filled the tub and soaked in it for about 15 minutes. I looked at my thin, long legs. I hadn't shaved in a long time. I looked over at the blade on the side of the tub. I felt so depressed and that blade looked so friendly. I took it in my hands, feeling the cold metal handle. I held it for a while. Then I held it against it my skin, without putting showing cream or anything on. The cold blade felt so comforting held against my bare skin. I dragged the blade from my ankle up to my knee. I relaxed after doing the same thing couple more times. This felt so good.
I opened my eyes, and dropped the blade in the water. I suddenly froze, what have I done? I looked at my cut up leg. I gasped at the sight of how much blood was coming out of the cuts. I quickly grabbed the blade, and washed the blood off, next I washed the blood off my legs. The water turned pinkish by the time my legs stopped bleeding. But you know what? I actually felt good after doing it. Maybe I'll do it when I feel really depressed. Not often, just sometimes. How hard can it be to control it?
I got of the bath tub and let the red water run down the drain. I winced as I pulled my underwear up my thighs, which went over the cuts. It felt good at first, yeah, but afterwards, it hurt like a bitch.
I got dressed in long sweat pants and went into my room.
Rain and Jake got home around 5:30; I was watching TV at the moment.
"Hi Summer!" Jake yelled, as he jumped on the couch.
"Hey Squirt." I said tiredly.
I felt weak, and I just wanted to sleep. After playing with Jake for a while, I decided to go to bed.
"I'm gonna go to bed you guys, good night." Good thing Rain wasn't working that afternoon, or else I would have to stay up and watch Jake.
"You haven't even eaten." Rain said.
"I'm not hungry." With that, I went to my room, and climbed into bed. I laid there for a while. I couldn't fall asleep no matter how tired I was. Tomorrow would be Saturday, I thought. I gotta get out of here. Rain works, and Jake's over at his friend's house. I'll call Charlotte and sneak out. It's a plan. I closed my eyes and instant sleep took over me.
~*~*~*~*~
I woke up around 12:30 and got up to call Charlotte. She answered the phone.
"Hello?"
"Hi, Charlotte?"
"Yeah, Summer?"
"Yup. How are you?"
"I'm good, how bout you?"
"I'm okay, um, I was wondering if you wanted to do something today."
"Uh, sure. Me and my brother's friends are all going to the dingo for lunch, you wanna come along?"
"Yes! Anything to get out of here."
"Good, we'll pick you up around 2."
"Great, see you then."
"Bye."
I was so glad to finally get out of the house. I was glad to finally do something out of school.
I went to my room to look for something to wear. I searched through my closet, but there was nothing pretty, that was long enough to cover my cuts.
I finally decided to go through Rain's closet. Her room was so damn tidy. Jesus how can she do it. I'm home all day after school, and my room still looks like crap. I mean it's pretty and all, just not clean. I pulled out a long sleeved black shirt, and a pair of jeans. Now all I needed was makeup and I would be ready to go.
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I know it's a cheesy place to end, but I need to get ready for my drum lesson and I still have some homework to finish. So I just wrote a chapter as quick as possible since I've been making you guys wait for so long. I hope you liked it. I want a good amount of reviews for this chapter. I don't know if it's because I haven't updated in so long, so because I just want a lot of feedback. Just do the only kind thing, and review. Thanks a lot ;)
Tara