Well hey there to all my readers! The ass kicker is back! lol well here's my latest. I know I know, I gotta update my other ficie, lol. I'm getting there.
Chapter 1- Scarlet Skin
"Why would u do something like that to yourself?"
"Dude look, she doesn't even know!" I just shook my head, trying to keep the trembling in my fingers under control. Trying to make it so you can't see everything that I hide. You think you know all of my secrets, but you could never guess what I hadn't told you.
"People who do that, their parents like beat them and stuff."
"That was long ago." I replied
"Dude your parents never beat you!" I wanted to yell at him, to tell him all shit I had to endure, but I couldn't. I had to keep the trembling under control. I had to make sure none of you would see.
I walked home alone that day. When I got home the first thing I did was pull out my blades. The debate raged on in my head as to wether or not I should do it. My anxiety won over my self-confidence and I let the cool metal slip through my skin. I watched as a bead of blood started to form around the cut. I quickly pulled my armband back over it. If I watched too long the guilt would come. The less I watched, the less guilty id feel. But I couldn't help it. I had to watch. I had to watch this sick thing just to feel better. I pulled the armband back down. I watched my wrist pour its scarlet regret. I watched the blood run down my arm. The guilt washed over me like a title wave. It was the guilt of doing something so sick and abnormal to yourself. The guilt of doing to yourself what u promised other you would never do. The guilt....of a cutter.
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