Psychobabble
( xxxxx )
Love is so close to hate.
Like dogs hate cats that hate mice.
Or eat mice.
It'd be kind of weird imagining me eat Yuki in that sense. It'd be strange devouring a furry little thing with a worm-like tail. It'd be strange feeling it slide down my throat, maybe still struggling.
Of course eating Yuki in another way wouldn't be so hard to imagine.
Hah. You people probably think I'm insane.
I might be.
I could be.
Yuki would think I'm stupid.
But then again, I'm always stupid right?
I'm the cat!
That might be why he calls me BAKA neko every time I piss him off.
It's actually kind of funny.
I don't think I ever actually piss him off.
I think it's more... annoyance.
It makes me kind of sad to know that I'm too pathetic to even make someone mad.
God, my life is like one of those lame American emo songs.
Or a bad country tune.
Kind of like:
'Oh, I'm so rejected and my life sucks
I was kicked out of my family and condemned to a cage
My mom committed suicide because she hated me
But I'll keep acting like an ass to cover my insecurity
Life sucks.'
Or something like that.
I'm never going to write songs.
It really seems that I'm not good for much except for this psychobabble inside of my brain. Maybe I'll get people to think of things, and not take crap for granted.
Wouldn't that be grand?
If everything was pretty and shiny, like the world that Tohru envisions.
Wouldn't that be nice?
Wouldn't it be nice if I was accepted?
Wouldn't it be nice if everyone liked me, and acted like nothing was wrong?
Wouldn't it be 'nice'?
Wouldn't it be nice if someone cared?
Maybe...
But I'd probably just push them away, like I always do.
It's the nature of the kitty cat.
Only accept help when it's truly needed. Kind of like when a cat gets trapped in a tree; and it won't come down no matter what. Even, when some obese fire department guy tries to get it down with a stale cat-treat. It just stays up, waiting until it can get down by itself. It has stuff to prove.
Snowball.
That's the name I'm giving that kick-ass cat.
Because it's white and poofy, like snow.
And this cat can fly.
If only he could.
If only I could, to get myself away from this place.
Wouldn't it be nice?
( xxxxx )
That was fun. If you haven't noticed, that's in the POV of Kyou. I think I might have some more psychotic thoughts from other members of the Zodiac. Shigure's might be a little bit scary. oO; So yes. If I get some replies to this, I might write more. Turrah!