Before
Tom entered the Great Hall, he could see Hagrid watching for him from
the Gryffindor table. Tom thought about skipping breakfast, but
Hagrid had already spotted him. Tom entered anyway and tried not to
make eye contact. He caught movement out of the corner of his eye,
and tried to motion to Hagrid that he should just stay put. Hagrid
ignored him and called, "Hey, Tom!"
Tom glanced back at
him and said, "Yes?"
"I just wanted to say thanks
for-"
"Forget about it."
"No, I couldn't. You
didn't-"
"I know I didn't, but I did. It's over.
Let's forget it happened."
"But-"
"Listen,
just because I give you a hand doesn't mean I want to be your
pal."
By that point the whole hall had turned their
attentions to Tom and Hagrid. Tom looked at his table to see Gordy
sneering at him. The rest of the gang seemed about to split their
sides in laughter. Tom was almost whispering when he said coldly,
"Just go back to your table and pretend I never talked to
you."
Hagrid stood where he was and stared at Tom. His lips
started to move a little, but he made no sound. Tom tried to seem
indifferent as he took an isolated, seat at the Slytherin table. He
tried to block out all sound, but the snickering from Gordy and his
friends seemed to become louder the harder he tried. He refused to
let his embarrassment get the better of him, and he began to eat as
nonchalantly as possible.
"What was that about?" Max
asked. He'd moved down from the other end of the
table.
"Nothing."
"You friends with him?"
"No.
And if I was, it wouldn't be any of your concern."
Max
recoiled, "Sorry, man. I was just-I mean are you in good with him.
No offense, but he's kind of weird, you know?"
"Yeah, I
know. I don't need you to point it out to me," Tom tossed his
fork down on the table, "I just gave him a hand with a problem
that's all."
Tom left the Great Hall without making eye
contact with anyone, but he could still hear the snickers of his
housemates. He clenched his fists as his footsteps grew heavier.
"What do they care?" he whispered to himself, "It's my duty
as head boy, right? Help students, right? So what do they care?"
His
pace increased as he continued to whisper angrily to himself. He made
an abrupt stop in the middle of a hallway. He swore as let his fist
fly into the wall. Moments after his fist connected with the stones,
he sank to his knees and cradled his hand. Hot pain shot from the
knuckles, up the arm, through the shoulder and into his brain. Tom
bit his lip and cursed at himself for being stupid enough to punch a
stone wall.
A hand rested on his shoulder, and he heard
Dumbledore behind him. "Stand up. I'll take you to the hospital
wing."
Tom stared up at Dumbledore with both awe and a tinge
of fear. Snapping back to reality, Tom stumbled to his feet. He
walked beside Dumbledore. "Let me see your hand."
Tom held
his right hand out. Without touching him, Dumbledore looked over it
and said, "That was quite a punch. Why did you punch the wall,
Tom?"
Tom shrugged. Dumbledore said casually, "There must
have been some catalyst. What would drive a level-head, smart student
like you, to punch a wall?"
"Just mad."
"Surely
you were more than just mad."
Tom shrugged again. Dumbledore
asked, "What's making you so angry that you want to do
this?"
"Just...things...stuff."
"Things and
stuff are what drive you to want to curse your classmates?"
"People
bug me sometimes."
"I understand. It happens to the best
of us. Still, it worries me how you handle your anger."
"Why
should it worry you? I'd reckon Dippet's more worried."
"I
do not doubt that Professor Dippet is worried. Still, I hate to see
such a bright student falter."
"Ain't a guy got a right
to be angry sometimes?"
"Of course he does. It's the way
in which he deals with it that important. It does a person no good to
react with violence."
Tom scoffed, "And let people walk
all over you? No thank you, Professor."
"You're smarter
than that Tom. You don't need fists and curses and hate to get by.
No, I think you'd fare better than most anyone even without your
wand. I just wish you'd see it in yourself. Now, here we are. Would
you like me to write you a note for your next class?"
"No,
I don't think she'll mind," Tom said. He stared as Dumbledore
walked away unsure of how much of Dumbledore's concern was real.
