Disclamier: I do not own Yu-Gi-Oh or any of its characters. I only own Sakura and any other OCs that show up but alas, the actual show or card game is not mine.

Chapter 4

Yami lay down in bed that night staring at the ceiling. How can Sakura stay so.... Normal? Is she really hiding her feelings that much? Yami sat up and looked over at sleeping Yugi then at the clock. It was 5:00 A.M. and he still was up. How can he go to sleep after an ordeal like suicide just happened? If he didn't get there when he did, would she have really have shot herself? Thank all the gods that Kaiba gave me her address. In a way, he was the one who saved her. Yami got out of bed and fixed it. He then walked downstairs trying not to make any noise. Yami looked around to find the shop still was covered in darkness. He walked towards the kitchen and flipped the switch. The light blinded him and he covered his eyes till it adjusted. He went to open the fridge and took out eggs, cheese, a cutting board, and some tomatoes. Yami started to make an omelet for him and Yugi. Solomon wouldn't get up for awhile so he didn't have to make him any. What would he have done if he actually found her dead? Would he cry? What would Yugi do if he heard what happened? After Yami finished, he set Yugi's omelet on the table and started to eat his own. Light started to show through the windows and onto the table.

Yugi should be getting up soon. As if on cue, Yugi can be heard upstairs getting dressed for school. Yami went to go clean his now empty plate and then to go take a shower. Yugi went to Yami's bed to wake him up but he wasn't there. I wonder where he is. Was he out all night? Yugi started to worry then went downstairs into the kitchen for breakfast. He saw the omelet waiting for him at the table and smiled. I guess he just woke up before me. Yugi then heard the shower running and laughed. He was in a better mood now and started to eat his omelet. He then started to think about last night. Where did Yami go? Is he mad at me and that's why it seems like he is avoiding me? Is he just worried? Yugi smiled at the idea. I wonder what he's thinking. Yugi took his plate and set it in the sink and waited for Yami so they can go to school.

Sakura woke up when the sun peeked in through the curtains and onto the bed. Why do they care? I thought Yugi hated me and Yami barely even knows me! Sakura got up and left the bed untended. She took off all her clothes and didn't bother with the bandages. Sakura entered the shower and stood there with the hot water running down on her body staring at the wall blankly. The bandages started to fall off and fell to her side. Why is life still worth it? I have nothing left here. So why do I stay? Sakura shut off the water and got out of the shower. She took out a black towel from her cabinets and wrapped one around her and another around her hair sitting on top of her head. She stared at herself in the mirror and saw how frail looking she really was. Look at me! I'm not beautiful so how can anyone care? Nowadays it's all about looks. Every guy just wants me for my body excluding my brother who hates my guts. So why would Yami kiss me? Why didn't Kaiba come for me instead of Yami? Sakura broke the mirror with her fist, then went to get dressed. Her knuckles where bleeding but she didn't care. Does Kaiba even care? Why the hell am I even thinking of him right now? She slipped on her essentials and a pair of black leather pants. She started to rummage around for a shirt and saw a white spaghetti strapped shirt. Why hasn't the uniform come in yet? She slipped it on and then looked around. Her apartment was plain looking and it still looked so dark in there. She then walked out the door grabbing her black trench coat on the way and locked it behind her.

Kaiba was already ready and waiting for Mokuba to finish his breakfast. How can I fall a girl in just a couple of days? Why do I even care? Mokuba came into the room.

"Kaiba! I'm ready! Now hurry up because I don't want to be late!" Mokuba ran to the limo and Kaiba followed closely behind. He stared out the window at the passing cars and trees. Soon buildings where passing by too. The limo stopped in front of Mokuba's school.

"Ok, bye big brother! Take it easy, ok?" Mokuba got out of the limo and shut the door. Kaiba looked down at his feet then took out his card locket around his neck. He stared at the picture and wondered. If he hadn't won that chess game against his foster father, then what would have happened? Would he have turned out the way he had? Kaiba put away the locket and went back to staring at the window. School is boring, life is dull, and his work life seems all he can do. It was all he really needed to get away from things till she came along. Kaiba snickered when he remembered the paper ball fight. I wonder if she's alright. She was upset.

---Flashback---

"Why are you standing there? Let's go wait for Mokuba in the living room." Kaiba started to walk off but she just stood there. He turned back around then walked back to her.

"What's wrong? Something on the floor?" Sakura looked up into his eyes obviously close to tears.

"I am your maid from now till my work is over then I can go home. What are my duties for today?" Kaiba seemed surprised. Just what is this girl thinking?

"Nothing yet. Sakura what is wrong with you?" She just stared past him.

"Did you bring me there on purpose to play with my emotions again?" Kaiba grabbed her shoulders and made her look into his eyes.

"Sakura, I'm not playing around. I forgot that this is going on. What do you want me to do? Apologize? Ok, I'm sorry I broke your heart many times. I'm sorry I'm toying with you. I'm sorry I'm falling for---" Kaiba stopped short and let her go. He turned his back on her trying to conceal his blushing face.

"How can I know if what you're saying is true when you say such stinging things to me?" Kaiba knew he messed up. He knew it since he first realized he even liked her.

"I'm sorry for being a huge asshole. You are no longer serving me. You may do as you wish now." Kaiba walked into his living room and listened as the door opened and closed. He sat on the couch with his head in his hands.

---End Flashback---

It's my fault. I pushed her away. How can I act so rashly? Kaiba got out of the limo as soon as it stopped. He started to walk towards the class and stopped when he saw Sakura. She was in that black trench coat and it seemed as if she was wrapping up her arms. Did she cut herself because of me and Yugi? Am I even partly to blame? Of course you are! She was upset and you participated in making her feel that way! Kaiba could just walk towards her and hold her. She seemed so close but she was still far away to him. Sakura got up and rolled down the sleeves of her trench coat, covering up her arms. Just what is it about her that you find so appealing? She then walked away not looking once at him. I guess she didn't see me. Kaiba continued to walk towards the classroom. He opened the door and saw the teacher there.

"Good day Mr. Kaiba. I'm sorry I sat you next to an unruly student. Would you like me to move her next to Jounouchi for you?" Kaiba looked at her coldly.

"No. She's fine where she is." The teacher smiled and Kaiba went to go sit in his seat. He pulled out a book and started to read. If only he can work on his laptop, but of course it's not allowed in school. The bell rang ten minutes later and all the students started to pile in. Sakura was last and sat in her seat with everyone staring at her. Why are everyone so captivated by her? Is it her beauty? Or just because she's late? Kaiba looked up to see why, then gasped. She looked so pale and her eyes where clouded over. What happened to her that changed her so much? It was just one night! I thought she'd be fine... Yea, way to go Seto. You really know how women work. Kaiba mentally kicked himself and stared. When she sat down she just stared at her desk, not looking up or around herself. After half an hour trying to ignore the silence, Kaiba couldn't take it.

"Sakura what happened to you?" Kaiba whispered. Sakura look up at him slowly turning her head towards him.

"Ask Yami. He's the one who showed up. Not you." She went back to staring at the desk. I knew it. I should have gone inside not just follow Yami! I am an idiot! What the hell was I thinking? Kaiba waited till class was over impatiently. When the bell rang Sakura was the first one out, leaving Kaiba as second.

"Sakura! Wait, Sakura!" Kaiba ran after her as fast as he could. She was a fast runner but he was faster. She ran towards the grass area for soccer and football. By then, Kaiba was almost at her heels. When he was right next to her, he tackled her to the ground. They tumbled. Kaiba was on top of her holding himself up so he wasn't on her. Sakura was crying looking to the side, trying not to look up into his cold blue eyes. They were both panting from exhaustion.

"Sakura, why are you running?" She kept trying not to look at him.

"Sakura, just look at me!" Sakura turned her face towards him suddenly and gave him the saddest look he's ever seen his entire life. No one looked that sad since Mokuba was crying for his mother. What was keeping you from breaking down?

"I'm an idiot! I never should have trusted you! I knew how you were and I still trusted you! I was a fool for doing so!" Kaiba's eyes softened. I was right. I did cause her pain. Kaiba sat up and let Sakura cry into his chest. How much of an idiot can I be for treating her so harshly? He stroked her hair subconsciously. The tears finally stopped and she looked up at him. Why is he being like this now? Is he just feeling sorry for me and giving me what I want just to take it back later? Is it just the spare the moment? Well, I hope this moment never ends. Sakura hugged him closer and lay in his arms feeling the warmth from his body come to hers. He was breathing down her neck, which made her body shiver with pleasure. Kaiba looked down at her to see that she already stopped crying, but she wouldn't let go. The bell rang from the school signaling that second period has ended. Kaiba picked her up and started to walk with her towards her house. It wasn't far but it was better for her to be there today. School was not a good place for her right now. Sakura started to drift off to sleep but she tried to stay awake. She looked up at Kaiba and smiled. He can be so sweet but I know this can never be. He's only toying with my feelings like he said yesterday...

Kaiba set the sleeping Sakura in her bed. He took off her trench coat and gasped at all the cuts all over her arms. They were still fresh. Is this what I caused? Is this how far she took it? Did Yami stop her from suicide? I knew I should have gone instead of him. I am such an idiot. Some of her wounds were still bleeding so he went to her bathroom for bandages. When he walked in, crunching noises sounded. Kaiba looked down and saw glass, then noticed that the mirror was broken. Blood was there, on the walls, and all over the floor. His eyes widened at the site. Does she think I really hate her? Is she really that hurt from Yugi? He opened the cupboards and pulled out the first aid kit. Kaiba went back to Sakura who was still sleeping. He wiped away all the blood on her skin with alcohol. Her face scrunched up in slight pain but she didn't wake up. I'm sorry Sakura... After the blood was gone, he wrapped up her arms and looked down at her still face. She looked like an angel to Kaiba. He bent down and kissed her lightly on her lips. He then whispered in her ear.

"I'm sorry Sakura. Please forgive me. I just care for you so much and right now I'm so confused now. I don't deserve you." He got up and walked towards the bathroom again. I should clean all this up. He pulled out a dust pan and swept it all up carefully and pulled up the chunks of glass off the bottom of his shoe. He threw away the glass in the trashcan in the kitchen. Sitting there on the table was a folder. What's this? Kaiba being the nosey CEO, picked it up and opened it. There were papers upon papers of writing. It was Sakura's cheap excuse for a diary. Does she write things every night? Kaiba started to flip through till he saw his name and read:

'Today I was made to pick up papers for that baka Kaiba. He looks good sleeping though. Hard to think he can be so cold hearted. What happened to him to make him act this way? I think he hates me but its half and half so far. I wonder if we can even get along...'

Kaiba scoffed. Is this all she writes about? Kaiba flipped a couple pages ahead.

'Kaiba hates me. This is hopefully the last I'll write ever. I've waited so long for death but now I will end it. I actually fell for this guy. I knew he'd never love me. I was right. He doesn't. Maybe I should've said something but I could tell he didn't want me. He tried to act like he actually wanted to go somewhere but he purposely led me there so Yugi can hate me more. Why does he hate me so? He actually tried to make it seem like he was falling for me! I won't fall for it. Not now, not ever. I refuse to let a guy in my pants. Not since my father already raped me. I tried to kill him but he died before I even got to the hospital. That bastard is good at hiding. I have to give him that much. I wonder if I killed myself, if Kaiba would even care. When would this all end? Would he even come for me? How shall I kill myself? I'll do what I drew in the drawing. Cut myself then shoot myself with the very gun my father tried to shoot me with. It's a fitting end for a shitty life. Good-bye cruel world and all your tortures. I can't believe I dreamt of that perfect world. My last words:

'I dream of a world when the birds sing

And dreamers dream

When all is perfect

Perfect for you and me...'

Those words are for you Kaiba. I fell for you and I can easily take my love away also.'

Kaiba sat staring at those very words. She fell for me? I can't believe this... Kaiba set her 'dairy' down like it has never been touched. He looked in Sakura's room and saw she was still sleeping. He looked around for a piece of paper and a pen. When he did, he sat at the desk and began to write.

'Sakura,

I'm sorry for all the pain I've caused and all the times I made you feel so alone. I'm writing to confess. I've fallen in love with you. I'm not playing around or toying with your feelings. I truly have. I saw the cuts and the gun (which I've confiscated now). I've decided to go to leave you alone. Obviously, I've cuased you so much pain that I shouldn't have. The incident at the Game Shop really was an accident. I'm sorry for that. Please don't ignore this. My heart hurts so much for all the pain that's happened. You'll no longer see me again. If you still want to talk to me, I'll still be in school. I hope we talk more then.

All My Love,

Seto Kaiba

P.S.

Call me Seto now. Kaiba is too formal of a name for what you really mean to me. Have a good life. Good-Bye.'

Kaiba set the letter on the dresser by her bed and left. I hope your life becomes better after all my insults has left you now. Sakura watched silently from tearful eyes as he left and then started to read the letter.