Catch me when I fall
Author's note: Hope you guys like it
Elizabeth stared at John in concern. He hadn't spoken since he had knocked on her door, well more then an hour ago. He now sat on her bed, staring at the carpet, face crumpled and hidden tears running down his cheeks.
Crawling up, she sat beside him and brushed his cheek lightly.
"Hey." She said softly, "Are you going to tell me what's going on?"
John looked up at her, into her eyes, the tears staining his blotchy, pasty face.
"How do you do it?" He whispered quietly, tears continuing to fall.
Liz stared at him, frowning.
"How do I do what?" She asked, confused.
John raised his hand and brushed his knuckles along her cheek softly.
"How do you go on, knowing we are the reason of so many deaths?"
I wake up
Thoughts of you
Tattooed to my mind
As I wonder
What to wear
What to eat
Who to be
Will I see you again
And as my car breaks down
I shake my head and say
What a day
If you only knew
What I went through just to get to you
I'm hanging from you
And I'll hold on if you want me to
Elizabeth had to admit, over all the conversations she had over her time in Atlantis, never before had she had such a one as she was having with John.
"I go on." She said softly, her own eyes filling with tears; "I go on because it's the only thing you can do. It's the only thing we can do."
Her arms wrapped around his shoulders.
"But I don't know how to live with it." John continued more calmly, "I don't know if I can."
Elizabeth felt her heart clench.
"You will." She said a little forcefully. "You will because you are John Sheppard, and because if you can't, what hope do the rest of us have?"
Every bus, every train,
Ever cab, every lane is JAMMED
So I look to the sky
And I reach for the planes with my hands
John remained silent.
If all my days go wrong
I'll think about last night
It went right
"Come on John." She said, waving around her arms, "Look around! You can't give up when so many people rely on you!"
John looked at her sharply, his voice breaking.
"I can't. I'm not worth it. I don't have anything to come back for! No one needs me here!"
If you only knew
What I went through just to get to you
I'm hanging from you
And I'll hold on if you want me to
Liz leaned forward.
If you only knew
What I went through just to get to you
I'm swinging from you
And there's nothing I would rather do
"I need you, John." She said softly, kissing him lightly.
John looked over at her.
"Are you just saying that?"
Liz shook her head.
"If the man I love hasn't even noticed after all this time how I feel about him, I don't know if I want to love him." She laughed to make sure he knew it was a joke and he smiled, wrapping his arms around her waist and pulling her closer to him.
She rested her head on his chest and smiled, his hand was lightly patting her hair and her hand was locked in his.
"Anyway." Liz said, smiling, "What would Ford, Teyla and McKay do without their fearless leader?"
He smiled and brought his face close to hers, and they kissed, Atlantis suddenly looking a lot more like home.
Fin