A/N: I know I promised I would update sooner but I've had exams and lab reports like crazy. And I know this is a short chapter. I tried to think of something else I wanted in this chapter but couldn't. I think it's kind of a slight transition chapter. I do promise better quality chapters soon. Also Thank you for the good reviews. I do appreciate it.
Christmas had just past and Missy still didn't go home. She did call Cory every other week or so. They were hanging out at the apartment planning their new year's celebration. "I can't believe Missy's at NYU. She sent mom and dad her report card last week. Made the Dean's list and everything." Cory said. "Yeah, I can't believe Dad didn't go to get her when he found out where she is." Eric said. "I don't think he really would have been able to drag her back." Topanga said.
"Yeah, New York is a big place. She can definately keep hidden if she wants to." Jack said. Shawn sat quietly on the couch next to Angela. They had been going out for almost four months now. "What's wrong?" Angela asked touching Shawn's hand. "Nothing." Shawn said pulling his hand away.
He couldn't believe he was still with Angela. The first relationship after he pointed out to Missy that he's never been in a relationship longer that two weeks was now on it's fourth month.
He didn't know why he was with Angela though. Probably some desperate pathetic attempt to forget about Missy. He hasn't talked to her since she left. Angela was about to say something when Cory's cell phone rang. Cory was about to answer it but Shawn leaped off the couch and grabbed it. He glanced at the caller id. It was her! He didn't want everyone to hear how desperate he was so he ran out of the apartment. Cory looked at him in shock but didn't bother to try to get his phone back.
"Hey." Shawn said trying to sound calm when he answered the phone. There was silence on the other end of the phone. "Hello?" Shawn said. He heard her breathe deeply. "Shawn?" She asked. "Yeah." Shawn said. "Ooh, is Cory there?" She asked. "Yeah, he is... I just...how come you never return my calls?" he asked. "I... I couldn't." She said so softly that Shawn could barely hear her. "You couldn't?" He asked sadly. "Shawn, please... just let me talk to Cory." She said, still speaking softly. "Not til you answer my question." He said. "I can't do this right now, Shawn."She said.
"Do what? All I'm asking is why in the past six months you couldn't once call me? Let your best friend know that you're still alive. Not dead in some alley. That you're doing alright, not starving to death... all the stuff that's been running through my mind the past 6 months!" Shawn yelled into the phone. Missy was silent for a minute. He could hear her breathing softly. "Tell Cory I'll call him later." Missy said and she hung up.
Shawn sighed and leaned against the door. Why was this so hard? Why was she being so difficult? He use to think that he knew everything about her. Now he wasn't sure. She wasn't acting like the girl that he grew up with. 'Maybe cuz she's not a little girl anymore' he thought. He sighed and entered the apartment.
Everyone looked at Shawn when he entered the apartment. None of them wanting to say anything but all of them wanting to know what happened. Shawn tossed the phone to Cory. "She said she'll call you later." He said. Shawn started to walk up the stairs. "What'd she say?" Eric asked. Shawn shrugged. "Nothing really." He said. "Where are you going?" Angela asked. "To my room." Shawn said.
"Wait!" Angela said. Shawn stopped in the doorway to his room and looked at her. Angela climbed the stairs and now stood in front of Shawn. "What's wrong with you?" Angela asked. "Nothing." He said calmly. "Shawn, don't lie. You have to stop this. You can't go on moping whenever someone mentions her name. You can't keep pushing me away. it's not fair." Angela said. Shawn thoughtfully chewed on his bottom lip searching for the words to say.
"You don't understand." Shawn said softly. "Of course I don't understand! You never take the time to explain it to me, Shawn. I'm not going to wait forever. I'm not going to stick around if I'm always going to be second best to some little brat that thought her life was too hard and left all of her friends moping over her! How can you care so much for someone who won't even talk to you?" Angela yelled.
"Can we do this later?" Shawn asked glancing at everyone watching their fight. "No, Shawn, we can't do this later! This is it! Who do you care about more? Me or her?" Angela asked. Shawn was silent for a minute. Everyone was watching him with wide eyes. He looked at Angela and could see in her eyes that she was praying that he would say that he loved her more than Missy. He couldn't lie anymore. "Her... always her..." Shawn said before closing his bedroom door.