my useless ramblings – I upped the rating for the story just to be safe. Im not completely sure, but the reference to blood I don't think is pg? Eh, I dunno. Anyways… I hope everyone who celebrates had a good fourth, I proved once again, I like burning myself. I dropped a punk on my chest! x( TsukasaSIGN – lol,yeah… apparently Beast Boy can read! Underworld Ruler 0507 - Aw, it's okay, all of us have our moods. I'm glad you liked the chapter. Flying Star – You said a mouthful. "To love, could mean death to her friends." I'm glad you liked! :)
disclaimer – in my mind the teen titans are my best friends. But this is real life, they don't know me, but they know they don't belong to me.
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Not Unless You're Meso freely a soul should fly
up into the heaven's it will soar
as I let out an unemotional sigh
and the monster inside me starts to roar
emotions that are forbidden to be known
a cold and icy place that is inside my own head
that makes me always feel so constantly alone
as the liquid of life slowly turns red
a new love full of mystery
a new way that I need to see
a new person that I need to be
a reason for a new me
"Huh? What is this book?" Beast Boy said after reading the poem. He shuffled ahead a couple of pages and saw a date written in the corner of a page. He started reading again.
"This is Raven's diary!" he exclaimed. Now was his chance to find out what Raven mean about that comment she said earlier. Trouble was, what was it!?
October 29,
The equinox is growing closer. I know it because my dream is getting longer and more detailed. As disgusting as it is, I can't help but feel that maybe it is right. If I was ever to admit that maybe… perhaps… possibly… I do have feelings for him, things would go completely haywire. I would lost control of my powers, and could destroy everything in a matter of minutes.
Except on the day of the equinox. I haven't figured out why yet, but on that day, I will lost my powers. For how long, I am not sure, a couple of seconds, possibly even a couple days if the effects linger. What purpose this serves, I have yet to figure out.
I do believe the other titans have figured out that something is going to happen. Except maybe Beast Boy, he lacks a brain big enough to compute such information. Robin of all people should know what is about to happen.
My dream may be telling me to do something about 'him'. On that day, I would not have to worry about destroying him, or the rest of the world. But the problem all lies within him melting.
"Melting? Like in my dream?" Beast Boy pondered out loud.
Because I do not know how long my power failure will last, I cannot be certain I could do anything. And besides, I would have to live with the consequences of my actions. Who knows how he would feel about me afterwards? I do not wish to make a fool out of myself.
The entry ended there. Beast Boy flipped back some pages looking for an entry about her dream, but found no more details about it. All he found was more dark poetry like the first one that he had read.
Another question arose. What the heck was the equinox?
Footsteps were heard coming towards the living room. Beast Boy panicked and threw the book across the room and tried to put on an innocent face as Raven walked out.
Raven wondered why Beast Boy had such a blank expression on his face as he stared out the window. Maybe his tiny brain had finally imploded on itself. She noticed where he was sitting, and saw her book was gone. Anger rose within her, but she suppressed.
"Beast Boy, where is my book?"
"Uh… what book?"
"The book you should not have been reading."
"Heh heh, what kind of person reads anyways?"
She spotted her book across the room in the corner she had been earlier. She suddenly felt a wave of guilt throughout for having blamed Beast Boy for reading her personal thoughts. She said nothing about it though, and she walked over and got it. As she bent down and picked it up, Beast Boy noticed how slender her figure was, and how pretty she looked in the morning. He slapped himself at the thought and went back to staring into space before finally speaking.
"Raven, if someone likes someone, they should do something about it. Not just sit back and watch from a distance."
"That's very noble of you.
She started to walk out of the room.
"If they're really you're friend, they'll understand you know."
"What are you getting at, Beast Boy?"
Beast Boy realized he had hit a nerve. He continued pounding the little defenseless nerve. Defenseless? Yeah right, this nerve was attached to Raven, who could easily kill him in two seconds flat.
"Oh, you know. You just never know what might happen right?"
For a brief moment, Beast Boy thought he saw a look of sadness pass through Raven's eyes, but it was covered up quickly by her almost expression appearance.
"Not unless you're me."
She walked out of the room and a few minutes later a door was heard slamming. Beast Boy sighed and brought his feet into his lap. Something about Raven had always intrigued him, almost into the point of liking her as more than a friend. He secretly hoped Raven felt the same way, but he didn't know for sure. Who was 'him'?
He was just about to start making his breakfast consisting of tofu, when a monitor started blaring in front of him. He rushed to the scene and was soon joined by Cyborg, Robin and Starfire. Raven ran in shortly after, but Beast Boy noticed something different about her. What he wasn't sure, but he knew that it wasn't a good thing.
"Teen Titans, GO!" Robin shouted.
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Hm, what's different about her? Was this an okay chapter? Well, you know the drill. Please R&R because you love me so much, right? Right?
Watches tumble weed roll by.
Right?