I was listening to Yellowcard's "Only One" and it gave me the idea of this chapter. Hope you enjoy it.
Special thanks to JillValentine44 for all the great reviews.
CHAPTER 4: Internal Conflict of the Heart
Jack woke the next morning and instinctively reached for Connor. When he felt only an empty bed he began to panic. But his panic quickly turned into anger as he began to remember the night before. He threw on his clothes in anger and hurried downstairs for breakfast.
He entered the dining room to find Will and Elizabeth quietly eating. They looked up at Jack when he entered the room before continuing to eat. Jack took his seat and filled his plate.
"The Pearl'll be heading out today." Will and Elizabeth didn't answer. "Look, I know you guys are upset about having to stay here, but that's for the best. Ye have to think about," He hesitated before continuing, "Nicole."
Will's head shot up, "We aren't upset about that Jack. We understand that it's for the best. We're upset about you and Connor. Jack, we worked so hard to make sure you two ended up together. You are supposed to be together forever. But Connor came down here this morning in tears, said it was over, and left. Now what we want to know is, what happened?"
Jack sighed deeply, pushing his plate away from him before answering. "I don't see why she was in tears. She should be happy, I'm letting her go, letting her get rid of all her regrets."
"Regrets? What are you talking about Jack? What happened?" Elizabeth asked.
"Last night, after you excused yourselves I suggested to Connor that we also head to bed. She told me she would be there soon, that she had something to do. Yeah, she had something to do all right. I came back down here looking for her about ten minutes later and found her and Norrington kissing. I heard Norrington say that he couldn't let it go any farther, he couldn't let her break her wedding vows. She answered him, she said that she was beginning to regret her wedding vows.
"I took my ring back from her and told her it was over. So I don't see why she was crying over anything."
"Jack, did she tell you why she did it? Maybe there is a logical explanation." Elizabeth suggested.
"I heard her say she regretted marrying me Liz! I don't need an explanation to why she felt it necessary to be the first woman to hurt me like this."
"Jack you have to be the stupidest idiot in the world!" Elizabeth yelled. "She told us what really happened. Jack, Norrington was talking about killing you if he ever saw you outside of Port Royal. She thought that if she led him on, made him want her, then he would do anything to get her. Include stay away from you if she said so."
Jack's eyes widened at her words and he sat in silence for a minute. "It doesn't matter. She shouldn't have done that. She knows that I can take care of Norrington, she knows that he would never get me. All she had to do was tell me what he had said."
"Jack, she wants to protect you. She feels that she should, since you are her husband."
"Was her husband." But his words were unsure and hollow. Inside, Jack began to have doubts about his actions. He wanted to forgive her, to wake up in the morning with her in his arms. He had grown accustomed to her being the first thing he saw in the morning, and didn't want that to change.
But his pride was still ever present. Not allowing him to admit that he might have over reacted or been to rash. It would not let him say he was wrong. The great Captain Jack Sparrow was never wrong.
"Excuse me." He left the house and made his way back to the Pearl, where he found the crew somberly working on the deck. He ignored their stares and walked into his cabin.
The room was missing some items, he noticed immediately. All of Connor's belongings were gone. Her clothes, her jewelry, all of it. He searched the room, looking for anything that was her's.
The door opened and he spun around, ready to ask all the questions that were on his mind. But all of those questions flew out the window when he saw Connor standing in front of the door. She looked away from him and walked over to Jack's desk. He stood silently watching her, daring himself to say something.
Connor grabbed her hairbrush off the desk and turned to look at Jack. Neither moved for a period of time, nor did either one say anything. Connor began to walk back toward the door and reached out for the doorknob.
"I talked to Will and Elizabeth this morning." Jack spoke. Connor dropped her hand down to her side and turned to face Jack. "They told me what to say. Ye should have just come and told me. You shouldn't have done what you did, no matter the reason. You know I could have avoided him, you know I can beat Norrington"
"Jack I don't want to talk about this okay. I don't want to talk to you at all. I can't." Connor whispered. She turned back to the door, but a hand slammed against it, preventing her from opening it.
"Tough Miss Valentine, cause we need to."
"Jack, I know what I did. I hate myself at the moment and would rather just be alone to think about how stupid I was. I can't talk to you right now." She continued to face the door.
"You should have trusted me. Do you have any idea how much it hurt to hear you say that, to see you with him. If I had known what you were going to do I wouldn't be upset at all."
"I should have trusted you!" She turned to face him, fire in her eyes. "You should have trusted me! Jack do you honestly think that I tortured myself for three years just to ruin my happiness six months later! If you think that that is true, then you are certainly way drunker than anyone thinks. Face it Jack, the only thing you ever really loved, the only thing you ever really trusted is this damn ship and that damn rum! I was never on that list! You were always looking for something to pin on me, to make me look like the bad guy! Well, you finally found something, congratulations Jack. But in all honesty, I am not the bad guy, you are!" Connor screamed as loud as she could. She visibly shook with her anger.
"I am! How dare you, you little. . .whore! Look what you did, did I ever once even pretend to be unfaithful to you! No, which I am certain now was a mistake." Jack yelled back in her face.
"Oh please. I wasn't with you for a few nights in a port. I was only with you during the day, so how do I know you were faithful. I'm absolutely sure that you were with a whore! And if I ever see you after this, if you ever cross paths with me again, I will not hesitant to kill your sorry ass! I'd be doing the world a huge favor getting rid you. You egotistical, pompous, alcoholic, jack-ass. You deserve nothing that you have, not the Pearl, not your crew, not even the friendship of Will and Elizabeth!" Connor yelled. She turned back to the door and ran out of the room.
"You little slut!" Jack yelled after her. The crew turned from Connor to Jack. "What ye fools looking at, getting us out of here, we're heading back to Atlantis!" Jack ordered, disappearing back into the cabin.
He tripped over something on the floor and looked down to find Connor's hairbrush. She had dropped it when she was yelling at him. He picked it up and threw it at the door before collapsing on the bed, head in hands.
The feelings of forgiving her had disappeared when she had said the things she said. If she really thought that, then there is no reason to try to save what they had.
Gibbs walked down into the cabin that was Will and Elizabeth's, where Connor had moved to. He was concerned about her, especially when she didn't show for dinner. He found her sitting on the bed, clutching a pillow to her chest, tears sliding down her face.
"Mistress Sparrow." Gibbs whispered.
"I know you al heard the argument earlier Gibbs, you know that I am not Mistress Sparrow any longer." She said between sobs.
"Connor, are ye all right?"
"No, I'm not. How did it come to this Gibbs? How did everything become so screwed up? I don't like this Gibbs. I have lost Jack, Tyler has been taken. I am not changing my life for the better. It was supposed to improve with Jack, instead it has gotten worse. I was not hurting this much when I was with Nate."
Gibbs took the crying girl in his arms and held her. He had begun to the think of Connor as a daughter, believing that she was a woman of good luck. "What happened?"
Connor told Gibbs of the situation and continued to cry in his arms until she fell asleep. Gibbs laid her in bed and tucked her in. He walked out onto the deck and found Jack at the helm.
"Jack Sparrow, please tell me that you are not going to let her leave. I have never seen you so happy and I hate to think of my Captain becoming like Barbossa."
"Gibbs, I assure you that I will never be like Barbossa. But she has made her choice, you heard what she called me." Jack said, his voice lack of any emotion. He continued to stare out at the sea.
"Aye, I also know that she didn't mean any of it. I know that that woman just broke down and cry, something I have never even heard of. I know that that woman just cried herself asleep in my arms, crying over you."
Jack's hear wretched and he turned to face Gibbs, his face soft. "Gibbs, stay out of this, it is not your marriage."
"Sorry Captain." Gibbs replied, walking back to the the galley. He picked up a tray of food and took it to her cabin, setting it down on the desk and waking her.
"Connor, lass. I brought you some dinner, you need to eat."
"Thank you Gibbs." He nodded and made his way to the door. "I will miss you." He heard Connor say.
"I will miss ye too lass."
He walked back onto the deck and found Jack walking toward him. "There be a storm coming Gibbs, prepare the ship. It's going to be a good one."
"Yes Captain, do you want me to go tell Connor."
"No, she should stay down there. I don't think that she is in any emotional state to be up here, who knows what she could do to me."
"Aye Captain." Gibbs said, walking off.
"And she's to upset to be up here, I want her safe." Jack added under his breath. He looked toward the cabin she was in and stared at the door. The distant clap of thunder brought him back to reality and he made his way back to the helm.
I feel really bad for both Jack and Connor. I wonder if the marriage will be saved. Anyway, please Read And Review.
Special thanks to JillValentine44 for all the great reviews.
CHAPTER 4: Internal Conflict of the Heart
Jack woke the next morning and instinctively reached for Connor. When he felt only an empty bed he began to panic. But his panic quickly turned into anger as he began to remember the night before. He threw on his clothes in anger and hurried downstairs for breakfast.
He entered the dining room to find Will and Elizabeth quietly eating. They looked up at Jack when he entered the room before continuing to eat. Jack took his seat and filled his plate.
"The Pearl'll be heading out today." Will and Elizabeth didn't answer. "Look, I know you guys are upset about having to stay here, but that's for the best. Ye have to think about," He hesitated before continuing, "Nicole."
Will's head shot up, "We aren't upset about that Jack. We understand that it's for the best. We're upset about you and Connor. Jack, we worked so hard to make sure you two ended up together. You are supposed to be together forever. But Connor came down here this morning in tears, said it was over, and left. Now what we want to know is, what happened?"
Jack sighed deeply, pushing his plate away from him before answering. "I don't see why she was in tears. She should be happy, I'm letting her go, letting her get rid of all her regrets."
"Regrets? What are you talking about Jack? What happened?" Elizabeth asked.
"Last night, after you excused yourselves I suggested to Connor that we also head to bed. She told me she would be there soon, that she had something to do. Yeah, she had something to do all right. I came back down here looking for her about ten minutes later and found her and Norrington kissing. I heard Norrington say that he couldn't let it go any farther, he couldn't let her break her wedding vows. She answered him, she said that she was beginning to regret her wedding vows.
"I took my ring back from her and told her it was over. So I don't see why she was crying over anything."
"Jack, did she tell you why she did it? Maybe there is a logical explanation." Elizabeth suggested.
"I heard her say she regretted marrying me Liz! I don't need an explanation to why she felt it necessary to be the first woman to hurt me like this."
"Jack you have to be the stupidest idiot in the world!" Elizabeth yelled. "She told us what really happened. Jack, Norrington was talking about killing you if he ever saw you outside of Port Royal. She thought that if she led him on, made him want her, then he would do anything to get her. Include stay away from you if she said so."
Jack's eyes widened at her words and he sat in silence for a minute. "It doesn't matter. She shouldn't have done that. She knows that I can take care of Norrington, she knows that he would never get me. All she had to do was tell me what he had said."
"Jack, she wants to protect you. She feels that she should, since you are her husband."
"Was her husband." But his words were unsure and hollow. Inside, Jack began to have doubts about his actions. He wanted to forgive her, to wake up in the morning with her in his arms. He had grown accustomed to her being the first thing he saw in the morning, and didn't want that to change.
But his pride was still ever present. Not allowing him to admit that he might have over reacted or been to rash. It would not let him say he was wrong. The great Captain Jack Sparrow was never wrong.
"Excuse me." He left the house and made his way back to the Pearl, where he found the crew somberly working on the deck. He ignored their stares and walked into his cabin.
The room was missing some items, he noticed immediately. All of Connor's belongings were gone. Her clothes, her jewelry, all of it. He searched the room, looking for anything that was her's.
The door opened and he spun around, ready to ask all the questions that were on his mind. But all of those questions flew out the window when he saw Connor standing in front of the door. She looked away from him and walked over to Jack's desk. He stood silently watching her, daring himself to say something.
Connor grabbed her hairbrush off the desk and turned to look at Jack. Neither moved for a period of time, nor did either one say anything. Connor began to walk back toward the door and reached out for the doorknob.
"I talked to Will and Elizabeth this morning." Jack spoke. Connor dropped her hand down to her side and turned to face Jack. "They told me what to say. Ye should have just come and told me. You shouldn't have done what you did, no matter the reason. You know I could have avoided him, you know I can beat Norrington"
"Jack I don't want to talk about this okay. I don't want to talk to you at all. I can't." Connor whispered. She turned back to the door, but a hand slammed against it, preventing her from opening it.
"Tough Miss Valentine, cause we need to."
"Jack, I know what I did. I hate myself at the moment and would rather just be alone to think about how stupid I was. I can't talk to you right now." She continued to face the door.
"You should have trusted me. Do you have any idea how much it hurt to hear you say that, to see you with him. If I had known what you were going to do I wouldn't be upset at all."
"I should have trusted you!" She turned to face him, fire in her eyes. "You should have trusted me! Jack do you honestly think that I tortured myself for three years just to ruin my happiness six months later! If you think that that is true, then you are certainly way drunker than anyone thinks. Face it Jack, the only thing you ever really loved, the only thing you ever really trusted is this damn ship and that damn rum! I was never on that list! You were always looking for something to pin on me, to make me look like the bad guy! Well, you finally found something, congratulations Jack. But in all honesty, I am not the bad guy, you are!" Connor screamed as loud as she could. She visibly shook with her anger.
"I am! How dare you, you little. . .whore! Look what you did, did I ever once even pretend to be unfaithful to you! No, which I am certain now was a mistake." Jack yelled back in her face.
"Oh please. I wasn't with you for a few nights in a port. I was only with you during the day, so how do I know you were faithful. I'm absolutely sure that you were with a whore! And if I ever see you after this, if you ever cross paths with me again, I will not hesitant to kill your sorry ass! I'd be doing the world a huge favor getting rid you. You egotistical, pompous, alcoholic, jack-ass. You deserve nothing that you have, not the Pearl, not your crew, not even the friendship of Will and Elizabeth!" Connor yelled. She turned back to the door and ran out of the room.
"You little slut!" Jack yelled after her. The crew turned from Connor to Jack. "What ye fools looking at, getting us out of here, we're heading back to Atlantis!" Jack ordered, disappearing back into the cabin.
He tripped over something on the floor and looked down to find Connor's hairbrush. She had dropped it when she was yelling at him. He picked it up and threw it at the door before collapsing on the bed, head in hands.
The feelings of forgiving her had disappeared when she had said the things she said. If she really thought that, then there is no reason to try to save what they had.
Gibbs walked down into the cabin that was Will and Elizabeth's, where Connor had moved to. He was concerned about her, especially when she didn't show for dinner. He found her sitting on the bed, clutching a pillow to her chest, tears sliding down her face.
"Mistress Sparrow." Gibbs whispered.
"I know you al heard the argument earlier Gibbs, you know that I am not Mistress Sparrow any longer." She said between sobs.
"Connor, are ye all right?"
"No, I'm not. How did it come to this Gibbs? How did everything become so screwed up? I don't like this Gibbs. I have lost Jack, Tyler has been taken. I am not changing my life for the better. It was supposed to improve with Jack, instead it has gotten worse. I was not hurting this much when I was with Nate."
Gibbs took the crying girl in his arms and held her. He had begun to the think of Connor as a daughter, believing that she was a woman of good luck. "What happened?"
Connor told Gibbs of the situation and continued to cry in his arms until she fell asleep. Gibbs laid her in bed and tucked her in. He walked out onto the deck and found Jack at the helm.
"Jack Sparrow, please tell me that you are not going to let her leave. I have never seen you so happy and I hate to think of my Captain becoming like Barbossa."
"Gibbs, I assure you that I will never be like Barbossa. But she has made her choice, you heard what she called me." Jack said, his voice lack of any emotion. He continued to stare out at the sea.
"Aye, I also know that she didn't mean any of it. I know that that woman just broke down and cry, something I have never even heard of. I know that that woman just cried herself asleep in my arms, crying over you."
Jack's hear wretched and he turned to face Gibbs, his face soft. "Gibbs, stay out of this, it is not your marriage."
"Sorry Captain." Gibbs replied, walking back to the the galley. He picked up a tray of food and took it to her cabin, setting it down on the desk and waking her.
"Connor, lass. I brought you some dinner, you need to eat."
"Thank you Gibbs." He nodded and made his way to the door. "I will miss you." He heard Connor say.
"I will miss ye too lass."
He walked back onto the deck and found Jack walking toward him. "There be a storm coming Gibbs, prepare the ship. It's going to be a good one."
"Yes Captain, do you want me to go tell Connor."
"No, she should stay down there. I don't think that she is in any emotional state to be up here, who knows what she could do to me."
"Aye Captain." Gibbs said, walking off.
"And she's to upset to be up here, I want her safe." Jack added under his breath. He looked toward the cabin she was in and stared at the door. The distant clap of thunder brought him back to reality and he made his way back to the helm.
I feel really bad for both Jack and Connor. I wonder if the marriage will be saved. Anyway, please Read And Review.