Disclaimers: Uh, I don't own anything Yu Yu Hakusho. If I did, the point of FAN fiction would be... vanity. I try not to have a negative self-image, yes, but I'm nothing near vain. Sorry.
Summary: If you hold on to a butterfly, it can die right there in your hands. You'll never get happy that way, loosen your grip and un-blur your eyes... you'll see the horizon eventually. Slash (Kurama/Hiei, Yusuke/Jin, Kuwabara/Yukina) please read, please review, thank you.
Warnings: Some stuff that could be considered violence, slash (as in, male/male relationships) and spoilers for anyone who hasn't seen up to the beginning of the Gateway (a. k. a. The Chapter Black) Saga. If anything in that list bothers you or whatever, then I don't recommend this fic to you.
HaPpYnEsS
By ShIoN
ChApTeR oNe
OfF tHe EdGe
===H4993===
"Hey, Kurama." The black haired detective caught up to the red head. Green eyes looked at the brown, curiosity evident.
"Yes?" The red head questioned, calm smile light on his lips.
"I just saw Hiei go by." Yusuke said, worriedly. His brown eyes shifted to the trees on the other side of the road. "He looked... sick."
"Oh? Why do you say that?" Kurama questioned, head tipping slightly.
"He just looked bad, okay? Why don't you hurry home? I'm pretty sure he was going there." Yusuke patted Kurama's back as he headed off.
"Yusuke... I know you're still hurting from her..." Kurama looked at his shoes as he said the quiet words.
"Like hell. But I'll deal. Now hurry up!" Yusuke smirked.
"Right." Kurama hit into a run as he hurried home. Yusuke sighed, turning to head to his own home. There was a warm wind, stopping the detective where he stood to look around.
"Howdy." A familiar voice chuckled. A ruffled red head of hair with a smiling face and quite the handsome body appeared before the detective.
"Hey there Jin! Get lost in Reikai or what?" Yusuke grinned.
"Just came by to say h'lo. Heard yer girly friend died, too, too bad really... came to see how ya were doin'." Jin nodded. A small white horn could be seen on his head.
"Yeah. Keiko got a nasty human disease called cancer, she didn't make it." Yusuke looked solemn as he glanced off to the side, not really wanting to focus on anyone as he said these words.
"Ah... now that is too bad. Bein' beaten by somethin' you can't even fight 'cause it's already inside a ya." Jin shook his head, folding his arms. He wore human clothes, Yusuke's green coat and a white tank top, some jeans he borrowed from Yusuke and tennis shoes, also Yusuke's. It seems he had raided Yusuke's closet before heading off to find the boy.
"Yeah." Yusuke said plainly. Jin leaned in closer to look at the brown eyes. His own blues glitter faintly as Yusuke looked into them. He hopped back. "What are you doing in my clothes?" Yusuke questioned, realizing the dress looked familiar.
"Eh, thought I'd fit me part. Koenma's asked a little favor, see? Says he wants me to look after ya, and I say woo and wee! I been missing ya you see?" Jin grinned.
"I see. So I guess we should take you shopping." Yusuke shrugged. "I know a good store for clothes, in the mall..."
"Yeah, that'd be good. I guess I don't look so great in your clothes, eh?" Jin looked at his outfit. Yusuke gave a nod before they set off to the mall.
"So how's it been since she... well ya know..." Jin asked, looking at a pair of black pants.
"Okay. Not half as many people bug me anymore. Kuwabara's had himself quiet for awhile, that's quite the change. But it's not like I'm done with school yet, so solid basing of what's to come is way out of here." Yusuke half- sighed before catching himself. He looked at what Jin was examining and blinked. "Into the punk look?" He asked.
"Now don't go usin' any fancy words on me Urameshi." Jin waved a finger quickly before picking out an outfit. He began to undress right there, but Yusuke shoved him into the changing room. "Now what'chya pushing me around for Urameshi?" Jin questioned, changing.
"Most humans change in these little rooms rather than flash half the store." Yusuke explained. Jin blinked, obviously not so sure what one would care not to show.
"But what's so wrong about changin'? I changed right there in your room when I be changin' the first time." Jin recalled.
"Well... that's different..." Yusuke shrugged. "That's just my room."
"So... you're room is not a bad place? I don't understand these humans..." Jin shook his head. Yusuke looked at the ceiling.
===H4993===
"Botan, what's your report?" The toddler-fied ruler asked. The blue haired girl sighed, wiping her eyes as she took in a steady breath.
"Keiko has gone to her place without any trouble. How is Yusuke handling?" The pink kimono sleeves had water stains from her tears, but her face had cleared up now.
"He seems okay on the surface, surprisingly enough. I had Jin check up on him and they're currently shopping. It seems he's in something of a mild funk." The brown-eyed brown haired toddler sighed, leaning back in his large chair.
"A... And the others?" The large pink eyes looked questioning.
"Kurama has just gone to see Hiei. Kuwabara is still in his room and Shizuru is brewing coffee while having a cigarette. Yukina is on her way from the ice world to visit and bid her blessings to Keiko." Koenma explained.
"I see." Botan sighed.
===H4993===
"Okasan, I'm home." The red head said calmly as he entered the house.
"Oh Suuichi, good. I need to go to the market." The woman gave a kind smile, coming to greet him at the door. He removed his shoes, setting down his bag.
"Alright. Go ahead and take your time, I have quite a bit of school work to do." The green eyes closed as he smiled and kissed the woman's cheek. She gave a giggle and put on her jacket, slipping on her shoes.
"Dinner's in the oven if you get hungry. I should be home by nine. Good luck on your studies." She gave another smile before heading out. The red head sighed and went upstairs to his room. He closed the wood door and flicked on the light. The black haired fire demon sat on the futon bed.
"Hello Hiei. What do I owe the pleasure?" Kurama smiled, sitting down next to the other.
"I wanted your... opinion on something." Red eyes flashed around the room, then settled on the green orbs.
"What might that be?" The red head looked curiously back into the red eyes.
"Death. I realize how quickly death comes. A week ago, nothing was wrong with her, now she's gone. Could that happen... I mean to..." Red eyes looked solid on the surface, but lost and confused deeper down, Kurama noticed.
"You mean, could what happened to Keiko happen to Yukina? Yes, it's possible. Keiko had a disease called heart cancer, which is odd considering she's fairly healthy and young. But it can happen, especially with heredity cancer connections." Kurama explained. "It's not likely Yukina will get the same thing, but something similar... well, it's possible."
Hiei was quiet for a moment. "Do you have a sibling?" He asked eventually, making Kurama blink.
"Well... no. Not directly." Kurama closed his eyes for a minute. "Hiei, I know you've been thinking about telling her for awhile. Your mind brought up the idea that maybe she didn't care that you were a criminal. To be honest, I don't think she would. You're also correct that she would be happier when she dies to know who her brother is, than to die not knowing."
There was another silence. Kurama lay down on the bed, and was surprised when Hiei lay next to him, not saying anything. He looked much cuter now, Kurama noted, that he was over thinking everything.
"I want her to not know. But then again... maybe she should." Hiei let out a small sigh. 'Why do I care now?' Hiei thought to himself, not wanting to allure attention from the other.
"Maybe." Kurama said simply.
"Do you know what Kuwabara has done since she died? He sits in his room and stares blankly at the walls, like they can resurrect the fallen." Hiei looked frustrated, remembering the image. Emerald eyes blinked.
"I believe Kuwabara has been given clarity of the death situation. He doesn't remember how to handle delicate things well." Kurama sighed.
"Neither do I." Hiei closed his red eyes. Kurama blinked once more, his hand softly brushing against Hiei's.
"I hate it when you lie, you know. Yet, when you tell the truth I feel like you've gone cold." The fox closed his own eyes now, listening to any noise coming from the other.
"Hell's happiness comes from Heaven's fear. At least, that's what they say." Hiei breathed. The fox's hand wrapped around the small demon's.
===H4993===
"Welcome to the human world Yukina-chan." Botan smiled to her.
"Thank you for meeting me here Botan. I didn't want to get too horribly lost." The ice demon gave a small smile. "I wanted to see Kazuma and Yusuke as soon as possible."
"Yes. I think Kuwabara should be first then, Yusuke was last seen at the mall." The blue haired girl smiled.
===EnD===
Thank you for reading chapter one. Just so you know, this was originally how long it was gonna be, but I was persuaded to make this a more detailed story. Please review, your opinions are much better than mine are. : P
Summary: If you hold on to a butterfly, it can die right there in your hands. You'll never get happy that way, loosen your grip and un-blur your eyes... you'll see the horizon eventually. Slash (Kurama/Hiei, Yusuke/Jin, Kuwabara/Yukina) please read, please review, thank you.
Warnings: Some stuff that could be considered violence, slash (as in, male/male relationships) and spoilers for anyone who hasn't seen up to the beginning of the Gateway (a. k. a. The Chapter Black) Saga. If anything in that list bothers you or whatever, then I don't recommend this fic to you.
HaPpYnEsS
By ShIoN
ChApTeR oNe
OfF tHe EdGe
===H4993===
"Hey, Kurama." The black haired detective caught up to the red head. Green eyes looked at the brown, curiosity evident.
"Yes?" The red head questioned, calm smile light on his lips.
"I just saw Hiei go by." Yusuke said, worriedly. His brown eyes shifted to the trees on the other side of the road. "He looked... sick."
"Oh? Why do you say that?" Kurama questioned, head tipping slightly.
"He just looked bad, okay? Why don't you hurry home? I'm pretty sure he was going there." Yusuke patted Kurama's back as he headed off.
"Yusuke... I know you're still hurting from her..." Kurama looked at his shoes as he said the quiet words.
"Like hell. But I'll deal. Now hurry up!" Yusuke smirked.
"Right." Kurama hit into a run as he hurried home. Yusuke sighed, turning to head to his own home. There was a warm wind, stopping the detective where he stood to look around.
"Howdy." A familiar voice chuckled. A ruffled red head of hair with a smiling face and quite the handsome body appeared before the detective.
"Hey there Jin! Get lost in Reikai or what?" Yusuke grinned.
"Just came by to say h'lo. Heard yer girly friend died, too, too bad really... came to see how ya were doin'." Jin nodded. A small white horn could be seen on his head.
"Yeah. Keiko got a nasty human disease called cancer, she didn't make it." Yusuke looked solemn as he glanced off to the side, not really wanting to focus on anyone as he said these words.
"Ah... now that is too bad. Bein' beaten by somethin' you can't even fight 'cause it's already inside a ya." Jin shook his head, folding his arms. He wore human clothes, Yusuke's green coat and a white tank top, some jeans he borrowed from Yusuke and tennis shoes, also Yusuke's. It seems he had raided Yusuke's closet before heading off to find the boy.
"Yeah." Yusuke said plainly. Jin leaned in closer to look at the brown eyes. His own blues glitter faintly as Yusuke looked into them. He hopped back. "What are you doing in my clothes?" Yusuke questioned, realizing the dress looked familiar.
"Eh, thought I'd fit me part. Koenma's asked a little favor, see? Says he wants me to look after ya, and I say woo and wee! I been missing ya you see?" Jin grinned.
"I see. So I guess we should take you shopping." Yusuke shrugged. "I know a good store for clothes, in the mall..."
"Yeah, that'd be good. I guess I don't look so great in your clothes, eh?" Jin looked at his outfit. Yusuke gave a nod before they set off to the mall.
"So how's it been since she... well ya know..." Jin asked, looking at a pair of black pants.
"Okay. Not half as many people bug me anymore. Kuwabara's had himself quiet for awhile, that's quite the change. But it's not like I'm done with school yet, so solid basing of what's to come is way out of here." Yusuke half- sighed before catching himself. He looked at what Jin was examining and blinked. "Into the punk look?" He asked.
"Now don't go usin' any fancy words on me Urameshi." Jin waved a finger quickly before picking out an outfit. He began to undress right there, but Yusuke shoved him into the changing room. "Now what'chya pushing me around for Urameshi?" Jin questioned, changing.
"Most humans change in these little rooms rather than flash half the store." Yusuke explained. Jin blinked, obviously not so sure what one would care not to show.
"But what's so wrong about changin'? I changed right there in your room when I be changin' the first time." Jin recalled.
"Well... that's different..." Yusuke shrugged. "That's just my room."
"So... you're room is not a bad place? I don't understand these humans..." Jin shook his head. Yusuke looked at the ceiling.
===H4993===
"Botan, what's your report?" The toddler-fied ruler asked. The blue haired girl sighed, wiping her eyes as she took in a steady breath.
"Keiko has gone to her place without any trouble. How is Yusuke handling?" The pink kimono sleeves had water stains from her tears, but her face had cleared up now.
"He seems okay on the surface, surprisingly enough. I had Jin check up on him and they're currently shopping. It seems he's in something of a mild funk." The brown-eyed brown haired toddler sighed, leaning back in his large chair.
"A... And the others?" The large pink eyes looked questioning.
"Kurama has just gone to see Hiei. Kuwabara is still in his room and Shizuru is brewing coffee while having a cigarette. Yukina is on her way from the ice world to visit and bid her blessings to Keiko." Koenma explained.
"I see." Botan sighed.
===H4993===
"Okasan, I'm home." The red head said calmly as he entered the house.
"Oh Suuichi, good. I need to go to the market." The woman gave a kind smile, coming to greet him at the door. He removed his shoes, setting down his bag.
"Alright. Go ahead and take your time, I have quite a bit of school work to do." The green eyes closed as he smiled and kissed the woman's cheek. She gave a giggle and put on her jacket, slipping on her shoes.
"Dinner's in the oven if you get hungry. I should be home by nine. Good luck on your studies." She gave another smile before heading out. The red head sighed and went upstairs to his room. He closed the wood door and flicked on the light. The black haired fire demon sat on the futon bed.
"Hello Hiei. What do I owe the pleasure?" Kurama smiled, sitting down next to the other.
"I wanted your... opinion on something." Red eyes flashed around the room, then settled on the green orbs.
"What might that be?" The red head looked curiously back into the red eyes.
"Death. I realize how quickly death comes. A week ago, nothing was wrong with her, now she's gone. Could that happen... I mean to..." Red eyes looked solid on the surface, but lost and confused deeper down, Kurama noticed.
"You mean, could what happened to Keiko happen to Yukina? Yes, it's possible. Keiko had a disease called heart cancer, which is odd considering she's fairly healthy and young. But it can happen, especially with heredity cancer connections." Kurama explained. "It's not likely Yukina will get the same thing, but something similar... well, it's possible."
Hiei was quiet for a moment. "Do you have a sibling?" He asked eventually, making Kurama blink.
"Well... no. Not directly." Kurama closed his eyes for a minute. "Hiei, I know you've been thinking about telling her for awhile. Your mind brought up the idea that maybe she didn't care that you were a criminal. To be honest, I don't think she would. You're also correct that she would be happier when she dies to know who her brother is, than to die not knowing."
There was another silence. Kurama lay down on the bed, and was surprised when Hiei lay next to him, not saying anything. He looked much cuter now, Kurama noted, that he was over thinking everything.
"I want her to not know. But then again... maybe she should." Hiei let out a small sigh. 'Why do I care now?' Hiei thought to himself, not wanting to allure attention from the other.
"Maybe." Kurama said simply.
"Do you know what Kuwabara has done since she died? He sits in his room and stares blankly at the walls, like they can resurrect the fallen." Hiei looked frustrated, remembering the image. Emerald eyes blinked.
"I believe Kuwabara has been given clarity of the death situation. He doesn't remember how to handle delicate things well." Kurama sighed.
"Neither do I." Hiei closed his red eyes. Kurama blinked once more, his hand softly brushing against Hiei's.
"I hate it when you lie, you know. Yet, when you tell the truth I feel like you've gone cold." The fox closed his own eyes now, listening to any noise coming from the other.
"Hell's happiness comes from Heaven's fear. At least, that's what they say." Hiei breathed. The fox's hand wrapped around the small demon's.
===H4993===
"Welcome to the human world Yukina-chan." Botan smiled to her.
"Thank you for meeting me here Botan. I didn't want to get too horribly lost." The ice demon gave a small smile. "I wanted to see Kazuma and Yusuke as soon as possible."
"Yes. I think Kuwabara should be first then, Yusuke was last seen at the mall." The blue haired girl smiled.
===EnD===
Thank you for reading chapter one. Just so you know, this was originally how long it was gonna be, but I was persuaded to make this a more detailed story. Please review, your opinions are much better than mine are. : P