Playing God

Chapter 3- Denial

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Emma's eyes were full of confusion. He can't, he can't, he can't, he can't, he can't. Could he? She wasn't ready for this. After everything that had happened. No. He was just as confused as she was. If she wasn't ready for this kind of commitment, neither was he.

Sean was looking at her with need. Why hasn't she said it yet?

"Sean, I..." she stopped talking.

"You what?"

"I don't love you." He couldn't say anything back to that. She continued talking, "And you don't love me."

"Emma, why don't you believe anything I say anymore? I love you, and you love me. Stop denying it."

"I'm not denying anything, Sean! I don't love you."

"Why are you doing this?"

"Because I can't."

"Just because you can't doesn't mean you don't." Tears were welling up in her yes. He could see the thoughts turning in her brain. Emma was so confused she didn't know what to do with herself.

He's right. "FINE!" she screamed as she turned and started to storm away. She turned back around and started to yell again. "I LOVE YOU SEAN CAMERON. I LOVE YOU." And with that she turned back around and stormed home.

Sean couldn't help but have a smirk on his face.

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Emma wasn't at school the next day and Sean couldn't help but worry about her. After everything that happened the night before, he thought that she might not be there because of HIM. What if she got hurt on her way home? What if something happened to Snake? Or her mom? Or her brother? She just has the flu.

He walked to Manny's locker to find out what was going on. "Hey, have you seen Emma?"

"No, I thought she would be with you."

"What? Why?"

"Come on, Sean. The school isn't blind."

"Right. Anyway, she isn't here. She didn't call you and tell you she was sick or anything?"

"Since when were me and Emma speaking?"

"Oh. Sorry, Manny."

"It's ok. It's not like she hates me anymore. We just don't talk as much. Maybe J.T. knows."

"Right. J.T. I'll go find him." And with that he left Manny and walked down the next hallway. Before he even got close to J.T.'s locker though, he ran into Paige. How could he be so stupid? Paige and Emma were friends. He'd ask her.

"Hey Paige. Have you heard from Emma at all?"

"Yes. Why would you want to know?"

"Because she isn't here and I wanted to talk to her."

"Why don't you just leave her alone?"

"What did she say to you?"

"Nothing, Sean. She's at home because she didn't feel like coming to school today, ok? I'm bringing her the assignments that she would have gotten today at school. Don't try calling her, visiting her, or trying anything. Got it?"

"Seriously, Paige. When did you talk to her?"

"This morning. She wasn't very keen on the idea of seeing somebody named Sean Cameron today. She said she need to think things over. So I suggest you leave her alone until she has thought those things over or I'll be sure that you won't be seeing her for awhile. Understood?"

"Fine. God, no need to go psycho on me."

"What are friends for?" She smiled at him and stalked off towards her next class.

So Emma wasn't at school today because of him. Great.

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Emma's house was silent and empty. She was all alone with nowhere to go. School wasn't an option for a girl like her. Paige was the only one that knew what was going on. Her home life wasn't so good. She was lost. Lost in a world of lust. She was lusting for more hope and luck. But when it didn't come she was about to burst.

She literally couldn't take it anymore. Emma left the house at eleven o'clock that night. She couldn't stand staring at those same four walls any longer. She couldn't stand being home. And the fact that Sean hadn't even tried to talk to her really made her mad. She put the keys in the ignition of her car and started it up. She backed out of the driveway and left. She found herself driving down a familiar road once taken in a cab with Manny. That one night last year when that went to that rave. She parked her car and left her purse in the passenger seat. She didn't want to be able to be reached. She walked into the filthy club full of dancing bodies, so close they were sharing sweat. And then she joined them.

"You want some beer?" A deep voice from behind her asked. She turned around.

"Yeah." He handed her a bottle. "Thanks."

"No problem. So what's your name?"

"Emma. What's yours?" She was talking loud so he could hear her over the blaring music.

"Aaron." She took a long swig of her beer.

"Let's dance."

They danced for what seemed like hours. She was dancing like she never danced before. She just let herself go and go. She didn't even realize it when things were getting out of hand. Her vision was blurry and she couldn't see. She couldn't remember anything.

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It was Saturday and Sean decided that he couldn't wait until Monday to talk to Emma at school. He walked over to her house at eleven the next morning. Both Snake and Spike's cars were gone which meant they were either out on errands or at work. Emma's car was parked crooked on the curb. He went to her window and climbed inside to her room. Emma was crashed on the floor when Sean came in. He knew that she had stayed up too late and she looked too thin. There were empty bottles lying on the floor with clothes thrown about. But when Sean found clothes that he didn't recognize he started to worry. But there was no other body in sight. He picked up Emma and put her on her bed. He tried to wake her up.

"Emma." He shook her lightly. "Emma, wake up." She moaned softly and her eyes fluttered open.

"What are you doing here?" she asked groggily.

"Emma, it's eleven clock in the morning, there are beer bottles on the floor, and you are in your underwear! I'm pretty sure I should be the one asking questions, not you."

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A/N: Ohhh, intense. Ok, you may be thinking 'THAT'S NOT SOMETHING EMMA WOULD DO!'. Yeah, maybe. But just think if someone almost shot you, your dad had cancer, your mom was sinking into depression, you had a new baby brother that seemed to be your responsibility, and then some guy that you have had a very rocky, emotional past with just told you he loved you. Pretty sure you would break down, too! Lol, so yeah. It's not like she is going to make a habit out of it. She just had a little break down from all the emotional pressure. Ok? So don't yell at me! K, thanks. Anyway, I updated fast didn't I? So reward me with more reviews!