Hey you lot! Guess who's back with another meaty chapter for you! and yes indeedity, this is a big plot changer. It is so big because I had a lot to get through. Good background music for this one would be 'Inner Universe' a truly great song. Thank you lot for all the reviews, I love them, a little short, but who's complaining? I took a great deal of time to perfect this chapter, it is a different style to what I've been writing like, but I hope its an improvement. Okay, good news people! This is my 1st Beta read chapter! I just want to say thankyou to Lorna in this (my best friend from school) who I really think helped me. Ta chuck! although she won't be my Beta all the way through, as I've found one, who will be starting with the next chappie. well I think I've rambled enough now. So hope you enjoy, and dont forget to review!!
Fruchi-Tazza.
Chapter 9 -Immerse Yourself
Wooden stairs creaked, like a hundred panicking voices, as a one shadowed boy slinked up them slowly. Voices nipping at his ears, sparking a new wave of worry, the boy swallowed dryly and took the last few paces up the stairs. He stopped. Grasping the old banister, his fingers wrapped around it. His cold eyes sank down to the floor, to the socked feet pressed softly into the furry carpet. His mind wandered on other topics though...
His mind buzzed with a thousand unanswered questions, What was he doing? Without contemplating on his thoughts any further, he padded down the soft hall towards the apartment door. He clutched the brass doorknob, seeing his reflection he scornfully looked back up to the white paint job. Closing his eyes for a moment, he opened them with determination on his face, and opened the door.
He walked into the lounge area, it was deserted. Laid on the table was an open box of pizza, a couple of old crusts left over, it gave the room a sickening aroma, so he flung the window open and the netting gracefully played in the soft breeze coming in.
Looking around again, he glanced at all 6 doors, which lead to each member of the BladeBreakers separate rooms. Tags were neatly taped to each door, naming the person that the room belonged to. It was Kenny's idea, to stop confusing each other who's room was who's, and to stop them walking in at what could possibly be a bad moment.
He trailed over to his own door, staring at the shiny gold letters, he traced a finger over his name. Heaving a sigh, Kai looked to his left to see the door that held the person he needed to speak to.
Yes, Kai had been serious when he said he was going to go talk to Hilary. Strangely he knew the girl would listen to him, that she would take him seriously. He worked that out when she said that she wanted to get to know him. 'Hmm, get to know me...'
'...Here goes, I'm finally going to face up to things, It's win or lose, all or nothing, I just want to work this out, and if that means getting help to do so, then so be it... I've just... just... I've got to know, know why I feel so... empty'
At the door, he took a deep breath and knocked quietly. When recieving no answer, he quietly pushed the door slightly open. A thin beam of light flowed out through the small slit. Opening it fully, he glanced around. The light was on, and he could hear gentle breathing in a rhythmic pattern.
Over on the bed, Hilary was curled up into a tight ball, one hand hugging over her two knees and the other hand hanging over the bed. Clutched in it, was a slice of pizza, forgotten as she laid there sleeping quietly. She was laying ontop of the bed, so she had no covers either. Sighing, he took the pizza slice off her, and placed it upon her bedside table. He then gently pulled the covers from under her, and pulled them over her, so she was no longer exposed to the cold draft.
He froze as she nonchalantly moved her now empty hand to pull the covers even closer to her. Thinking it was a good time to leave, he headed for the door, he took one last glance over his shoulder before he flicked the light switch off and headed out of the room, gently shutting the door behind him.
'Oh great, I guess I'll just have to wait until morning.' Sighing he slumped down against the door.
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Next Morning
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Big brown eyes flickered open as their owner sat up and yawned. Hilary, who had woken up momentarily, stretched and pulled her bed covers off her. Standing up, she walked around a bit to wake her muscles up. Trudging over to the ensuite bathroom, Hilary took a shower, feeling relieved that she finally got a good night's sleep.
'Hmm that was reasonable..'
Drying herself off with the towel, she potted here and there, getting ready for a new day. She was secretly concerned, after that encounter with Kai last night, she had been stumped for ideas.
The boy had a problem, something that runs deeper that just a scowl and a phase of silence. Hilary saw that, but really didn't know what to do, Kai wouldn't talk to her, to ANYONE. Her heart grew heavy, a bit dissapointed that he couldn't trust her, yet she knew he didn't trust anyone, too way-layed in keeping himself locked up to give someone a chance to share his problems with them.
'All I can do is to keep trying, hmm, I wonder what his true smile looks like, I bet it's like...'
She cut herself short as she found herself staring at the pizza slice laid upon her ashwood bedside cabinet.
'What? I don't remem-' - Looking back towards yesterday she suddenly remembered taking a slice of pizza from the lounge room. She didn't get to eat much of it as she remembers also snapping at Tyson, who had only tried to ask her whats wrong, when she had stormed off to her room.
She remembered curling up onto her bed, kicking off her shoes and then sleepily curling up into a ball to think about Kai's encounter. The last thing she remembered was staring at her bedside lamp, forgetting to turn it off. -So why was it turned off when she had woken up this moring? Come to think of it, wasn't she HOLDING the pizza while laying ONTOP of her bed covers before she had fallen asleep?
Coming to conclusions that someone must had come in during the night, a shiver ran down her spine at the fact that a person had caught her off guard at a vulnerable moment.
Not really wanting to stay in the apartment much longer, Hilary grabbed her key to her room, and pulled open her door.
She was halted as she collided suddenly with a 'big lump' falling at her feet. Mumbling incoherant sounds as she quickly moved back, Hilary scanned the floor for the said lump.
It was Kai, with an awkward grunt, he sat up oddly. He looked around confused.
''Oh Kai! I'm sorry!- I didn't know!''
''Forget It'' Kai said, placing his hands on the floor.
''Let me help you up'' She grabbed his shoulder and tried to the best of her ability, to pull him up to his feet. Getting ungracefully up, Kai ruffled his hair, his spikes were going in every direction. Obviously he had not brushed his hair yet, his defined bangs were bouncing around Kai's hand, as it shifted through them. Looking at Hilary, he noticed she was staring at him playing with his hair. He stopped abruptly. Hilary saw how he had a sort of lost look on his face, where he had just woken up.
Fighting the urge to smile, Hilary just stood there thinking how cute these hidden mannerisms of Kai were.
''So um, why were you er- sleeping outside my door?'' Hilary questioned.
''I needed to talk to you, before the others could interfere'' He left out the part that he had actually fell asleep there, and hadn't moved since last night, after he had 'tucked her in' to put the terms lightly.
''Oh okay what's the time?'' She had alot of questions to ask him, so she had decided to go for a simple one.
''9:10 am, you sleep for a long time.'' Kai said pointedly.
''Oh, sorry. I guess I was tired.'' Hilary felt the soft faint pink line spread across her cheeks.
What did Kai want to speak to her about anyway?
''So what did you want to sa-'' Stopped half way through her sentence, she felt her face going beet red again.
Kai had put his hand over her mouth, ceasing her ability to carry on with her sentence. Coming closer to her face, Kai leaned in, and half whispered, half growled in her ear.
''Not in here, I don't want the others over hearing.'' Hilary wasn't really paying attention though. She was breathing in Kai's scent, which had lingered as his hand remained in place over her mouth, it was intoxicating. 'Omg, what is he doing? He's driving me wild!'
Hilary just remained there, looking into his crimson eyes. When he moved his hand away, he headed for the door, glancing over his shouler as a gesture for her to follow.
So she did.
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In Max's Hotel Room
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''This is it Maxie, today's the day! Hehe, wake up and smell the revenge!'' Tyson boomed out, he was sure this was going to be a day to remember.
''Yea! You sure the girls know what they are doing? They know where they are going right????'' Max questioned rather quickly. He had truly mixed feelings right now. One side said that he was doing the wrong thing, that he was going to get killed if Kai found out, and that Kai could actually end up hurting himself. But the other side over powered it by the high amusement of seeing what was in store for the dual-tone haired boy.
''Yep! I think they were more tuned in than me! Hard to believe, but they found a flaw in my plan, which was brilliant! As it was a pretty dangerous resulting flaw too!''
Max looked puzzled, obviously running the steps through in his head, trying to find anything wrong with it. When he found he couldn't, he looked up at Tyson with those big blue eyes.
''I can't find anything wrong with it!''
Tyson smirked, ''That's what I said too, Maxie''
'Uh-huh...'' Realising that Tyson didn't actually tell him, Max drew his eyebrows together. ''Well.... what was the problem?''
''...Well, lets just say Maxie, that nobody likes a pick-up truck landing ontop of them, especially Kai.''
Max gave a puzzled look, but as if a light bulb just clicked on in his brain, he clasped a hand over his mouth and mumbled.
''How could we overlook that, geez Tyson that could of been dangerous.'' Tyson looked down at his socked feet. He fiddled with a strand of his hair until he looked back up at Max.
''I know, I felt guilty about that too, the 'Kai fangirl' Lorna , wasn't too happy with me when she pointed that fact out too, she sorta told me off for nearly endangering 'her precious Kai' by a stupid mistake...'' He let that sentence trail off. He was thinking it over, he had to find a way to solve his problem.
''So what are we going to do?'' Max asked, silently freaking out that their well thought out prank could be ruined.
Tyson looked around the room, he was thinking the same thing, if only there was a way to figure it out, he knew one way, but he needed an extra person. His gaze settled on Max's oak dresser, where a black and white picture of the bladebreakers was framed in a silver plated photoframe. He saw Kai, isolated from the rest of the team. Standing infront of him, teeth bared as he smiled towards the camera, was Ray. ....Ray.
Ray.
....... ....... .......
''That's it!'' Tysons face twisted up suddenly into a toothy grin. He glanced over at Max. ''We can use Ray! I'm sure Ray won't mind, will he??''
''What? Oh... erm, I dunno, it's worth a shot I suppose'' Max looked skywards as he thought about it. Why not? He was sure Ray MUST hold SOME sort of grudge against Kai, after all, Mr Sourpuss does like to be mean, maybe we can convince Ray that it's his chance to be mean.
But some how Max knew that Ray wasn't going to be that easy to persuade. He didn't know, but he just got this feeling that on invisible terms, Kai and Ray respected eachother, and didn't really hold the same relationship as they did with Max and Tyson. Ray was somewhat respected by Kai, and well as for Ray's feelings for Kai, well, we already knew about that, huh?
But to Kai, Max and Tyson was just a pair of bouncy baka's. Shaking his thoughts, Max was growing impatient.
''So, um what are we going to do now, Tyson?'' Max had asked with a hint of curiosity in his voice, he looked at Tyson, who had his finger on his chin, his eyes rolled skywards.
''Well Maxie, I suppose we'd best go have a little chat with Mr Kitty Kat, where will he be?... Hmmm, lets go and check his room out''
Ray's Point of View
A loud knocking is echoing into my room, how very annoying. Now, if I was to...hmm, let's say, hazard a guess, will I be correct to say that the source of that noise is coming from- -
''What do you want Tyson?''
The knocking stopped abruptly. My white glossed door creaked open slowly and in popped Tysons midnight blue hair. His eyes wandered around my room, until they settled on me. A big grin spread across his face, as he pulled his head out of my view, and then flung the door open. In sprung him and Max.
''Heheh! Hey Ray! ..I ...Um, I mean WE came to ask you a favour.'' Tyson glanced at Max for a second, until his gaze floated back to me.
What do they mean favour? Anything asked from them is sure to be bad. Should I be worried? Well I won't keep myself thinking on this.
''What favour?'' I said, trying not to look too curious, so I decide to just sit there on my bed, and twiddle with the end of my ponytail. Damn I'm getting a lot of split ends. That's yet another Saturday evening wasted for 'Hair-care' treatment. It can be such a pain.
''Well, we just wanted to talk about this little prank we were going to pull, and well, there is a problem in it, which means that there is a risk of somebody getting hurt if we carry it through, but the prank is so good, we gotta do it! ...And so we just needed you to be there, so that we can work around it.''
Oh great, was that it? Another one of Tyson's immature pranks. Don't get me wrong, I like the kid, yeah he is great, just.... well just not very mature.
''I don't know Tyson, do you really have to drag me into this? It sounds pretty silly to me. You know I'm not one to play around with people's feelings.''
Tyson just stood there, he was looking pretty hurt, I could tell he was dying to do this, and as much as it hurt me to say it, I kinda felt sorry for him to blow 'such a good plan' away, just for the lack of safety.
''I know Ray, but we've been dying to do this for so long, we can't wait to see the look on his face, will you do it? Please!''
I really didn't want to say no, but I still didn't want to be out all afternoon pranking a poor innocent guy. They will find someone else to do it anyway, I'm sure of it, I feel sorry for the guy, and what Tyson had in store for him.
''I don't think so Tyson, Sorry. Who was the unlucky guy anyway?''
Tyson fiddled with the bottom of his shirt, it looked like he was thinking it over whether to tell me or not. Hmm, that bad huh?
''Oh well, we thought we'd make a challenge for once, so um, ya know, wethoughtaboutdoingiton Kai...ah heh..."
I swear I did a double take when I heard that name ring into my ears. Kai? Were they serious? Do they know a walking death threat when they see one? He would kill them! I wouldn't put it past him to either. This is bad, very bad. Wait, come to think of it, it gets worse, Tyson said something about 'If their plan goes wrong, then Kai could get hurt?'
I twisted my face up in disgust. I really was stuck on idea's. I knew that they were going to do it, with or without me. Kai would get hurt! I felt my hands shake in anger. Kai, hurt.
''.....''
I won't allow that.
Closing my eyes, I breathed in. If I agree to do this, then I know Kai wouldn't end up being hurt, but in return, us three would get killed, as Kai was sure to find out, nothing gets past him, really. Nothing.
Opening my eyes, I see Tyson and Max already halfway out the door. Panicking for a fleeting second, I called them back. I'd rather get shouted at for over an hour than to see my Team Captain hurt.
''Alright Tyson, I've changed my mind. I'll help, just tell me what to do.''
The last thing I saw was two wide grins spread across their faces before they were dragging me by my arm out of the hotel, already explaining today's plan.
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Outside
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The water of the fountain flowed elegantly down its stone statue, into the large round basin below. Centered in the middle of the hotel grounds, the sounds of the water lifted up into the breeze. If one was to look closely at it, you would find a pair of deep crimson eyes, watching it's every movement.
Kai and Hilary had found a spot near it, seated on a large stone bench, it was surrounded by many other deserted benches. It was about 12:10 PM by the time they had finished their late breakfast. Kai, who although sat on an entirely different table as Hilary while eating, had been watching her until she had finished.
It wasn't as if he didn't like Hilary, he just wanted to avoid talking about what needed to be said until they were more in private. Truth was, he had never shared his past with anybody before. He was still having doubts about it now, but he quickly shoved them aside, he was going to tell her, to ask her what to do, to get advice.
'I'm sick of living, having this empty feeling about, I don't know what it is, how to solve it. I just need to know.'
Kai looked to the floor. He frowned a little as he slid his eyes shut. Never before had he felt it worse. His soft grey bangs swayed gently as the breeze swept past them. He let out a silent sigh.
Hilary, who was watching him intently, never felt more puzzled. Here was Kai, the person she felt most strongly for, the person she just wanted to hold and never let go. Yet he looked so... so lost. So alone in his trail of thoughts. It took most of her will power to avert her gaze away from him.
They sat there in silence for what seemed like over an hour. Hilary stood up to strech her legs at least three times. She hadn't said a word, and she wasn't going to. She was going to leave the first word to Kai. Yes, she had seriously thought about giving Kai time. No pressure was the best thing.
So after another 20 minutes, she waited calmly. She was just about to get up again to wake up her muscles. When a hand slithered around her wrist and held her in place. She looked down to stare into the deep pools of Crimson. Kai had finally moved.
''Hilary, I need to tell you, I need you to help me...'' Kai frowed at the own words he spoke. He looked somewhat confused.
She sat back down and simply nodded. Questions could be asked later, just now she was going to listen.
''I've been hiding myself for so long. I've locked my emotions up and every feeling I own. Every opinion held unsaid. Every thought kept to myself. I thought that if I had kept myself un-noticed, that I would not have to deal with it all, that if I hid away, then it could all be ignored, but it couldn't. The truth, Hilary, is that-''
Just as Kai was about to explain it all, the sound that no man ever wanted to hear, split the air in a high pitched scream.
It was a bunch of fangirls. But no ordinary fangirls. It had been infact the same girls who had attacked him at the beach. Yes they were back, and at no worse a time either.
Totally forgetting what he was going to say, Kai spun round to face the direction of the scream. His eyes scanned the area, and found in the clearing, three girls running his way. Grabbing Hilary by the wrist, he stood up and waited.
'Great, just as I was about to explain. Wasn't I meant to? Am I meant to stay locked up forever? Constantly feel this emptyness? Feh'
His composture now showed a stubborn and an extremly pissed off Kai.
''OMG! ...IT'S KAI! GET HIM GET HIM! DON'T LET HIM GO! NOT UNTIL WE GET HIS AUTOGRAPH!''
Hilary looked a bit worried, these girls didn't look like they were going to stop until they got what they wanted. Hilary looked up at Kai, and she coward a bit as she saw the anger in his eyes, it was like a fiery flaming red errupted in them instead of the soft Crimson.
Feeling the jerk on her wrist, she came away from her thoughts to notice that she was being pulled into the surrounding forest which was not far from the hotel grounds. Kai had taken this time to act. He stopped and looked around. All the ways was blocked off, all but one path was clear enough for them to run through. The path looked newly done, as if only a couple of days old.
Running through it, Kai could still hear the screeching of the girls, who continued to chase them until they caught them. Adrenaline pumping through his veins, he now came to another small clearing. In the far far distance, he could see an upwards trail. Taking the chance he glanced around at Hilary, and gave her a reassuring squeeze of her wrist, to tell her it would be okay. Now starting to run again, they ran up the hill.
Hilary glanced over her shoulder, she could hear the loud cheering, but she couldn't see them anywhere. She looked forward again to notice that they were slowing down as they reached the top.
Stopping completely, Hilary flopped to the floor, rubbing her stitch. She had not been used to all this running. Clearly out of breath, she glanced around. They were at the top of a hill, through the gap of the tall thin trees, she could see the sky, and a big deep lake below. Near them was an old run down pick up truck. It looked abandoned, like it had been there a while.
Kai on the other hand, was looking down the hill they had sprinted up. It was obvious that he wasn't out of breath though. He was looking frantically around, he couldn't see the girls anymore, but he just knew they were there. Going back to Hilary, he sat on the old abandoned truck.
Hilary had gotten up by now, and had come to sit next to him. But they had barely the time to glance at one another before the girls screams were back. Seeing that the girls had split up, and now were coming at them from most directions available to them. Kai opened the door to the old pick up truck, and jumped in. Hilary followed suit and locked the doors behind her.
The girls just seemed to stand there now, each one had a smirk on their face. Hilary was pretty baffled at this, as they had all stopped trying to scramble Kai. They just stood there.
''Uh Kai? Why are they just standing there?''
''I....really don't know...''
Ten minutes passed and no eventful thing happened. They just sat there, watching the girls slowly make it out of view. That had been truly bizaare, the whole mornings events had been unordinary.
''Do you think it's okay to get out now?'' Hilary asked, fiddling with the hem of her pink skirt. She was pretty nervous. She was sitting in an old abandoned pick-up truck, with the guy who she had a major crush on, in the middle of nowhere.
Before Kai could answer, they both felt a jerk of the truck. Had it just moved?
Another jerk, but this time, it kept going, the truck was slowly moving forward, it was slowly heading for the edge of the downwards sloping hill, the hill which just so happened to lead to the deep lake below.
Before either could act on the matter, the top of the truck had come off, and it was now gradually gaining speed as it went down the hill. Kai registered what was happening a little too lately, as the truck was now going too fast to jump off.
Hilary now screamed in terror, as she looked at the trees beside her, which was quickly just becoming a green blur. Kai just had time to look back to where the truck had been sitting, to see Tyson and Max, holding the top of the truck, laughing madly in the background. Their loud laugh echoed through the wind as the truck was rocking side to side as it sped down the uneven path.
Kai opened the door to the truck, which was quickly ripped off by colliding with a tree. Eyes widening, Kai could see the ground, to see that it was just a never ending blurr. Kai tried to put one foot on the ground, but it quickly jolted back up by the sheer force of the sudden friction. Panicking now, he looked back up to see Hilary, who was still screaming at the top of her lungs.
Kai looked forward, and ahead, which was quickly approaching, was the end of the hill, which went slightly back up again to form a small ramp. Realising that they'd soon be meeting water, Kai shouted at Hilary to grab onto something, to keep her safe.
Looking back up to see that the ramp was just seconds away, Kai felt something slide around his waist, and cling to his shirt very tightly.
He looked around just to see Hilary clinging to him, her head pressed against his shirt, as the end of the path finished. The only thing he remembered was the sudden jerk as he went flying into the air.
Back at the end of the path, was the truck, it didn't go over, it just violently jerked back, and was now half hanging over the end by a piece of strong rope. Ray could be seen, watching them get flung over the cliff, some extra rope safe in his pocket. 'There, atleast he didn't get a truck landing ontop of him' He thought, as he turned away, no longer wishing to see the end results.
Hilary felt herself loose her grip on Kai as they were extented in mid air, still hurtling towards the deep icy lake. Her limbs flying everywhere, as she felt dizzy. She opened her eyes to see Kai not that far away from her , his legs high up in the air and his hair dancing wildly as he tried to grab nothing. It was like slow motion from then on.
Hilary just had time to have one more look at Kai, who now had positioned himself to go head first into the water, he had made himself as straight as possible, like a sharp arrow.
Facing back down to see how close they were now, Hilary closed her eyes and finally plummeted into the freezing cold water.
It all went black. The pressure of the water made it feel like Hilary was in a small box, She thrashed around under the dark water. The cold ran down her spine, slowly numbing all her limbs. Her lungs feeling strained, she finally reached the surface and gasped for breath.
Shrieking as she felt the cold to it's fullest effect, she looked around to find any sign of land, and then started to paddle to the bank. She felt so drained of energy. When she felt the rocky surface of the land below the waters surface, she crawled back, finally collapsing on the bank. All her limbs refused to move. Resting there for a second, it dawned on her that she could near nothing, nothing at all. No birds, no wind, and definately no Kai.
Eyes widening, she stood up quickly, scanning all sides of the lake for a sign of Kai. Not seeing one, panick started to stir inside her. She searched across the water's surface, and saw bubbles roughly near the middle of the lake.
''KAI! KAI! WHERE ARE YOU!?'' She frantically shouted. She looked back at the bubbles in the middle of the lake, and saw them slowing down.
''KAI THIS ISN'T FUNNY! ........KAAAI!'' Tears started leaking down her cheeks as she looked at the bubbles, slowly disappearing. Starting to get back into the water, her watery eyes focused on the spot, she kicked out in the water, trying to gain speed. Desperately trying to move the water out of the way, she got close to the place, when all the bubbles had gone. Trying to see through all the murky water was impossible. The tears kept streaming down her face, as she tucked her hair behind her ear and tried shouting again.
''KAI!.....Kai!....please........answer me. Answer me!'' she was half shouting, half begging now. He couldn't of gone, could he? He was alive! He wasn't -
A rush of bubbles quickly appeared infront of her and Kai suddenly surfaced, gasping for air. He looked up at Hilary, a little suprised to see her. She was more suprised to see him though. He had scared her, with his sudden entrance.
Hilary looked back at him, relieved. She smiled and then weakly sighed, pulling a bit of pondweed out of his hair. Crawling back up to the bank again, Hilary saw Kai collapse on the bank, his chest heavily rising and droping quickly. Hilary splayed out beside him too. She was exhausted.
''Wh-what happened b-back there?'' She managed to choke out between breaths.
''My foot got stuck in the pondweed below the water, I couldn't get it free, so I had to cut myself free from it, which took some time.'' Kai slowly said, turning his head towards hilary, his soaked hair brushing the sand around him.
''I'm glad your okay, Kai'' Hilary said out loud, she was thinking it, but didn't actually mean to say it out loud.
Kai just continued to look at her for a moment. Then turned his head up to look at the sky, after a minute or so he closed his eyes. He layed like that for quite sometime, Hilary just content to be in his presence. It was weird, but strangely comforting. It was all worth it, to be with Kai.
Hilary slid her eyes shut after a couple of minutes of Kai doing so. Just after the first minute, she felt a rain drop on her nose. She blinked as she opened her eyes. Before she was able to register that it was starting to rain, Kai was already standing and beckoning her.
''Come on, let's go.''
So they wandered around, never having the chance to dry, as the rain continued to fall. Soon they found a small clearing back in the woods, and an old bench was there, the back of it was surrounded by the thick oak trees. The clearing was circular shaped, it was getting really dark now aswell. The stars had started to come out, and the moon shone its vibrant rays down into the small clearing they had found.
Sitting down on the bench, Kai let his hands fall into his lap. Hilary sat down next to him, she could see the moonlight's rays dancing across his face. He really did look beautiful, even when totally soaked and sandy. Even though the sand was gently getting washed away.
''Hilary, whe-'' He stopped and took a deep breath, he needed to get this out. No matter what.
''When I was young, I grew up in the Abbey, along side my Grandfather. He had taught me a lot of things in his life, but the most important thing was to only trust in yourself. I followed this rule for most of my life. Since the day I heard it, I had tried to be the best in the world. To perfect myself in such ways that no one could even dream of reaching my power. I was too foolish to realise, that as I physically grew stronger, I mentally grew weaker. My heart grew cold. I was unable to feel any emotion, unable to do my own things, unable to love.''
He stopped for a second. He drew in a great breath as his confessions seemed hard to talk about, although he was finding it difficult, he did not stop.
''When I realised what I was doing, I had the chance to stop, I had the chance to regain everything I had lost....but I didn't. No, I carried on to lock myself away, to keep myself from prying eyes. I thought that if I hid myself away, it would be fine. That I would over come not having the ability to trust, someone to care about. It never happened though. It got worse and worse until I just became this empty soul. I even stopped talking to my Grandfather, I blamed it on him. I know it was not only him, he was only the influencer, it was me, who stupidly had taken his advice.''
He looked down, as if disgusted with himself, as if only hearing this for the first time. It had gone quiet, all that could be heard was the sound of the rain, which fell onto the leaves of the trees, making a small sound for each droplet. It was really coming down hard, Like little pellets. Kai seemed so far down in thought that it seemed he didn't even know it was still raining. He clenched his fists together, as he continued to stare at the floor.
Hilary, who had listened quietly, was in silent shock. She hadn't known it was that deep. He couldn't feel? He didn't know about his emotions? She felt a deep pang of guilt inside her as she just continued to watch him. She was open about it too, Kai knew she was staring, he didn't care though. He closed his eyes for a second...
''Truth is...after all this time I felt like I didn't WANT to love, I was mistaken, it was...that I COULDN'T love, after all the time in the abbey, I grew cold. All my time was focused on training, so I can't love, simply because....I don't really know HOW too.''
Hilary felt herself shiver at the next sentence Kai said. She looked up at him in disbelief.
''...I am so weak.'' He said as a final word. It was so official.
It hurt Hilary to hear each one of those words. So that was it. That was Kai's true thoughts. Well, she certainly didn't seem to think so.
''Kai...''
He didn't move, he just stared at the ground, feeling the rain run down his neck.
But when he felt a hand touch his own, he looked up to see Hilary looking at him, they stared at each other for what seemed like an eternity. The rain created a misty atmosphere around them, as their breath was made visible, through the cold air. Hilary looked into his deep Crimson eyes, his hair drooping at the edges, just like the first time she had met him. His lips were slightly parted, the cold air escaping them with every breath he breathed. He was blinking from time to time, from where the odd rain drop hit his cheeks. Looking once more into his eyes, she found no more worries, no more regrets, they both had started to lean in. The closer they got, the louder their breath was in each others ear. Hilary took one more look at him, before closing her eyes, she reached for the last bit of distance between their lips. Closing her eyes she knew where his lips were...they were so close. Feeling his breath just as she nearly felt his lips.....
''I hope I'm not interupting anything, but I thought I'd better come and find you, as it's pretty dark out.''
It was Ray, he had a look of remorse in his eyes, a look of hatred, even though this boy was nearly as good at hiding his emotions as Kai was, Kai saw the look, and it was well.... weird. He had seen them, he had seen them nearly kissing. That magical moment that he wanted.
Kai and Hilary was well apart from each other now, Hilary was blushing like mad. But Kai sat there, no emotions in his eyes, back straight, arms crossed with a thoughtful, yet stubborn look.
''Let's...just go back'' He simply said, saying no more as he walked towards Ray, not looking once at Hilary.
Hilary just sat there for a moment, she was shocked at how quickly that had happened. She had nearly kissed Kai.
'Damn Ray!... I was... so close.' With that, she got up and slowly trudged back to the hotel, trailing behind the leading Kai, and the hindered Ray.
To Be Continued!
OMG OMG OMG! HOW LONG WAS THIS CHAPTER!!! sheeeesh! what a pain in my a---- ...er yea! anyway, i just want to say a HUGE thanks to my beta reader Lorna. for this chapter, i would of been a mess without her! wow, they nearly kissed huh? sooo close, darn Ray and his wrong moments! lol, oh, but was it wrong? find out! lol...
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