An Admiral's Tale - Chapter Twelve
Curse me. Curse life. Curse everything.
"REVAN! REVAN! REVAN!" I screamed over and over, I was being restrained and I was trying to fight my way out of it. I got a few more smacks around my face for my troubles.
"DAD I'm not Revan.." Dustil informed me, after a while it settled in. I took a deep breath and put my hand on my head. It was Dustil who was telling me to wake up after all. "Your injuries are pretty bad, let me inject this Kolto into you." He got the Kolto and started to inject it into me. The pain of my injuries were supressed. I gazed at my son, he was wet too. It clicked. Dustil must have saved me from my death. I was at the very bottom of Ahto City and the ocean was but a few feet from where I was resting.
"Thanks.." I said trailing off. He just looked back at me strangely.
"Look, you have to get out of here.. We heard that the Sith are coming-" He told me, my eyes widened.
"What?!" I said in surprise, Dustil had to restrain me from bolting up from the ground.
"It's Bastila.. She's managed to convince the Sith to attack Revan.. Revan's gone to fight her." I rubbed my head again as Dustil told me this. "It's almost ironic, Revan will be helping us by defeating Bastila.. I don't know how Bastila's done it." I sighed, why wasn't I surprised?
"I can harbour some guesses, but they aren't pretty.. That foul woman." I muttered to my son, I tried to move again and I was restrained. I looked to the right, floating in the Sea was Revan's lightsabre. "Great, she's going to come here." I told him. Dustil saw me looking at the water and he turned his head and nodded.
Dustil carefully moved my body behind some supply crates and sure enough Revan came. "Excuse me, Republicans" She said as she reached out for her lightsabre, it came towards her and she left. A collective sigh left the room, she obviously influenced people with more fear than I could possibly imagine.
"Dad.. The smuggler's ship, you have to escape." Dustil said to me, I nodded and got up to move. I groaned a little but I'd been in worse pain before. My son grabbed my hand and helped me up, it took me by surprise.
"Again.. Thankyou. But I can't say I admire your timing." I smiled at him jokingly and he smiled back.
"I.. It isn't the time to explain father.." He told me, his grip on my hand tightened and my eyes met my sons. It was beautiful.
He shook my hand and drew me closer..
He wrapped an arm around me and patted my back.
It was wonderful.
I wrapped my own arm around him in surprise, tears threatened to fall from my eyes. The son I never knew, the son I never had. He was here, he was holding me. He was like..
Like me.
"Curse Revan.. Curse Bastila for everything.." I told him, he looked at me puzzledly.
"Father.." He said to me, the emotion getting the better of him too.
"I'm going to forget about the both of them, if it's the last thing I do.. Damn them. Damn myself. Damn it all. I'm such a failure." I told my son, I've failed him. I've failed everyone at some point in my life. At that point I wished I was never born.
"You really have to go.. I know the Republic and Sith are going to hunt you tirelessly.. My Commanding Officer is only letting me do this because you're my father.. If anyone else finds out.." I shook my head at him, I more than understood what the duty to the Republic entailed.
***
I was at the Smuggler's ship. Dustil was standing besides me, it was time we parted and went our seperate ways.
"Dustil. If I never see you again.. Remember that I love you. Always." I told him, he raised his head towards me. I didn't expect him to reply, I didn't want him to reply. "I failed you. I'm the type of guy that fail's everyone, but I never ever once stopped loving you." I also told him. Tears threatened to fall and they pricked at his eyelids.
"I.. I love you too.." He said, it was all I needed. I rushed back towards Dustil and held him tightly in my arms, he was crying. I only needed to see him crying to start crying myself. "If mother could forgive you.. I can forgive you too." He whispered in my ear through the tears.
"I failed you son..."
We parted from our embrace and I started to walk up the ramp into the Smuggler's ship.
"I failed everyone..." I whispered to him, he waved at me and shook his head in disbelief. I waved back, sadly.
"I'm a failure..."
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Curse me. Curse life. Curse everything.
"REVAN! REVAN! REVAN!" I screamed over and over, I was being restrained and I was trying to fight my way out of it. I got a few more smacks around my face for my troubles.
"DAD I'm not Revan.." Dustil informed me, after a while it settled in. I took a deep breath and put my hand on my head. It was Dustil who was telling me to wake up after all. "Your injuries are pretty bad, let me inject this Kolto into you." He got the Kolto and started to inject it into me. The pain of my injuries were supressed. I gazed at my son, he was wet too. It clicked. Dustil must have saved me from my death. I was at the very bottom of Ahto City and the ocean was but a few feet from where I was resting.
"Thanks.." I said trailing off. He just looked back at me strangely.
"Look, you have to get out of here.. We heard that the Sith are coming-" He told me, my eyes widened.
"What?!" I said in surprise, Dustil had to restrain me from bolting up from the ground.
"It's Bastila.. She's managed to convince the Sith to attack Revan.. Revan's gone to fight her." I rubbed my head again as Dustil told me this. "It's almost ironic, Revan will be helping us by defeating Bastila.. I don't know how Bastila's done it." I sighed, why wasn't I surprised?
"I can harbour some guesses, but they aren't pretty.. That foul woman." I muttered to my son, I tried to move again and I was restrained. I looked to the right, floating in the Sea was Revan's lightsabre. "Great, she's going to come here." I told him. Dustil saw me looking at the water and he turned his head and nodded.
Dustil carefully moved my body behind some supply crates and sure enough Revan came. "Excuse me, Republicans" She said as she reached out for her lightsabre, it came towards her and she left. A collective sigh left the room, she obviously influenced people with more fear than I could possibly imagine.
"Dad.. The smuggler's ship, you have to escape." Dustil said to me, I nodded and got up to move. I groaned a little but I'd been in worse pain before. My son grabbed my hand and helped me up, it took me by surprise.
"Again.. Thankyou. But I can't say I admire your timing." I smiled at him jokingly and he smiled back.
"I.. It isn't the time to explain father.." He told me, his grip on my hand tightened and my eyes met my sons. It was beautiful.
He shook my hand and drew me closer..
He wrapped an arm around me and patted my back.
It was wonderful.
I wrapped my own arm around him in surprise, tears threatened to fall from my eyes. The son I never knew, the son I never had. He was here, he was holding me. He was like..
Like me.
"Curse Revan.. Curse Bastila for everything.." I told him, he looked at me puzzledly.
"Father.." He said to me, the emotion getting the better of him too.
"I'm going to forget about the both of them, if it's the last thing I do.. Damn them. Damn myself. Damn it all. I'm such a failure." I told my son, I've failed him. I've failed everyone at some point in my life. At that point I wished I was never born.
"You really have to go.. I know the Republic and Sith are going to hunt you tirelessly.. My Commanding Officer is only letting me do this because you're my father.. If anyone else finds out.." I shook my head at him, I more than understood what the duty to the Republic entailed.
***
I was at the Smuggler's ship. Dustil was standing besides me, it was time we parted and went our seperate ways.
"Dustil. If I never see you again.. Remember that I love you. Always." I told him, he raised his head towards me. I didn't expect him to reply, I didn't want him to reply. "I failed you. I'm the type of guy that fail's everyone, but I never ever once stopped loving you." I also told him. Tears threatened to fall and they pricked at his eyelids.
"I.. I love you too.." He said, it was all I needed. I rushed back towards Dustil and held him tightly in my arms, he was crying. I only needed to see him crying to start crying myself. "If mother could forgive you.. I can forgive you too." He whispered in my ear through the tears.
"I failed you son..."
We parted from our embrace and I started to walk up the ramp into the Smuggler's ship.
"I failed everyone..." I whispered to him, he waved at me and shook his head in disbelief. I waved back, sadly.
"I'm a failure..."
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