Chapter 4

Lily awoke the next morning after a fitful sleep. She thought about the night previous and remembered what she had said to James, and how helpless he had seemed afterwards. 'I should be feeling good about myself. I got him back. I put him in his place. Why do I feel like shit about it?'  

She got out of bed, had a shower and got ready for the first day of proper lessons. She looked at herself in the mirror.

"How boring am I?" She said out loud. Then she remembered the promise she had made herself. A sly grin started to creep on to her face. She grabbed her make up bag and grabbed a green eye shadow, clear lip gloss, black eye liner and mascara. She applied all of her make up. She already looked great.

'There's something missing.' She thought to herself. Then it came to her. She grabbed the scrunchy that held in her ponytail and yanked it out. Then she ruffles her hair to give herself the just got out of bed look. She rolled up her skirt and undid a few of her buttons at the top of her shirt, then performed a shrinking charm on it to make it tighter. She looked back in the mirror. "Perfectly wicked." She said and then walked out of her dorm ready to go to breakfast.


James got out of bed in a rush. He had overslept! And on his first day! It already sucked not having Moony around to organise the rest of them. He looked over to where Sirius was also still asleep. He ran over to him and shook him awake. "Sirius man! Wake up!" An incoherent mumble sounded from a figure underneath the covers.

"Don't want to wake up…lets just stay in bed…heh heh haaaaaaa." James blinked. That had to be the single most disturbing sound he had ever heard made. How the hell was he supposed to wake Sirius up? He was the heaviest sleeper he knew! He smirked; he wasn't a Marauder for nothing. He murmured a spell under his voice.

"WAKEY WAKEY RISE AND SHINE!"

"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! WHAT THE BLOODY FUCKING HELL? BASTARDS THE LOT OF YOU!" Sirius was visibly shaking from James sonorous wake up call and he scowled at James who was now doubled up on the floor from laughing so hard.

"Shut your face Prongs." Sirius said getting out of bed. He looked at the time. "Oh Shit!" he cursed then ran to get ready.

"Can't…stop…laughing…too….funny…WAHAHAHAAAA!" James was still curled up on the floor by the time Sirius had had a shower.

"Alright, it must've been funny, but get over it! Time to go to breakfast! I'm starving!

"Alright, I'll be down in two seconds."


Ten minutes later James and Sirius joined Roxie, Jess and Remus at the table. Lily hadn't arrived yet. James had tried to explain to Remus about the morning's incident but every time he did he ended up laughing and spraying everyone with toast.

"Just forget about it Prongs, I'm sure it was just one of those moments you had to be there." Said Remus in an exasperated tone.

James nodded and then looked at Sirius. Once again he started to chuckle in his deep rolling laugh. The Great Hall's doors swung open. James stopped laughing as quickly as he had started.

Lily Evans was strolling into the Great Hall with her head held high. James jaw dropped. He took in her skirt, her shirt- hang on, were those buttons straining against her chest? - Her hair and her make up. She looked like sex on very long legs. James felt his trousers become uncomfortable. "Bloody hormones" he said under his breath.

Lily looked around the Hall out of the corners of her eyes. 'Excellent. I have attracted the attention of…every guy in school. About ten percent of them are wolf whistling, another twenty percent are dribbling, and the rest of them look very uncomfortable in the…lower regions.' She stopped as she looked over at the Gryffindor table. 'I even have the attention of one James Potter, interesting.'

She sat down at the table purposely opposite James. She was going to really rub him the wrong way today. She looked him in the eye. She nodded her head politely, "James." She said. The rest of the gang's eyebrows' shot into their hair lines. Lily had called him by his firstname?

"Lily." He managed to rasp out.

Lily smirked, perfect; she had got him all hot and bothered by the sounds of it. That'll teach him to try and mess with my head like he did last night. Next her gaze rested on Sirius.

"Hey Padfoot." She said seductively. "I was wondering if that offer still up for grabs?" she looked at him through long eyelashes.

Sirius smirked and was about to open his mouth when a small cough came from Roxie's direction. He shook himself. 'Don't screw up what you got coming to you Pads old boy.'

Sirius shook his head. "You know what Lily, I'm afraid to say that it isn't. You see, I've seen the error in my ways and now I'm going to be a one woman man." Lily pouted the light reflecting off her lip gloss. James gulped.

"That's a shame. Well, I guess I'll see you guys in Charms. Bye then." She got up and left the table. She walked away with a swivel in her hips. When she left the Great Hall, she smiled to herself. 'Oh yeah, this is going to be fun.'


Lily made her way to Charms early on purpose so that she could grab the perfect seat. She wanted to be to the side of the classroom at the front so that she was in view of everyone. It worked. As people started to file in all the boys would glance at her, and would carry on doing so while they sat down.

James Potter walked in and had a bimbo walking next to him. Giggling madly every time he said something. So it starts. A new year, a new set of girls trying to get in with the Marauders. Lily sat there wondering how long it would take James to flash one of his lop sided grins and invite her back to a broom closet later. But to her surprise, he just smiled awkwardly and sat down next to Sirius. 'What the hell was that Potter? Don't try to tell me you've changed your ways.'

As the lesson progressed Lily made eyes at almost every boy in the class. She would even wink and smile cheekily at the good looking ones. However, while flirting she kept an eye on James. He sat next to Sirius at the back of the class, but instead of messing around like he had done for seven years previous, he was concentrating and taking notes. His brow was furrowed and his tongue sticking into his top lip.

She inwardly scoffed. 'James? Working? It wont last two seconds.'So lily just got on with what she was doing, working and at the same time paying as much time as she could spare flirting with the boys.


While he was working James kept an eye on Lily. She was flirting and laughing with every man in sight except James. And was therefore causing his blood to boil. He ignored it though. He wouldn't let this get to him. He would be strong. He would show her that she wasn't the only one that was changing. I mean come on! He just turned down some hot blonde just to show her that he wasn't like how he used to be. He bit down on his cheek and forced himself to ignore what was going on. He was however satisfied in the surprised look she gave him when she saw that he was working.

'I bet she thinks I wont keep this up. I'll show her.'

And so he did. And it kept up for a long time until one of them finally exploded.


James was walking down the Hall going to Charms. It was Monday morning again, exactly a week from when he had started to behave in lessons and keep his hands off of girls.

James had become increasingly irritated and moody all the while Lily was building quite the fan base among all the Hogwarts boys.

"PRONGS! WAIT UP!" Sirius jogged up the corridor to catch up with his best friend.

"Hey Padfoot, what's up?" James asked dejectedly.

"Me, I'm up! I can't help myself! I have girls throwing themselves left right and centre at me and I cant do jack shit about it! This isn't fair!I want some action! I haven't gone this long without some, since fourth year! This is ridiculous! Me and my right hand have officially become best friends! And Roxie isn't helping. She keeps smiling at me, and winking suggestively, and then turning away! And then, get this Prongs, she'll bloody talk to me as if there isn't attraction! As if I don't have a raging hard on just from thinking about her in beautifully indecent ways!" Sirius was left breathless form his little rage. He took a deep breath and calmed himself down.

"I know what you're talking about man. I've had to pry the girls off of me. Trying to act all decent and loyal to one girl, and she's acting like I don't exist! At least you knowthere's going to be a reward for you at the end of the road. And at least Roxie isn't flirting with every guy like a rabbit in heat. I swear! Lily must have at least five guys walking her to class every bloody fucking day!" James was now the one breathing heavily.

The two guys heard chuckling from behind them. Remus walked up beside them and fell into stride with them.

"Having girl troubles then?" he asked brightly. They both just scowled at him.

"At least you're getting some Moony." Sirius said in a dark voice.

"And you will be to. It's only two more weeks until the first Hogsmeade visit."

"TWO WEEKS?! ARGH!" Sirius yelled his frustration. "Great two more weeks to be acquainted to my little friend here." He said while gesturing with his hand.

"Littlefriend eh? No wonder you haven't got any from Roxie yet."

"Bite me, Moony."

"Oh no, I don't think you'd want me to do that."

Sirius opened his mouth to talk again when he was silenced by James shouting over the top.

"YOU KNOW WHAT? I THINK YOU SHOULD BOTH SHUT UP RIGHT NOW BECAUSE YOU ACT LIKE YOU HAVE NOTHING GOING FOR YOU WHEN REALLY YOU'VE GOT IT A LOT BETTER THEN SOME OTHERS!" he lowered his voice and carried on.

"I just happen to have feelings for a girl who despises me, neverwants to be my friend let alone girlfriend. And she's walking around with new guys every day." And with that he stormed ahead to go find a seat as far away from Lily as possible.


Friday night while Remus and Lily were doing rounds Remus decided to question Lily about what was going on.

"Lily, what are you doing?" he asked as politely as he could.

"I'm doing rounds with you, silly." She said, giggling.

"Ok, drop it Evans. That's what I'm talking about. This isn't you. When did you suddenly become so girly and flirtatious?" Lily dropped the act and scowled.

"Ever since I decided that I don't like who I used to be. I want people to notice me. I want guys to notice me and pay attention to me. Is that so much to ask?"

"No Lily, that isn't a lot to ask. But you're going the wrong way about it. Sure you're getting a lot of attention from guys, but from the wrong ones. The ones paying attention to you are the ones who think you're easy and want to get into you're pants!"

"Fuck off Remus, that's not the only reason they talk to me-"

"Oh isn't it? You mean to tell me that you know about these guys? I mean, do you know their surnames?"

"Well, no but-"

"Do you even know their first names?"

"Well, most of them, only a few bothered to tell me-"

"EXACTLY! Don't you see that they don't want you for you? Only the people who know what you're really like want you for you."

Lily thought about this, she thought back to all of the boys that had been hanging around with her. What they had been saying to her. Openly leering at her while they hadn't even told her their names. She felt ashamed. She felt dirty.

"Merlin, you're right Remus." She said quietly.

He nodded his head sympathetically. "Don't worry Lils, we'll find you a guy who's worthy enough for you." She smiled softly.

"Thank you Moony." He nodded. They had reached the ends of their rounds. They said good night and parted in the common room and went to bed.


The next morning was a Saturday. Lily didn't feel like eating so she skipped breakfast and went down late. She just caught the rest of the gang as they were going out to the lake. She decided to go with them.

They were all sitting under their favourite tree. Jess and Remus were laughing together huddled up and Roxie and Sirius rolled across the damp grass having a play fight. This left Lily and James to themselves.

Lily had noticed that James was getting moodier and moodier as the days progressed. She was feeling in a particularly spiteful mood today so she decided to talk to him.

"Hi James." She said in an innocent voice.

"Hey" he grunted back

"How you doing?"

"Fine."

"You sure?"

"I'm sure."

"You seem really pissed off lately, I was just wondering why." She said in a mocking voice.

James couldn't take it anymore. Lily had been teasing him relentlessly for two weeks and she didn't even realise! How could she be so blind to the truth?! James who had already been on the verge was given that one little push that he needed. He stood up, glaring down at Lily.

"YOU WANT TO KNOW WHATS WRONG LILY? YOU KNOW WHAT? FOR SOMEONE WHOS AS INTELLIGENT AND BRILLIANT AS YOU, YOU'RE PRETTY FUCKING STUPID! I MEAN WHAT ARE YOU PLAYING AT? LOOK AT YOU! YOU'RE DRESSED TO THE HILT EVERY DAY! YOU FLIRT WITH ANYTHING WITH A PULSE AND A DICK! EVERYONE BUT ME THAT IS! WHY IS THAT LILY? AM I NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU? YOU ALREADY REJECTED MY FRIEDSHIP THE FIRST NIGHT WE WERE BACK. I HANDED IT TO YOU ON A SILVER PLATTER, AND WHAT DO YOU DO? YOU THROW IT IN MY FACE!I WATCH YOU EVERY DAY, BEING FOLLOWED BY THESE GUYS WHO THINK THAT THEY'RE GOING TO GET LUCKY! AND IT DRIVES ME MAD! YOUDRIVE ME MAD! I WANT YOU SO MUCH IT HURTSLILY, IT PHYSICALLY HURTS! AND I CANT DO JACK SHIT ABOUT IT BECAUSE YOU DESPISE ME! YOU'RE JUST SO BRILLIANT AND BEAUTIFUL AND SO…YOU. BUT YOU CANT SEE THAT. WELL I'VE HAD ENOUGH! I'LL SEE YOU AROUND."

And with that he stormed off in the direction of the Quidditch pitch. Lily just stood open mouthed. Tears fell down her cheeks as she sat in shock, shaking from James seething voice. She looked at his retreating back.

"Oh James, I don't despise you." She whispered and ran off into the castle sobbing openly. She only stopped running when she got to her dorm.


Later that night Roxie, Jess, Remus and Sirius met in the Gryffindor common room.

"How's James?" asked Roxie.

Sirius just shook his head. "I've never seen him like this."

"How's Lily?" asked Remus. Roxie frowned.

"She isn't good. I think she's just come to grips that James actually likes her for her, not like one of those bloody idiots that hang around her trying to get an easy fuck. I think she also just came to terms with the fact that she doesn't hate him. To be honest with you, I think she never has. It's just he broke her heart in fourth year and I don't think it's properly mended." Sirius smirked.

"You know what this means, don't you?" They all shook their heads.

"That it's time to fix our friends up. Make them see what they're missing."

"That's all well and good Sirius, but have you forgotten that only our dear friend James has the balls to admit what he feels?" said Jess.

"Yeah, Siri, it takes two to tango." Roxie added. He smirked.

"It takes two, but then again, it could take four or maybe even six." Remus frowned.

"What on earth are you talking about Padfoot?"

"We, dear Moony," he said indicating to the whole group, "are going to help." He laughed his crazy laugh that he got when they had devised a prank. The others looked at each other with doubt.

Could Sirius be right?

Would this work?

A/N

Wow, definitely longest chapter yet! Also the darkest, don't worry that wont happen often! I just wanted to get all of the darkness out of the way so it didn't spread over more chapters! There wasn't even any loving in this chapter! Don't worry; I plan for more of that to come…much more! So I promise sex, drugs, rock and roll! We all love stoner James and Sirius!

Just wanna say there's a new Harry Potter trailer! It's a bit sketchy, but it shows Harry picking on Draco in Hogsmeade and Draco looking scared! Hehe! I love Draco though! Here's the xx