A/N: ok, once again, the upload didn't work properly! So I've carried on the original chapter into chapter 8 again! This whole thing chptr 6,7 and 8 were meant to be one!

Sorry bout this guys, its crazy!

Chapter 8…(6c)

"I don't hate you."

"Bollocks."

"James! I…I don't hate you…I never really have…in fact these past couple of weeks I…I've missed you." Lily looked down to the floor so that James wouldn't see her blush. She was mentally kicking herself. Why the hell did she have to go and say that?! She looked up at James and saw him looking at her incredulously. He stepped forward and softly took one of her small hands in his, entwining their fingers.

"What did you just say?" he asked softly, not believing his own ears.

"I…I said that I don't hate you and I…miss you." Lily replied in such a quiet voice James had to lean forward to hear her.

Lily looked up and noticed that James was extremely close to her. She could feel his warm breath on her lips, she licked them sub consciously. She wanted to kiss him, but she knew it was just the alcohol talking, not her own rational thoughts. She looked into his eyes and could feel herself starting to drown in the dark blue pools.

'Oh my god, I'm going to kiss him. But that isn't right! I don't want to do it really; I'll regret it tomorrow morning. Are you sure? Are you sure this isn't what you want? You've been hiding from your feelings for a long time. It's time to let the damn break.'

And it did.

A torrent of emotion washed through her she wanted to be with James Potter. She wanted to kiss him. And before she knew what she was doing she had pressed her lips against his.

James was shocked to say the least. Here he was standing in the middle of Hogsmeade kissing Lily Evans. But what got to him the most was that he hadn't been the one to initiate the kiss. It had been her. He was so confused.

The kiss was getting deeper and deeper, more intimate by the moment until they heard someone coming towards them crying. They broke away to look at a distressed Roxie and the moment was gone.

~*~

Roxie was crouching in the far end of the alley way. Her head was still spinning but she didn't feel sick any more. She knew she had to get back to school but she didn't have her wand with her. So how she was supposed to do it she didn't know.

She started to get up so that she could go back into the bar and find one of the guys. Hopefully they were up for going home. Personally, she hoped she found Sirius. Her head may have been spinning, but she was still horny and she really liked him. She started walking to the opening of the alleyway when she realised that she wasn't alone. There were two other people, a couple, leaning against the wall. Well actually the girl was against the wall with her legs wrapped around the guy's waist while he leant into her with his trousers and boxers around his ankles. It was obvious what they were doing.

'Oh my god, how embarrassing, I have to walk past a couple while they're in the middle of a shag…hang on, I recognise that hair, and that voice...oh my god…'

"Sirius?" she voiced her thoughts weakly, suddenly feeling ten times as light headed as she had been previously. Sirius turned his head to face where his name had come from. He locked eyes with Roxie while she stood there watching what he was doing. The expression of horror, hurt and betrayal stood so prominent on her face that as soon as he had seen it, he knew that this was a mistake. A huge mistake.

"Roxie?! What are you doing here?" He mentally kicked himself for saying that because as soon as he did tears welled up in her large eyes.

"I felt really ill, so I came outside to get some fresh air…and…and…" she couldn't finish her sentence. The tears were threatening to fall, but she wouldn't let him see her cry. She promised herself that every time she did spill tears for him. She ran passed him and into the centre of Hogsmeade, making her way to Honeydukes, hoping that someone had left it open so that she could get back to the castle as soon as possible.

"FUCK!" Sirius shouted as he hastily sorted himself out. He couldn't believe he'd been so stupid! He had actually thought that Roxie had left with another man, when really she had been throwing up everywhere and could have probably done with someone to help, even if it was just to be there. He ran after her, listening out for the sobs that echoed through the small town of Hogsmeade.

~*~

"Oh my god! Roxie babe, what's wrong?" Lily ran forward as did James to comfort their friend.

"Sirius…he…he…I saw him with…another girl." Another sob racked through Roxie's body as she collapsed into her friend's arms.

"Shh, I'm here for you Rox, I'm here." Lily spoke comforting words to her and she could feel her calming down. That was until Sirius stumbled into the town centre. He ignored James and Lily and went straight to Roxie. His eyes were pleading, he was more upset then she had seen him ever. But he had hurt her more then anyone else ever could have.

"Roxie please, let me explain, I made a huge mistake. I thought that you…" he trailed off when he saw the look of raw pain that flashed across her face. She understood now. He thought that she had gone off and slept with that guy. He had done this in what he thought was pay back.

She started to back away from him.

"How could you have even thought that Sirius?" she asked, her voice barely above a whisper.

"I was stupid, Roxie please, don't walk away." He pleaded. But she just turned and carried on walking towards Honeydukes. She didn't dare look back, not wanting to risk his seeing fresh tears falling for him once again.

~*~

The journey back to Hogwarts was done in silence.

James and Lily were embarrassed to talk, Sirius had finally accepted that Roxie wasn't talking to him, and both James and Lily were pissed at Sirius for what he did.

They parted their separate ways as they got back into school. Lily headed for her own room while James took Roxie back to the Gryffindor quarters while Sirius lagged behind. Lily couldn't help but feel that warmth in her gut spread as she saw how well James looked put for his friends. And she really had noticed him tonight, one of his eyes were half closed from the alcohol, his hair was messier then ever but he looked more gorgeous to her then he ever had. But what really got to her was the fact that she had been fighting these feelings for him for so long that it felt scary to admit to them again.

When Lily got to her room she was overwhelmed. She had a lot of thinking to do. She noticed as she got into bed that Remus's room was strangely silent which only meant that there was a silencing charm around the room. She sighed, she had a feeling this was going to be one long night for everyone.

A/N: Hey peeps! I am so sorry that this has taken sooooo long to update! But I've been up to my eyes in AS levels and coursework! NOT FUN! As a peace offering for my absence I've made this chapter reeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaally long. I think it's about twelve pages! So I hope you enjoy! Read and review! Tell me what you think! Reviews are what keep me going!

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Snake xx