Disclamer: I don't own CCS
In the End
Summary: It hurt
so much when the world rejected her. It hurt even more when he didn't
love her back. Her descision? She would kill herself. Secretly, no one
would ever know. She didn't want them to.
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'Are you sure you want to make such a choice?' asked the voice in her head.
"What other choice do I have?" She said, her tears blurring her vision.
"By nightfall, Kinomoto Sakura will be no more."
'Just because he doesn't love you?'
"No, because I don't belong anywhere."
'Don't... someone will need you.'
"But it hurts too much to stay here. I want to leave. Can't you understand?"
'Yes I do. I understand the pain, but I can't understand the choice you chose.'
"It's complicated, but this pain hurts too much. It stings so badly. I want it all to stop. It hurts. Alot. To lose it all."
'Why you though? You're a kind, caring, sweet person.'
"Maybe they don't ned a 'kind, caring, sweet person' in this world."
'Sakura...'
"GOD SHUT UP!"
Tears rolled down her cheek.
"Sakura Kinomoto is no more... Sakura Kinomoto is no more... Sakura Kinomoto is no more... Sakura Kinomoto is no more... Sakura Kinomoto is no more... Sakura Kinomoto is no more... Sakura Kinomoto is no more... Sakura Kinomoto is no more... Sakura Kinomoto is no more... Sakura Kinomoto is no more..."
God. It hurts so much.
Who wouldn't've wanted to wanted it all just to stop?
She carefully corked the the bottle of poison and placed it on her bed side table.
It was four o'clock.
Sakura slid onto her bed and rested her head on her pillow.
"It hurts so much inside, and outside. Everything pains so heavilly. It's too hard to explain this emotion I feel at the pit of my heart. It's like it's dragging my heart down."
New tears sprung from her eyes.
They trickling down her cheeks and sunk into her pillow.
"I hate this, I hate this all."
But she didn't.
Everyone and thing else hated her.
End of story.
Memories flooded into her mind, making her cry even harder into her pillow.
((Flashback))
"Touya? What's wrong?"
She was worried: Why WAS her older brother...crying?
"SAKURA JUST GO AWAY AND LET ME THINK OK?" He yelled.
Her bottom lip trembled but she went off reluctantly.
When she reached the stairs her stop-mother cornered her.
"Where do you think you are going?" She said.
"I-I'm going to see otau-san."
"You don't have an otau-san anymore."
"Hoe?"
"I killed him. So now you must listen to me."
That explained Touya... kinda.
"YOU WHAT?"
Her step-mother hit her with a bat.
"Don't use that tone with me!"
Sakura ran upstairs, tears running down her face.
"I'm going to Tomoyo... she'll help me."
Sakura climbed out the window.
She walked to Tomoyo's house which was a couple blocks away. ((Tomoyo is 19 BTW))
She pushed the doorbell.
"Oh, hi Aunt Sonomi. Is Tomoyo there?"
Sonomi's face fell.
"Eh? What's wrong?"
Sonomi gave her a note then slammed the door in Sakura's face.
Sakura blinked then unfolded the note.
It read:
Dear Sakura.
The truth is that I was never really your friend. I've always hated you, but since you were popular and stuff back then I just hung with you so I could be popular too. Your prekiness was stupid and you look ugly as h311 and I never want to see your face for the rest of my freakin life!
Lots of Hate,
Tomoyo
PS I've left Japan and run off with Eriol to unkown places and you better not find me
Sakura's heart tore like the note she ripped in half.
"She f-faked m-me!"
Her heart sunk even deeper.
Then it also hit her, when Sonomi had looked at her hate was painted all over her aunt's face.
"N-nobody l-likes me a-anymore. Wait, Chiharu, Naoko, and Rika!"
Just then the three girls walked down the street.
"Hey, guys!"
The group walked faster.
"Wait for me!"
"We're trying to avoid that bstrd!" Chiharu barked.
"We never liked you Sakura, you're sooo naive." Rika added.
"You're a b!tch." Naoko retorted.
The three walked away, each slapping her before they did.
"W-what's going on?" Sakura asked, tears streamin down her face.
((End of Flashback))"How can something I thought I had gotten over with still hurt/haunt me so much?" Sakura inquired.
It was like someone ripped her very soul, very heart, right out of her body.
Her eyes were sore and red from all teh times she had wiped away her tears.
Her nose was running but she didn't care anymore.
She wanted out. Right now.
She wanted all the pain to stop. Right then.
It was 10 o'clock now.
"Two more hours..." She whispered.
"Shaoran..." She said.
She still loved him, but he would never have the same feelings towards her...
((Flashback))
"So Sakura, why'd you want me to meet you here." Syaoran asked when they reached the park.
"W-well I-I w-wanted t-to tell you t-th-that Iloveyou."
Syaoran looked at her awkwardly.
"What?"
"I-I er... I.. ano.. I lo-love y-you."
Syaoran looked at her again.
Then laughed, it was the joking laugh or warm laugh Syaoran cracked when she was around.
It was cold, and insulting. Most importantly: hurting.
"HAHAHA SAKURA HAHAHAHA I WOULD HAHAHA NEVER HAVE HAHAHA THOSE HAHAHA FEELINGS HAHAHA TO-TOWARDS A- A- HAHAHA NERD!"
Syaoran rolled over.
When he stopped laughing he smirked at her.
"You need to stop dreamin. From this point on though,"
He looked at her darkly.
"I never want to see that face again. I love Mina, and she loves me. I don't need a third wheel."
Syaoran walked off, laughing along.
Sakura's heart fell.
It broke into a million pieces.
Pieces that would never be found.
Tears were forming behind her eyes.
Yet so many different emotions were in that single drop, hate, pain, depression, anger...
((End of Flashback))
More tears sprung from her eyes.
It didn't look right.
To take someone as kind as and caring as Sakura and give them h3ll.
Tears hold more the rain.
Even if they are smaller.
Her heart pounded faster and faster.
It was 11:55.
She uncorked the bottle of poison as more tears dripped down her face.
I'm not all that sure why she's doing this.
I understand pain.
I understand the sinking feeling in her heart.
I understand it all...
...but why must the path mean this sweet, compassionte person has to die?
It's not right.
... and for sure, it's not all that fair either.
How this is actually happening, but it is.
11:58
She rose the bottle closer to her lips.
12:00
She poured the liquid into her mouth.
The taste was rancid, and tasted like sh!t.
12:01
The bottle was empty now.
She shakilly moved her hand to place the bottle on her table, but she only dropped it onto the ground.
It smashed like her heart did.
12:05
Her breathing started to slow and extended.
Her systems seemed to fall.
Her eyelids became very heavy.
'It's working..' she thought.
She couldn't open her mouth.
She didn't even have it in her to shed a single tear.
It hurts so much right now.
But it had to happen.
12:10
Her eyes snapped shut and her breathing ceased.
She lost consiousness, her brain fell into nothingness.
12:15
It was done.
She was dead.
She had locked all the doors and ways in.
Also covering them with layers and layers of brick, cement and etc.
To make absolutely sure no one would find her she had sealed the entrances with all the magic she had in her body.
She laid on her bed.
Pale.
But somehow...
someway...
A tiny drop of liquid fell from her eye and sunk into her pillow.
The story of Kinomoto Sakura.
The story of so much pain taken on a girl who was once loved.
The girl who killed herself, and no one ever knew.
Nobody came by to visit.
No one got curious or suspicious by her sudden disappearence.
That showed how much they really cared.
Not at all.
So, in the end there isn't always a happy ending.
There's an ending but it's not happy all the time.
When one must scrafice so much, because of all the hate.
All the pain.
All the hurts.
In the End.
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Hope you enjoyed this.... NO FLAMES! I HAVE ENOUGH OF THOSE THINGS!