Disclaimer: I OWN NOTHING!!! I WISH I DID COZ THEN I'D JUST MAKE DAN RADCLIFFE MY MAN SLAVE!!!! LOL!!!....I WONDER IF THAT WOULD WORK…*LOOKS THOUGHTFULL*

A/N: EXCUSE THE MADNESS, FEELING A BIT…GOOD, CAN'T THINK OF ANY OTHER WAY TO DESCRIBE IT!!! I HOPE THE UPLOADING ON THIS DOESN'T GO BAD, IN CASE IT DOES I'LL SPLIT THIS CHAPTER INTO TWO BITS, BUT NO WORRIES BECAUSE I'LL POST THEM BOTH STRAIGHT AWAY!!!

Chapter 11

"You are dismissed!" shouted Monoghen over the top of the class. Quickly they obeyed, no one ever wanted to be the last student left in the classroom with Professor Monoghen.

Lily took one look at James who was vanishing the remnants of contents of his cauldron. They locked eyes and all the bustle of the classroom was dimmed out, like a haze, it was there but it just isn't important.

James immediately felt Lily's eyes burn into him. He looked up to meet her wondering gaze and felt entranced as he fell into the pools of Emerald water.

Lily wasn't aware that she was staring, neither was she aware that Roxie was trying to get her attention by calling her name. She wasn't aware of anything except for the fact that she seemed to have thousands of butterflies in her stomach and fluttering through her veins until…

"OW! Roxie! That hurt, what was that for?" Lily snapped in Roxie's general direction. Roxie looked hurt for a split second before regaining her mask of comical indifference.

"I was snapping you out of your Potter Party. Come on Lils! You promised me we'd be able to talk about what happened last night, and we need to talk about what you are going to do at this weeks Hogsmeade trip." She whispered, her impatience starting to clearly show.

"Shit! Ok, I'm coming, God Rox, I'm so sorry I completely zoned out that whole period. I should really wake up…I guess I'm still shocked about last night…about everything." She put a gentle hand on Roxie's wrist and squeezed in softly. Roxie smiled weakly in return. For a moment she let her mask down but soon had it back up when she saw Lily sneak a quick glance at James.

Despite feeling like wanting to crawl into a hole and sleep there forever, the sight of Lily's face warmed her on the inside. There was a look of pure innocent wonder and calculation in her features. As if she were entranced yet judging all at once. Once again Roxie had to break Lily out of her reverie by giving her a quick tap on the shoulder. Lily shook her head and smiled.

"Come on, we can go to my room, we'll talk there." She smiled kindly at Roxie while leading her out by linking her arm through her best friend's.

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Roxie sat on Lily's bed while Lily put her book bag away. When this task was finally done Lily sat opposite Roxie.

"What happened Rox? Why did it happen? What went so wrong?" Anxiously she looked at the blonde. She noticed the change in her that had occurred, the normal upbeat and in-your-face Roxie was no where in sight. In place was this small, innocent girl who looked desperate for a hug. That thought struck Lily and she then realised the extent at which Roxie had been hurt.

"Son of a…Roxie, please tell me? What happened?" Lily looked inquisitively at Roxie. She took a deep breath and started to reply.

"Ok, well you know my plan last night? To get Sirius? Well, it was going great until it seriously back fired right into my face. I want to say this now though before I go into the story, I know that some of it was my fault I wont deny that…as much as I want to." She took another deep breath to gather her thoughts then carried on.

"Well, okay. It all started when I had too much to drink and I decided that I was horny and I wanted Sirius then. And when I say then I mean I would have shagged him senseless on the dance floor if I had to. However, me being me, I had to play some sort of game with him first…god I'm so stupid."

"Well, you know when we were on the dance floor together and then I left to dance on my own? That's because of Sirius. He saw me and got jealous because I wasn't dancing with him. I thought this was really amusing so I decided instead to put him out of his misery I decided to drive him mad with want and jealousy. Everyone knows that the best shag is when it feels kind of restricted and forbidden…" she trailed off again thinking of Sirius and that…that slut and how they were trying to hide against the wall.

"Anyway, then he grabbed this bimbo, fucking, ass hole, bitch faced slut! And started dancing with her. It became a competition. Who would be the most daring and push the boundaries the furthest. Well, you know what me and Sirius are like; we enjoy a challenge no matter of the consequences." She whispered her last sentence. She always did that when admitting her true feelings as if it pained her to do so.

"Well I guess I won the game. I kissed the guy I was with. I don't know why, I don't know what possessed me to…all I know is that I did it and I regret even considering doing it. Afterwards I felt really ill and I ran outside and ended up spewing down an alley way. Trust, it's not a nice experience especially when you do this…" she held a bit of her hair out of the way of her temple and Lily saw a large bruise there for the first time.

Lily gasped. Roxie actually laughed softly. "I guess the first time I wretched I was a little bit close to the wall." Lily smiled softly.

"So anyway, I was feeling a bit better so I decided I would go find Sirius. I was still horny so I thought you know, 'what the hell! I bet I still look gorgeous'" She trailed of into silence again before looking up to meet Lily's gaze.

"I guess I found him sooner then I thought. That's when I ran into the town centre and found you and James devouring each others' faces! Lil, what do I do about Sirius? I know it was partially my fault, but he has some blame as well. But I really like him. Roxie then remembered a snippet of conversation that she had had with Lily before they had even stepped into the bar.

"You know I didn't mean it like that Roxie, I mean you really like him. It's more then just lust, isn't it?"

I really do Lils, I can't help it anymore. I really like him, but how do I know that he's not going to love me and leave me. I don't think I could take that."

"Aww babe, you know he wouldn't do that, you're much too important to him for him to hurt you."

She snorted at the last sentence that Lily had said on the subject until now.

'Wont hurt me… my arse he wont!' Roxie thought to herself.

'Come on, you know you were out of line as well, remember that look in his eyes? He's just as hurt as you are.' Pleaded the voice in her head.

'Yeah, I know you're right as usual…hey! I thought I told you to leave me alone! ...Bloody Conscience'

She groaned and buried her head in Lily's bed and there she stayed till Lily spoke again.

"Well Roxie, there's only one thing that you can do about this. You need to get over it. I propose you do that by going with Sirius to Hogsmeade but coming with me and James as well. Don't give me that look, James and I do need to sort things out but so do you and Sirius. Anyways, we may need each other's support."

"You're right Lils." Roxie said determinedly looking at her best friend before adopting a glazed look and smiling slightly. Lily knew she was thinking about the object of her desire.

"You really do like him don't you? I really is more then just lust isn't it?" She spoke softly, her piercing gaze enough to rival Professor Dumbledore's. Roxie looked away. It seemed Lily remembered their conversation as well.

Roxie sighed again. "You know the answer to that Lils. I really like him…hell… it really wouldn't surprise me that, judging by the pain I felt last night, that I was starting to feel more for him then just… liking." She blushed a little and buried her head back into Lily's bed sheets.

"Oh my god Rox. Are saying that… are you falling for Sirius Black?" she asked disbelievingly.

Roxie lifted her head finally and replied in a defeated, pain streaked voice. Tears starting to roll down her face.

"Hook, line and sodding, sinker."