A/N: HEY GUYS! FIRSTLY I WANT TO APPOLOGISE FOR TAKING SO LONG, I DIDN'T REALISE SO MUCH TIME HAD GONE BY! SECONDLY, I WANT TO THANK MY REVIEWERS, NEWAND OLD, FOR BEING SO KIND IN THE REGARDS TO MY STORY! SPEAKING OF WHICH, LET'S CARRY ON!

Chapter 15

Remus and Jess lay in his bed snuggled up and warm.

"I'm so glad we decided to skip Hogsmeade, we got the place to ourselves and we didn't have to act as moderators between the children. I wonder how they got on today." He added thoughtfully.

Jess smiled into his muscular shoulder. She loved the way he called them 'the children.' She liked the thought of having children with Remus, but she's never admit to that just yet. He always referred to the rest of the group as 'the children.' She didn't know when it started but it defiantly made sense. Remus and Jess always took on a sort of parent role and would normally end up resolving their little arguments for them.

Remus sighed contentedly, but then thought of the initial reason for asking Jess to be with just him today. A knot of dread formed in his stomach and started going over a speech in his head that he had been preparing for months.

Jess felt him tense ever so slightly and looked up into his reflective amber eyes. They were clouded with doubt. She saw this occurring in him more often of late. But every time she asked him about it he would shake his head and deny anything. She would let the subject alone until the next time. Once again she felt inclined to ask him.

"Remus, Hun, what's troubling you?" she asked softly, trailing lazy patterns over his bare chest.

"Oh…um…nothing, just a bit tired." He lied. He started to kick himself.

'Why can I never tell her?!' he asked himself pleadingly. A voice answered.

'Because you know that she'll never love you when she knows what you are…you're a monster.'

It was on rare occasions that Jessica Nix got angry, but this was one of them. He had been bottling something up, keeping it from her, but now, now she was pissed. She pulled herself away from him and started to get dressed. Not once turning around to look at him. Remus looked distressed.

"Hey! Hey, baby girl, where are you going? Why are you angry at me?" he asked, full well knowing the answer.

"You're keeping something from me Remus J Lupin, and until you decide to tell me what is troubling you I'm going to be staying in my own dorm." She replied coldly. She stared around the room and started to enchant her belongings to pack themselves.

"I'm not keeping anything from you…honestly." He replied, not looking away from his hands that he was nervously wringing in his lap.

"That's absolute bloody bullshit Remus and you know it is." He frowned. She was starting to get really worked up about this. She continued to enchant things, occasionally throwing a few things in manually just to vent some frustration.

He winced. She never swore unless she was upset.

"Jess sweet heart, stop packing and come and sit down…please?" he asked her quietly, he was going to tell her. He started to run through his speech in his head, but found that it had annoyingly decided to elude his brain.

"No!" she replied stubbornly, "I'm not going to do anything unless you tell me what's bothering you! I've been nice up to now… but I've had enough. It seems that lately after we've had sex you seem to get all down hearted! Am I really that bad? Or is that you just don't trust me to keep your stupid little secret!" she ended up shouting the last word at him, but immediately regretted it. The hurt that flashed through his eyes was quickly replaced by anger, and he did something that he had never done before. He shouted at her.

"FOR FUCK'S SAKE JESS! IF YOU LET ME GET A WORD IN EDGE WISE YOU'LL SEE THAT I AM TRYING TO EXPLAIN TO YOU BUT I'M HAVING A LITTLE DIFFICULTY! NOW, IF YOU WOULD BE SO KIND AS TO SIT DOWN AND STOP PACKING THEN I WILL BE ABLE TO TELL YOU MY STUPID LITTLE SECRET!" He finished shouting at her and was left panting. Jess looked at him with shock evident on her face. She shakily moved over to the bed and gingerly sat down on the edge.

She looked him in the eye. "So, explain then." She said neutrally. He took a deep breath to calm himself and then started to speak with his heart.

"Well, you see Jess. It's just that…well. This isn't going to be easy-"

"Are you going to break up with me?" she asked quietly.

"NO! Merlin no, I just hope you don't break up with me once I'm done." He took another breath to steady himself.

"Jess, how long have we been together?"

"Well, its December now, we broke up for holidays in June. So about six months."

"Exactly. Jess this is the longest and best relationship I've ever had. You were my first in so many things and what I feel for you now… I have to tell you. I've been wanting to, but before I give you my heart…I have to know that you'll accept me for who, and what, I am." He finished quietly, not once breaking the eye contact.

Jess just sat there wide eyed, she knew what he wanted to say. He was going to tell her he loved her. The words she had wanted to hear for so long. She had been in love with Remus since the day he had admitted his feelings to her and long before that.

But there was something standing in his way.

"I'm not what you think I am." He said softly.

Jess gasped and took his hands in her own, all previous angst forgotten.

"You are exactly what I think you are. You are caring, sensitive, funny, loving and not to mention the fact that you have a body that practically makes me faint every time I see it. And don't forget your eyes, the most beautiful things I have ever seen. That's what you are to me. And I know that that isn't a lie."

She smiled softly at him then realised his hands were shaking and he wouldn't make eye contact with her. She lifted his chin gently with one of her fingers and made him look at her. She gasped again when she realised that there were tears in the eyes she had just described.

Tears welled up into her own.

"Remus, please tell me what's wrong. What's troubling you?"

"The reason I haven't been myself for a little while, is because I realised the depth as to how mush I care about you. The reason I'm not what you think I am because I…I have a tainted soul."

"Remus, you have the purest heart and soul of anyone I have ever met."

"No, no Jess, please listen. I really do, you see I was in an accident when I was about seven years old…and the results of that…well you see, um, I'm a monster Jess…I'm a…a…" he released a breath he didn't realise he was holding.

"I'm a werewolf."

Lily walked dejectedly into her common room. She felt angry, sad, helpless and above all hurt.

Her heart had wrenched when she saw James face. He had worn his heart on his chest and she had stomped all over it. But hadn't he done the same to her?

She closed her eyes and winced when she remembered the pain she had gone through, she was nearly going through it again now, but now James was going through it. She would never wish that amount of pain on anyone.

He had feelings for James; she would even go as far as to say that she loved him. But this she would only admit to herself when she felt bare and emotionally drained. At times like these it was easier to accept then fight.

But now, now she had lost him for good.

She sat down on a plush sofa and realised that Remus's door was locked…again.

'Coming to think about it, Remus and Jess weren't even in Hogsmeade, good to know that at least some of us can find love'

She picked up one of her favourite novels, a muggle one. 'Romeo and Juliet' by Shakespeare.

She started reading but then threw it down in annoyance. Normally the tragedy made her heart soar through the clouds. The beauty of it. How they had died for one another, in the name of love.

'How can I read this when I feel like shit?' she asked herself.

She sighed and decided to have a hot bath to help clear her head.

"You're a what?" Jess asked, shock sewn through her voice.

"A werewolf. Look, I understand if you don't want to see me anymore. I'm a monster." Self hatred was coursing through his veins like electricity through a circuit. She could see it written on his face, in the eyes that she adored so much.

'How can such a gentle human being be such a thing? Its not possible, its not fair! Why him, why did he have to be bitten. He doesn't deserve that. Well, there's only one thing I can do.'

She looked him straight in the eye and he could see defiance written over her face.

"You're right, you are a monster." Remus felt his throat constrict, how could she be so cruel?

She laughed softly, and took his hand once again.

"But you're my monster. And you know what? I can now understand how you can be such an animal in bed."

She smiled warmly at him, and his spirit soared. Tears that threatened him earlier now rolled down his cheeks, but he wasn't ashamed. He had just told her he was a werewolf, and she didn't care, she had said that he was her monster. He looked at her lovingly.

"You know what? I think you're last comment was somewhat inappropriate; I am not an animal in bed. In fact sometimes I have to really hold back just so that I don't ravish you in the way my instincts tell me to."

He saw her eyes darken with desire.

"I love you Jess, I want to be with you forever."

"I love you too, Remus. And I want to be with you forever as well."

They smiled broadly at each other and then leaned in for a searing kiss. Jess broke away and got out of the bed. He looked at her perplexed. He was about to ask her what she was doing until he was silenced with her actions.

She started to strip of her clothes, slowly, teasingly. His mouth became so dry that swallowing became a task.

When she was completely naked she went back over to the bed and sat opposite him. She pulled him into another passionate, somewhat desperate, kiss.

She pulled away and put her mouth by his ear.

"Make love to me Remus, but this time, don't hold back, go with your instincts, I want to feel the wolf inside of you."

He could hardly believe what he was hearing. So he did the one thing that was right.

He obeyed.

A/N: WOO! ANOTHER CHAPTER, SORRY THEY'RE SO SHORT, I WOULD LIKE TO MAKE THEM LONGER BUT IF I DO THEN THE UPLOADING REALLY GOES WRONG! THIS CHAPTER WAS MORE BASED AROUND THE JESS/REMUS AS I FEEL I'VE NEGLECTED THEM A BIT! HOPE YOU LIKE! REVIEW!!!

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