Ok, here's three. I kno it took forever but a had a major block! I mean, it's really REALLY hard to think of Jimmy and Cindy as grown up.
I want to thank all of my reviewers, they kept me from stopping!!! I promise to end this fic with a good bang ((no this isnt the last chpt!!)) Thank you, all of you, you keep me going!!!
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And here's the continuation?
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James was confused after the final bell rang. Cindy and him barely had the same classes. The last period class was torture for them both.
James was nervous. So far, it seemed no body had seen them during their impulsive burst of passion in the library.
But how would he know? He combed his fingers through spiky brown hair. He had to keep focus. He looked up on his way to his old car. His lips turned into a smile involuntarily. Cindy was sitting on the hood of the car, sucking a lollipop, eyes sparkling at him.
They both had experienced an epiphany of lust together.
Twice.
It was a deep set hunger, a near necessity to feed off each other. His insides churned and he knew that she saw it. And he was relieved to see the same in her. He hoped it wasn't an illusion but it was there. That fire in her eyes, her beautiful emerald eyes.
He couldn't control his actions. He combed his fingers into her hair and pulled her into a deep lip-locking kiss. She groaned into him, lollipop falling from her fingers and onto the ground, forgotten. What she tasted in his mouth was far sweeter.
They pulled back and breathed heavily. "Cind-"
"I'm breaking up with Nick, tonight." she murmured. Jimmy choked and coughed. Cindy smiled and traced his jaw. "Don't get too happy?"
"Really? For me?" James stammered, confused and happy all at once. She nodded, a gleam to her face.
"I know you can make me happy, Jimmy!" she nuzzled into his chest, sliding off the car. He wrapped his arms around her, shocked.
Wait. Him? Make her happy? He frowned. He liked her. A lot. Hell, he loved her. She was gorgeous and smart. But a relationship?
Cindy felt the stiffness in Jame's muscles. She pulled back, and looked at him with a confused look in her eyes. "What's wrong?"
He met her eyes. God she was perfect.
He didn't deserve her beauty. He looked away. "Cindy... I'm not... I'm not worth-" he tried but her fingers pressed against his lips.
"I can decided for myself who's worthy or not." He stepped back.
"Cindy, listen, hold off the Nick thing. Just... until you're sure, ok?" Cindy furrowed her brows.
"James, I'm no slut. I don't want to be with him AND you. " She shook her head, stepping back.
James suddenly felt overly cautious. Anyone could hear. He opened the passenger door. "Get in. We'll talk on the way home."
She scoffed and threw herself in. He sighed and slammed the door. Great. See? This was why they couldn't be together. They argued too much! How could they undo years of rivalry and hatred in two moments of physical lust? This just... didn't feel right.
And plus, she was distracting. He hadn't acknowledged it yet but she already made him forget about his mother. He couldn't afford that. He needed to save her before...
But he was here and now. And all he could think about was making this less... complicated. "Cynthia-"
"Don't you Cynthia me, Neutron." she scowled, a pigment of the old Cindy he knew burning in each word.
"See?" he scowled. "That's why? You and I have always, I mean always hated-"
"I never hated you." Cindy said softly. Silence fell. James parked the car in front of Cindy's. "I-.... you said you loved me."
Damn it. Did he? He wished he hadn't. "Well..." he began.
She turned at him, aghast. "Don't you.... of my GOD!" she exclaimed, "You said-... you bastard, you sniveling low-life cur!" she snapped.
James glared at her. "That, Cindy, is my point." he snapped back. the two had a different fire burning in their eyes,a familiar fire that always erupted between them.
She scoffed, tears falling. Silence fell. God he hated silence.
"Cindy....." he said slowly. He turned to her. She met his eyes, hurt evident in them. He exhaled. "I-... I can't-" he took a deep breath. "I have too much going on right now. I can't-" he tried but Cindy shook her head.
"I don't want to hear it." She opened the door and left. jimmy cursed and hit the wheel, accidently honking the horn.
He forgot to pick up Clara.
- - -
The dinner table was silent. Judy was pale but forced a smile as clara ate up her peas. Hugh seemed lost and confused as he stared at his glass. Jimmy's mind was preoccupied with Cindy.
Judy cleared her throat. "So, James, how was school?"
"Humph." he murmured as he shrugged. Clarabelle frowned.
"Cindy from across the street was 'spose to come over today and play dolls with me. i guess she forgot." she said disappointedly. Jimmy winced. She probably forgot because of him.
No one replied. Clarabelle squirmed. "Mommy, why are you sick?" she asked softly. Judy dropped her spoon and Hugh looked over to the girl.
James couldn't take it. He had to get out. He got up abruptly and left the house, hearing the sobs of his mother and the startled gasp of his sister follow after him.
It was a cold night. A beautifully clear and wonderful night. And yet so much was wrong.
He wished he had allowed Cindy to break up with Nick so that they could be happy but...
But he didn't have the right to be happy! There was his mother's cancer, His father's new taste for alcohol and the innocent naivetŽ of his baby sister. Cindy was so intoxicating it was distracting. He couldn't afford distractions... so he panicked.
He looked over to Cindy's house. There were no cars in the driveway. But the light in her room was on. He wanted to go over to her house... he wanted to apologize and tell her he wanted to be with her. He wanted too much he wasn't entitled to.
But damn did he want her bad. He got to his car and opened the door.
His father wasn't the only one with a new found desire for alcohol. James drove away from both the home he found falling apart and the dominion of the center of his desires.
If he could only clear his mind.... He could return to what's important. He could focus on finding a cure for his mother.
He arrived at the bar. He had saved Retroville so many times that this place trusted him when he said the drinks weren't for him. Idiots. He bought two six-packs and left. He drove to the park and found a little spot surrounded by shrubbery under the shade of a healthy oak. Traces of his last drinking binge could still be found.
He slumped down against the tree. Just a couple of beers should do...
- - -
"Cindy, you have to tell me what's wrong!" Libby demanded. Libby's red streaked braids were pulled back in a ponytail. She wore a black tank top and faded hip-huggers. Cindy was just in an oversized T-shirt and shorts.
Cindy wiped her cheeks. "Nothing, forget it. i-... I'm fine." she said, trying to convince her best friend. The cocoa skinned girl sat on the blonde's bed. She looked at her sympathetically. Cindy walked to the window. Jimmy's car was missing. Hugh was on the porch, nursing a bottle of beer in one hand and the other cradling his sobbing face. Clara's room was dark and Judy was probably in her room, crying as well.
Cindy was so stupid! How could she be so selfish? She felt guilty for having pushed a relationship upon James then.
She took a deep breath. But he said he loved her. she believed him. and she loved him. So why couldn't they be together?
"Is it Nick?"
"No... no not at all." she shrugged.
"'Cause if he's pressuring you again, i'll go black on his ass and teach him a lesson!!" snapped Libby as she walked to her best friend. Cindy laughed hollowly.
"Don't worry, Libs. It's just... the Neutrons."
"Oh..." Libby whispered and frowned. "Yes, it is sad. The house is falling apart over there isn't it?" Libby asked as she looked out the window as well. Cindy nodded. She turned to her friend.
"Hey, I'm exhausted." she murmured. Libby stepped away from the window and walked over to the chair where her jacket was.
"Yeah me to. I'll go home. Call me before you pick me up tomorrow!" Cindy nodded as Libby left.
Cindy sat on her bed and hugged her pillow. What could she do? She hoped there was something she could do.
She felt disgusted with herself. She slept with him without...
But it wasn't her fault! He had so much on his plate... She lifted her head. He needed a shoulder to cry on... she provided it and more.
And for a few moments he was happy. He had forgotten his pain. She sighed. she'd give him space. For now they needed to breathe. To rethink what happened and what they meant to each other.
Just as she had resolved herself and prepared to turn in for the night, she heard a knock on her door. She checked the time. It was nearly one in the morning. Her parents were in the Bahamas for four weeks.
She left her room and walked down stairs. She opened the door to see Jimmy. She froze. He was slouched, his eyes blood shot and cheeks tear stained. "Cindy..." he slurred.
"J-" before she could ask, his lips crashed into hers. She groaned and stumbled back. He moved with her and kicked the door closed.
She pushed him back. "What the hell?!" she snapped. He stared at her, heaving. "What do you think I am?"
"I-.." he ran his fingers nervously through his hair then reached to garb her. "I need you, Cindy..." he murmured into her neck. "I need this... I need help..." he pleaded as his fingers kneaded into her sides. She whimpered.
"James, I can't-"
"Please... I can fix this, I can fix us... I promise. What I said before, I didn't... I was just, I AM afraid." Jimmy stammered. Cindy stared at him as he went on. "Cindy... I do love you... so much... but I'm afraid to be with you. You... you make me... happy. You make me forget... but I can't forgot, I have no right to be happy when-"
"Sh." she whispered, tears falling down her cheeks. She pressed her fingers to his lips. "It's ok... i under stand."
She understood that he needed her now in the same way he did their first time. She pressed her lips to his. She'd give herself willingly then. He did love her, she believed it with all her might. And she knew he would fix them. But things were so complicated...
She pushed all thoughts from her mind as he pressed her against the wall. He pulled back a little. "I'm sorry..."
She nodded as he lifted her shirt. He was gentle with her, a little clumsy but gentle. Sensations ran through her and reality faded away. All she remembered was ecstasy... completion. All she wanted to know was now.. and him. The rest of the world stood still at the wake of their lust.
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End!
Well I hope that satisfies you guys!!! I'll try to update ASAP!!! Just had a lot of personal issues to deal with! ;)
What will happen now? hm... I'll get back to you on that -
I want to thank all of my reviewers, they kept me from stopping!!! I promise to end this fic with a good bang ((no this isnt the last chpt!!)) Thank you, all of you, you keep me going!!!
For the sparse flamers, lucky me, you make me happy that you'd waste time venting at me. At least you read the fic and it must be good enough if you read it, right? ;)
And here's the continuation?
Disclaimer: DDDDDDDDUUUUUUUUUUUUHHHHHH!!
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James was confused after the final bell rang. Cindy and him barely had the same classes. The last period class was torture for them both.
James was nervous. So far, it seemed no body had seen them during their impulsive burst of passion in the library.
But how would he know? He combed his fingers through spiky brown hair. He had to keep focus. He looked up on his way to his old car. His lips turned into a smile involuntarily. Cindy was sitting on the hood of the car, sucking a lollipop, eyes sparkling at him.
They both had experienced an epiphany of lust together.
Twice.
It was a deep set hunger, a near necessity to feed off each other. His insides churned and he knew that she saw it. And he was relieved to see the same in her. He hoped it wasn't an illusion but it was there. That fire in her eyes, her beautiful emerald eyes.
He couldn't control his actions. He combed his fingers into her hair and pulled her into a deep lip-locking kiss. She groaned into him, lollipop falling from her fingers and onto the ground, forgotten. What she tasted in his mouth was far sweeter.
They pulled back and breathed heavily. "Cind-"
"I'm breaking up with Nick, tonight." she murmured. Jimmy choked and coughed. Cindy smiled and traced his jaw. "Don't get too happy?"
"Really? For me?" James stammered, confused and happy all at once. She nodded, a gleam to her face.
"I know you can make me happy, Jimmy!" she nuzzled into his chest, sliding off the car. He wrapped his arms around her, shocked.
Wait. Him? Make her happy? He frowned. He liked her. A lot. Hell, he loved her. She was gorgeous and smart. But a relationship?
Cindy felt the stiffness in Jame's muscles. She pulled back, and looked at him with a confused look in her eyes. "What's wrong?"
He met her eyes. God she was perfect.
He didn't deserve her beauty. He looked away. "Cindy... I'm not... I'm not worth-" he tried but her fingers pressed against his lips.
"I can decided for myself who's worthy or not." He stepped back.
"Cindy, listen, hold off the Nick thing. Just... until you're sure, ok?" Cindy furrowed her brows.
"James, I'm no slut. I don't want to be with him AND you. " She shook her head, stepping back.
James suddenly felt overly cautious. Anyone could hear. He opened the passenger door. "Get in. We'll talk on the way home."
She scoffed and threw herself in. He sighed and slammed the door. Great. See? This was why they couldn't be together. They argued too much! How could they undo years of rivalry and hatred in two moments of physical lust? This just... didn't feel right.
And plus, she was distracting. He hadn't acknowledged it yet but she already made him forget about his mother. He couldn't afford that. He needed to save her before...
But he was here and now. And all he could think about was making this less... complicated. "Cynthia-"
"Don't you Cynthia me, Neutron." she scowled, a pigment of the old Cindy he knew burning in each word.
"See?" he scowled. "That's why? You and I have always, I mean always hated-"
"I never hated you." Cindy said softly. Silence fell. James parked the car in front of Cindy's. "I-.... you said you loved me."
Damn it. Did he? He wished he hadn't. "Well..." he began.
She turned at him, aghast. "Don't you.... of my GOD!" she exclaimed, "You said-... you bastard, you sniveling low-life cur!" she snapped.
James glared at her. "That, Cindy, is my point." he snapped back. the two had a different fire burning in their eyes,a familiar fire that always erupted between them.
She scoffed, tears falling. Silence fell. God he hated silence.
"Cindy....." he said slowly. He turned to her. She met his eyes, hurt evident in them. He exhaled. "I-... I can't-" he took a deep breath. "I have too much going on right now. I can't-" he tried but Cindy shook her head.
"I don't want to hear it." She opened the door and left. jimmy cursed and hit the wheel, accidently honking the horn.
He forgot to pick up Clara.
- - -
The dinner table was silent. Judy was pale but forced a smile as clara ate up her peas. Hugh seemed lost and confused as he stared at his glass. Jimmy's mind was preoccupied with Cindy.
Judy cleared her throat. "So, James, how was school?"
"Humph." he murmured as he shrugged. Clarabelle frowned.
"Cindy from across the street was 'spose to come over today and play dolls with me. i guess she forgot." she said disappointedly. Jimmy winced. She probably forgot because of him.
No one replied. Clarabelle squirmed. "Mommy, why are you sick?" she asked softly. Judy dropped her spoon and Hugh looked over to the girl.
James couldn't take it. He had to get out. He got up abruptly and left the house, hearing the sobs of his mother and the startled gasp of his sister follow after him.
It was a cold night. A beautifully clear and wonderful night. And yet so much was wrong.
He wished he had allowed Cindy to break up with Nick so that they could be happy but...
But he didn't have the right to be happy! There was his mother's cancer, His father's new taste for alcohol and the innocent naivetŽ of his baby sister. Cindy was so intoxicating it was distracting. He couldn't afford distractions... so he panicked.
He looked over to Cindy's house. There were no cars in the driveway. But the light in her room was on. He wanted to go over to her house... he wanted to apologize and tell her he wanted to be with her. He wanted too much he wasn't entitled to.
But damn did he want her bad. He got to his car and opened the door.
His father wasn't the only one with a new found desire for alcohol. James drove away from both the home he found falling apart and the dominion of the center of his desires.
If he could only clear his mind.... He could return to what's important. He could focus on finding a cure for his mother.
He arrived at the bar. He had saved Retroville so many times that this place trusted him when he said the drinks weren't for him. Idiots. He bought two six-packs and left. He drove to the park and found a little spot surrounded by shrubbery under the shade of a healthy oak. Traces of his last drinking binge could still be found.
He slumped down against the tree. Just a couple of beers should do...
- - -
"Cindy, you have to tell me what's wrong!" Libby demanded. Libby's red streaked braids were pulled back in a ponytail. She wore a black tank top and faded hip-huggers. Cindy was just in an oversized T-shirt and shorts.
Cindy wiped her cheeks. "Nothing, forget it. i-... I'm fine." she said, trying to convince her best friend. The cocoa skinned girl sat on the blonde's bed. She looked at her sympathetically. Cindy walked to the window. Jimmy's car was missing. Hugh was on the porch, nursing a bottle of beer in one hand and the other cradling his sobbing face. Clara's room was dark and Judy was probably in her room, crying as well.
Cindy was so stupid! How could she be so selfish? She felt guilty for having pushed a relationship upon James then.
She took a deep breath. But he said he loved her. she believed him. and she loved him. So why couldn't they be together?
"Is it Nick?"
"No... no not at all." she shrugged.
"'Cause if he's pressuring you again, i'll go black on his ass and teach him a lesson!!" snapped Libby as she walked to her best friend. Cindy laughed hollowly.
"Don't worry, Libs. It's just... the Neutrons."
"Oh..." Libby whispered and frowned. "Yes, it is sad. The house is falling apart over there isn't it?" Libby asked as she looked out the window as well. Cindy nodded. She turned to her friend.
"Hey, I'm exhausted." she murmured. Libby stepped away from the window and walked over to the chair where her jacket was.
"Yeah me to. I'll go home. Call me before you pick me up tomorrow!" Cindy nodded as Libby left.
Cindy sat on her bed and hugged her pillow. What could she do? She hoped there was something she could do.
She felt disgusted with herself. She slept with him without...
But it wasn't her fault! He had so much on his plate... She lifted her head. He needed a shoulder to cry on... she provided it and more.
And for a few moments he was happy. He had forgotten his pain. She sighed. she'd give him space. For now they needed to breathe. To rethink what happened and what they meant to each other.
Just as she had resolved herself and prepared to turn in for the night, she heard a knock on her door. She checked the time. It was nearly one in the morning. Her parents were in the Bahamas for four weeks.
She left her room and walked down stairs. She opened the door to see Jimmy. She froze. He was slouched, his eyes blood shot and cheeks tear stained. "Cindy..." he slurred.
"J-" before she could ask, his lips crashed into hers. She groaned and stumbled back. He moved with her and kicked the door closed.
She pushed him back. "What the hell?!" she snapped. He stared at her, heaving. "What do you think I am?"
"I-.." he ran his fingers nervously through his hair then reached to garb her. "I need you, Cindy..." he murmured into her neck. "I need this... I need help..." he pleaded as his fingers kneaded into her sides. She whimpered.
"James, I can't-"
"Please... I can fix this, I can fix us... I promise. What I said before, I didn't... I was just, I AM afraid." Jimmy stammered. Cindy stared at him as he went on. "Cindy... I do love you... so much... but I'm afraid to be with you. You... you make me... happy. You make me forget... but I can't forgot, I have no right to be happy when-"
"Sh." she whispered, tears falling down her cheeks. She pressed her fingers to his lips. "It's ok... i under stand."
She understood that he needed her now in the same way he did their first time. She pressed her lips to his. She'd give herself willingly then. He did love her, she believed it with all her might. And she knew he would fix them. But things were so complicated...
She pushed all thoughts from her mind as he pressed her against the wall. He pulled back a little. "I'm sorry..."
She nodded as he lifted her shirt. He was gentle with her, a little clumsy but gentle. Sensations ran through her and reality faded away. All she remembered was ecstasy... completion. All she wanted to know was now.. and him. The rest of the world stood still at the wake of their lust.
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End!
Well I hope that satisfies you guys!!! I'll try to update ASAP!!! Just had a lot of personal issues to deal with! ;)
What will happen now? hm... I'll get back to you on that -