::CHAPTER 4::

"Where am I?"

"You're in my old home."

"What? I don't get it." You tried to stand up but then everything around you started spinning.

"Hold on." Shuichi said breaking your fall. "Don't get up." He rested you on a nearby tree.

"Why are we here? Where are Yusuke and the others?"

"Oh they're...somewhere. I took you here coz I need to talk to you."

"Wait. What happened?"

"What can you remember?"

"Well, all I remember is seeing a floating boy with a pacifier and then everything went black. I fainted?"

"Yeah. You did." Shuichi said with a little laugh. "That's Koenma. The flying boy, I mean." Shuichi stood up and started pacing in front of you, his hands clasped behind him. "(Your name), I need to tell you something."

The air around you suddenly felt very tense. "Shuichi, wait. Look, I've known you for what? A day? And here you are surprising me with these things about yourself? I mean, I don't know if I want to know so much. It's hard to say. It's just...I don't know."

"I don't know either." Shuichi lowered his head down. When he looked up, his expression totally changed. "Don't feel special. Coz you're not. Especially not to me." Shuichi turned his head to the side. "It's just that I've learned to trust my instincts. And this time it was simply unavoidable." He was saying the words as if he was actually talking to himself and not to you. "You're just human after all." He stared intensely at you.

The sudden harshness in Shuichi's voice surprised you. Weren't you just laughing and getting along just a few while ago? What really happened? It feels like it is Shuichi, but a totally new side of him, someone he had hidden from many. What's wrong, Shuichi? What does this place have on you that you change so differently? "Shuichi..." You almost reached out to touch him but he cut you off.

"Look at me."

At first you simply looked at him staring fiercely at you. You almost pleaded him not to look at you that way but you fought the urge not to. You wanted to ask what's wrong and tell him you cannot understand but you couldn't get yourself to.

"I'm not all Shuichi Minamino. I have another part of me. I am truly Kurama."

You suddenly remembered all the small details. How could you have not noticed? How couldn't you notice that the others called him differently and on the name, Kurama? How could you have missed that? So much for your being an assassin! How could you just not notice? And why doesn't your friend either?! Maybe it's because it was just there in front of you...obvious and waiting. Maybe you got used to the notion that everything that is important is supposed to be secret. How stupid can you get? But you still didn't see what Shuichi or Kurama wanted you to see... ...

Suddenly, the color of his hair started to change. His clothes to were starting to change. You covered your mouth to prevent yourself from shrieking. You gasped when his hair fully turned snow-white and he totally changed. In front of you, there was a whole new being. You stood up to touch him, only to realize he had grown a few feet more than his usual lead. You touched his cheek softly as if expecting he'd disappear when you do, like a fantasy. He certainly could pass for one. You combed you fingers through his silvery hair and was delighted how smooth it felt. Then you traced your fingers through the outline of his jaw. "You're beautiful." You whispered. You looked straight into his eyes and realized it was all of him that stayed the same. It never changed, the sadness, the violence and everything in it never faded away. "You look amazing." You whispered stepping back to get a good look of the whole of him.

Shuichi, or Kurama, couldn't look more surprised. More than that, he also looked sort of scared and incredulous. He took a step back and to your dismay, slowly changed back to his regular self.

You change your opinion when you caught a glimpse of his blazing red hair and though, any look's good.

"We have to go." Kurama turned around and started to walk away.

You stumblingly follow.

The whole way back was quiet. No conversations were exchanged between you after leaving the place where you were. You were both too drowned in your thoughts to have realized this. You only realized how silent he was when you though about what he could be thinking right now. "Shui...erm, Kurama?" There was no response. You sighed in resignation. There was no use talking to someone like him at moments like these. Good thing you were nearing the clearing and was soon out of the forest.

"HEY GUYS!!!" Yusuke waved high in the air.

Kurama's gloomy expression turned to a comforting smile. "Hey to you too." Kurama smiled when you reached the others.

You quickly moved beside your friend and passed him/her a glare giving the impression that 'I'll tell you something later'.

"Uhm, we have to go. Talk, I mean." Koenma excused for the group who is now starting to walk away, Kurama and Hiei leading ahead. Koenma left with Botan and Keiko beside him.

"Yeah, okay. We'll be over there." You pointed out towards the entrance of the forest.

"Mnh." Koenma made a quick nod before turning around to follow the others.

Still without any conversation, you and your best friend made your way to the near forest. With one quick effortless movement, you were soon atop the tree, sitting on a tree branch. For a long while you just both sat there, looking out into the distant. You changed your mind about telling him/her right now. You feel like you don't have the energy to.

"He's right in what he did, you know." Your best friend suddenly spoke up.

Not feeling surprised at all, you retorted back. "I know. And it's not like I'm saying he's not."

If anyone heard you talking like this, they'd never understand what the hell you're talking about. But you two had a special bond unlike any. That was another thing why you're best of friends. Being friends with the kind of your friend here is kind of advantageous. At moments when you don't want to talk about or simply too tired to, he/she'd understand. He/she'll simply stand beside you until sometimes you even fall asleep.

After a long moment of silence, your best friend suddenly spoke up. "Let's go. I have something to liven up your spirit."

"What?" You asked innocently at him/her. Suddenly, there was loud rustling from the trees. You gasped when an ugly, giant monster came out from the forest. You looked at your friend who nodded a go signal meaning it's right to attack it. You smoothly jumped down from the tree and stood right in front of the ogre, your friend jumping after you.

"I'll let you handle this." Your best friend humbly stepped aside.

"Oh what? Too weak for this?" You teased. Your friend simply smirked and raised his/her eyebrow.

"How dare you ridicule me?! You'll pay for that!!!" The monster charged towards you.

With one quick movement, you jumped high in the air and were quickly above the monster. You rode on him for a sec before you tapped him on the shoulder. "Ciao." You waved a little hello. The monster swung his huge hand above him to catch you but you were too small and too fast to be caught. You stood in front of him, your one hand on your hips. "Is that all you can do?" You never underestimate an opponent. It's just because you can calculate approximately their abilities so you know who to take seriously and who aren't. To you, even toddler can prove to be the greatest threat and a worthy opponent. I mean, look at yourself, you're a high school girl yet you're one of the top assassins of the Yakuza world. You don't actually think that just because a monster is huge, it is actually ahead. Some monsters are but many aren't. Their huge size even sometimes becomes the obstacle to their victory. The fact is you were sort of used to the likes of him. Mafia leaders' henchmen were usually his size. You actually don't get it. To have people the likes of you as their loyal right hand sounds more sensible to you. You can easily slip in through whatever occasion they wanted. No one would suspect a thing from you either since you look so innocent. It's perfectly understandable. The only problem is people the likes of you are too smart to be a simple right hand. People the likes of you NEVER work under anyone.

You didn't have a hard time in toying with the monster. It was all a game to you. "Let's get this over with." You muttered as the monster exhaustedly charged at you one more time. You easily stepped to the side letting the fiend fall flat on his face. You jumped on top of him then kneeled down. You raised your right hand preparing to stab the monster with it.

"Stop that." A voice called out form a dark corner of the forest.

"Who's there?" you squinted your eyes and lowered your head to see who was talking. "Yusuke?" You were surprised to see Yusuke, Kuwabara, Hiei and Kurama looking conspicuously straight at you.

"What're you doing? How can you kill just like that?" Yusuke stepped in front of you,

"Yeah, are you crazy?" Kuwabara yelled.

"But—but he attacked. He was—he was going to--" you stuttered for an explanation. What's so wrong?

"Won't you even give him a chance?!" Yusuke raised his voice.

You looked at each's faces. They all looked at you as if they didn't understand what you were doing. As if they wanted you to stop. You brusquely grabbed you hand from Yusuke and quickly ran off.

"What's wrong with her, Kurama? You didn't tell me she was bad news!" Yusuke yelled over. He quickly regretted having said it when he got to look at Kurama, who looked angrily at the fallen beast. "Sorry, Kurama. I just—It's not your fault." Yusuke let the monster but not before he gave it one big punch in the face. As Yusuke and the others watched the monster walk away, Yusuke caught sight of what seems to be a person standing over the shade of a tree.

"Hey guys." Your best friend waved innocently as if nothing happened.

"Where're you going?" Yusuke yelled behind him as he started to turn his back on them.

"I'm going after (your name), of course."

"Wait. Tell us. Tell us about her." Yusuke hesitantly asked.

"Okay. What do you want to know?" Your best friend willingly walked towards Yusuke.

"Uhh...I don't know. Just tell us about her." Yusuke shrugged.

"Tell us how she learned to fight and how the hell she can so easily just kill like she was supposed to." Kurama stepped in front of Yusuke, putting him aside.

"Kurama..." Yusuke wondered over Kurama's sudden actions.

Your best friend smirked. "We are assassins of Yakuza members. Of those who can pay enough, at least."

"You're what?!" Kuwabara roared.

"You mean you're like part of some Yaku-shit gang?" Yusuke said with disgust.

"Haven't you been listening? I said we were assassins. I never said we were pat of something. We prostitute our skills in fighting to put food in our hungry little stomach and clothes to our frail little bodies."

"I'd the least call it frail." Hiei muttered noticeably.

"You're right. We aren't. We're the least of frail." Your best friend smiled.

"How can she kill so easily? What about the word conscience?" Yusuke yelled furiously.

"(Your name) was born into this dog-eat-dog world. She has learned that to kill is to survive." Your best friend's tone mocked the others. He/she talked as if she was like talking about your grades.

"Do you mean she's like a merciless killer of some sort?!" Kuwabara shouted putting his face in front of your best friend's.

"No. You see, the kindness she shows you all is truly sincere. But the killer instinct, the violence inside her is---well, let's just say she can bare to kill you even though.... you know, after everything." Your best friend gestured around the place pertaining all about taking them to this whole new world. "

"I don't get it." Kuwabara scratched his head.

"Don't worry, Kuwabara. Not many does." Your best friend placed a hand over Kuwabara's shoulder. "She's just a person with a shielded heart. I am too. We all are. The people we have grown with, we're all people different from the rest." Your best friend looked at the others. "But to tell you the truth, I never thought she belonged there. Even then she's born in it, she had never been pooled in it."

"Why are you telling us this? Aren't you supposed to be some sort of her friend?" Hiei spoke up.

"You're right. I am her friend. Do you think that because you know so much about someone, you have learned about them? Knowing a lot about a person is entirely different form knowing the person itself. Do you think she'll care that you know so much? As long as she has that wall set up with you, well," Your best friend shrugged. "There's no point. This doesn't change anything. I'm simply guiding your way to whatever satisfies you. People are complex beings, as you know. Like they say, people change. But (your name) can be two persons at a time, in a weird...sort of way."

"What? You're leaving?" Kuwabara took a step forward.

"I need to go to her. She's a sad spirit. If I don't find her, well..." your best friend had a threatening look. "Maybe she'll get lost somewhere." He/she teased with a knowing smile saying 'I was just kidding'.

"I'll go." Kurama volunteered.

Your best friend simply gave a supportive smile. "I knew you would somehow. I thought you would run after her when she took off."

"Yeah? And so?" Kurama gave one last look before he jumped off to somewhere.

Your best bud shook his/her head in amusement.

After long hours of search for (your name), Kurama finally found her sitting by a river She wasn't crying at all. She was curled up in a ball and was concentrating on watching the icy cold-water of the river rush through her feet. It was daylight when you all got to this other world and now it was dusk. Kurama took a moment before he approached her. You tried to take in the way she looked helplessly by the sparkling stream. He watched her night sky- black hair glisten in the dark by the moonlight. Suddenly, he saw her rub her arms and he fought the urge to run to her and give her his coat, if he had one, at least. Silently, he approached her. "(your name)?"

(Your name) turned her head and saw him staring blankly at her. "Shuichi!! I mean, Kurama! I didn't hear you."

"Don't act surprised. You know someone would at least come for you. I mean, look around you. It's nightfall already."

"Yeah, I guess I haven't noticed it."

"You sure did." Kurama strained a smile. "Look, (your name). I know you don't care about much. I just want..."

(Your name) waited hopefully at Kurama. She looked surprised when he laughed and shook his head. "What's so funny?" She asked defensively.

"Nothing. It' just that I remembered what you said this morning. About us having only met yesterday and we—you know. All the weird things and stuff? It's sort of...laughable."

"Yeah, I guess. It is sort of funny." (Your name) slowly laughed along. And soon, Kurama and her were both laughing uncontrollably like crazy lunatics.

"Can we just live our lives and hang out? Like normal people?" Kurama finally said.

"Kurama, we aren't really normal people." She snickered.

"Who cares? Can't we act like one for some time? We also need a break from our kind of work don't we?"

"You do. I don't. I mean, look at you. All the grades, all the GIRLS...?" You emphasized the last word.

Kurama gave out a loud laugh. "Oh yeah. Well, can you please give me the honor to have a few moments of no abnormality?" Kurama rode in with the sarcasm.

(Your name) finally broke into a sweet, gentle smile. "Yes, sure." She nodded as if she was also convincing herself it was going to be. "That'll be great." (Your name) laughed once more staring at Kurama who was laughing silently with her.

Finally, something calm. Kurama moved beside (your name) and sat down beside her. For the moment, maybe he'll let her see him in another form while they watch and listen all around them. She'll like that. Kurama thought satisfied with himself.

A/n: How about it, guys? Sorry about last time when I still asked about what Koenma could have. I just chose to have it ignored anyway. They have missions like those, right? Thanks guys. Please continue to read my stuff. Sorry for no reply over your interviews but I read it, I do! Thank you so much. The truth is, you guys are my inspiration so I get myself to write. I think of how you'd like it so I get itching to write. Please always watch out for this. I try to update as fast as I can. (.