Three: Feel

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She sat there with her curly brown hair matted her knees to her chest and her eyes off in a gaze. She was remembering all the good things in her life. The memories clouded her mind; marrying to her lover and having his child. She loved those memories and she couldn't help but drift off and imagine them. Aiko walked into the room and looked over at her sister. Aiko was worried about her. Aiko had been calling her sister but always got the answering machine.

Aiko knew why her sister was like this. Atemu had left her. He had taken Tamashii and Yuugi as well, leaving her sister here all alone. Aiko slowly walked up and sat down on the bed. Aiko placed her hands on her sister's shoulders, waking her out of the trance.

"Ki? Listen to me." Aiko said quite sternly catching her sister's attention. Ki looked up at her sister; her eyes were slightly red from crying. She didn't feel so alone anymore but Ki still couldn't shake off her despair.

"Aiko…" Ki started but she was soon silenced by her sister.

"Ki, I know Atemu left you but you brought it on yourself…" Aiko said as she tried not to cry, "We all know what happened between you and Kaiba. Not to mention how Atemu left you." Aiko said before looking at the floor. Ki looked out into space again, putting together what she had just heard. The whole family must know by now. Her other sister Miko, and especially her sister Kisa for she was the one Seto had abandoned. Ki and her three sisters always shared everything so it was no surprise to her that Aiko had come, it was expected.

"Aiko," Ki started making Aiko jump a bit, "I betrayed him and he had the right to leave me and I have to right to stay here and sulk in my depression." She told Aiko. She lay down on the bed she once shared with Atemu. She began to lie there not hearing Aiko's reasoning for all she wanted to do was wait until she woke up from this nightmare but she would not because this was real. She suddenly felt the urge to die there and let them all live without her. They would go on with their lives not remembering her and forget her completely.

Aiko started to shake Ki trying to get her to listen to her. Tears were clearly falling down Aiko's cheeks. She didn't want Ki to go on like this any longer. She couldn't stand by and watch Ki throw her life away because she slept with someone she wasn't meant to be with. She wanted Ki to realize that Atemu still loved her and that he was only caught up in his own emotions.

"Ki, you must understand that Atemu is only lost within himself just as you are but you both need to get past this. I can't watch you fall like this…" Aiko said as she continued to shake Ki from her state of mind. Ki just stared at her and let tears fall down her cheeks again. She only hoped that Aiko was right but how could she talk to Atemu. She wanted him back but how could she even ask him to take her back. She was the one who hurt him. Ki buried her face in Aiko's shoulder and started to sob letting her tears fall.

"Aiko please, please tell Atemu to come here. I want to talk to him. I don't want to be here and lose my mind thinking about how happy I used to be. I want to be happy with him, and Yuugi and Tamashii." She said pleadingly before she started to cry again. Ki wanted the pain to go away…she wanted to be loved and she wanted her family back. If that meant that she had to give up her love for Seto then she would…

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Aiko had left her to try to convince Atemu but it was in vain. Ki knew this because just a simple talk would not mend what she had broken. Ki continued to wish that she hadn't messed up the life she had but she did. There was no way for her to take it back. This is what killed her the most, this is what tore her up inside. Ki lay on her side on the bed where she had been ever since Aiko had left her.

She remembered Aiko's face for a moment. Aiko was always the person that could make the others around her feel better. Aiko was always so caring and trusting. Ki suddenly heard the bedroom door open. She weakly turned her head upward to see who was here. Ki's eyes widened. Her life flashed before her eyes again, much faster than slow pace it had gone the past week in a half. Atemu was standing in the doorway, his eyelids lowered as he spaced off at the floor.

"Atemu…" Ki breathed at she sat up in the ruffled sheets of the bed. She watched as Atemu made his way slowly to their bed and sat down next to her, his eyes still on the floor. It was as if he was thinking deeply about something he didn't want to think about. Ki stared at him, her eyes filling with tears that she had no right to let fall down her cheeks. She had no right to cry because it's her own fault for her tears.

Atemu didn't know what to think any more. He could only remember back to the moment he found out. That was the moment she told him of her betrayal. The moment the world as he knew it began to fall apart. He could even remember when she said the two words that she believed would make it all restore and go away. Atemu wanted her in his arms but his mind kept telling him that it wasn't right, that she was the one who didn't deserve it but his heart wanted it. His heart wanted it to all be like the wind and blow away to be forgotten.

Atemu's emotions wouldn't stop the conflict because he was so confused, he couldn't understand it all. Atemu wished none of this had happened. He wished that their life would go back to the way it was. He wished they could just move on with a normal life and forget all of this like it was never there but he knew this was rather impossible. All he wanted was to move on and be with her, his child Tamashii, and his brother Yuugi.

"Atemu." Ki said quietly as she scooted closer to him. He slowly turned his head to look at her. Ki could see the sadness in his eyes; it looked to be the same sadness that filled her soul for so very long. She couldn't stand to see him look so miserable, just looking at him made her want to cry because she never expected him to look in such a way. She would always see a smiled on his face or maybe just his smirk but never like this.

"Ki…" He breathed as his eyes started to fill with his own tears, "I don't want to feel this way anymore. I don't want to be like this anymore. I just want it to go away." He said as he tried to hold back his tears. Ki finally let her tears fall as she leaned over and embraced Atemu. She couldn't let him cry, not without her. Her shoulders began to shake as she cried on his chest as she kept repeating 'I'm sorry.' over and over again. Atemu wrapped his arms around her; his heart wished it. He didn't want to let her go. He didn't want her to be alone as he felt he was.

"Atemu, I'm so sorry. It's all my fault I never wanted this happen. I'm sorry." Ki said as she let her tears falls down her cheeks and onto his shirt.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry I turned you away… I'm sorry I left you, Ki. I never want to do that again…"

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