My Darling, My Vampire.

Written by Roswell4ever1

DISCLAIMER: I STILL OWN NOTHING! HOWEVER, in case you didnt pay attention to my last warning, if you try to come between Spike and me, you will not only lose a finger or two, but your nose will fall off, your toilet will flood your house, you're hair will stand up on end and you will turn to dust! Listen to me now! Save yourself! Stay away from Spike and all will be forgotten. Come near and face great troubles!

Part Six: Confessions

Three Weeks Later:

Buffy began to wake up but just wasn't ready to get up yet. She had let her eyes close again when she heard the front door open. Looking up, she saw Spike walking in carrying some bags.

"Morning." She said groggily.

"Afternoon luv." Spike replied.

"Afternoon? What time is it?"

"About 12:15."

"How come you didn't wake me up?"

"You looked like you could use the rest. Sides, nothing exciting goin' on anyway."

"I guess I must have been really tired." Looking up at Spike, Buffy began to giggle.

"What's so soddin funny?"

"Spike, your face is gettin furry."

"Well that explains things."

"What do you mean Spike?"

"Well, when I went to the doughnut shop, instead of charging me, the guy just threw the box of doughnuts at me and said "have lunch on me." I have to admit, there were times when that would have really tempted me. You know, the whole vampire thing but now it was just plain sickening."

Buffy got up and walked over to Spike. She began to touch the hair on his face. Feeling like he was suddenly on display, spike asked "When is this gonna quit pet? I've done a lot of dumb things in my life but do I really deserve to be a bunny? Do you?" Spike began to pout.

Buffy hugged him to her and tried to calm him down. "Neither one of us deserves this Spike but it is something we have to deal with. Now, I know you're upset, I am too but we aren't ever gonna get rid of this if we don't do some research to see what caused it in the first place."

A bit confused at the way Buffy had been acting the past couple of days, there was only one thing for Spike to say. "Why you bein so nice to me slayer? You can't stand me. I'm a monster remember? So why now? I mean is it one of those things where you are nice to me while we are in this situation and in you're house but as soon as it is over and we're around your friends I go back to bein dirt?" Ok, so he had several things to say. So sue me!

Thinking about what Spike just said to her, Buffy began to cry. Being in the whole "bunny" state and not being able to do anything about it had made her very emotional anyway but now it was just suddenly increased.

Spike saw her start to cry and felt a pang of guilt. No matter how badly she had treated him in the past, he hated to see her upset. It nearly killed him. "I wasn't tryin to make you cry luv. Maybe I shouldn't have said anything."

"Yes, you should have. Gosh, I really have been a bitch haven't I? I...I'm sorry Spike. I'm sorry." With that, she turned and ran upstairs leaving a very confused Spike. Spike decided that they needed to get rid of this spell so maybe things could go back to normal. He could tell what it was doing to Buffy and he knew what it was doing to him. But at the same time, he hated to get rid of it in a way. While they had been in bunny mode, they had actually bonded a little and it was nice. He didn't want it to end but he knew that there were other factors to consider. Like patrolling, going out in public and most importantly, Buffy. He would do anything for her and she needed to go back to normal.

Taking the stairs two at a time, Spike stopped outside her bedroom door. "Slayer." No response. "Slayer?" Still nothing. "Buffy?" Spike guessed that she was probably either in the bathtub or in her room and ignoring him. Either way, there was no sense in him standing here twiddling his thumbs. He started to walk away when he heard her door open. Turning around, he saw Buffy standing in her doorway. Her face was tear streaked and her eyes bloodshot.

Not knowing what else to say, Spike said simply. "You ok?"

Buffy walked over and sat down on the top stair holding a book in her hands. "What happened to me Spike?"

"What do you mean luv?"

"Before I found out I was the slayer, I was accepting to everyone. I was open and loving and I tried to give everyone the benefit of the doubt whether they deserved it or not. But since I gained slayer status, I've become hard. I am harsh and uncaring. I am mean to everyone. Especially those who don't deserve it. I have turned into a royal bitch Spike."

"No you haven't. You're careful, that's all. You do what you have to do to protect those you love. That is one of you're best qualities Buffy."

"If that's the case Spike, then how come I wasn't able to protect you? If I really protect those I love why did this happen to you and why couldn't I stop it?"

In total shock at what she has just said and grabbing the pack of cigarettes from his duster pocket, Spike lit one and sat there in silence wondering what to say and feeling like a wanker for saying nothing. Finally, not being able to take the silence anymore, Spike looked at her. "Buffy, you didn't make this happen to us. There was nothing you could do to stop it or prevent it."

"Yes, there was. I could have prevented this."

Even more confused than ever before, Spike looked into her eyes. "What do you mean luv?

Buffy handed Spike the book she had been holding.

"The Alsheatow Demon. Nasty lookin booger hu? But this doesn't tell us anything Buffy, it's just a picture."

"Yes, but I looked it up in the Watcher's journals and found out some important information."

"You have the Watcher's journals here?"

"Well no, not the actual journals, but I have them all on disk. It is like a large Journal database that I can click into whenever I need information that can't be found in these stuffy old books."

"Why didn't you use them on any of the other cases?"

"Giles just gave them to me before he left for England."

"Good ol Rupert. Wait til the last minute and then come through."

"Yeah well, he tries."

"Ok, so what did it say about Alsheatow?"

"The Alsheatow demons are a rare species. They are not evil. As a matter of fact, they fight against the evil. A couple of months ago, I faced one of them."

His mind beginning to click, Spike said. "Yeah, that was at the school right?"

"Right."

"But that demon was clearly not good pet."

"No he wasn't. Every family has a bad seed. He was that seed. He was being exiled from the family and was royally pissed off about it so he went to the school in search of kids. He blamed children for his exile. How was it he put it? Oh yeah, "precious little kiddies just getting in the way of good ol fashioned evil. Children must die."

"Pleasant guy wasn't he?"

"Yeah well, I was walking to the school to pick up Dawn when I saw the guy hiding in the shadows. We fought for a while and by the time it was over, he was dust."

"You know pet, I am for listening to a good demon dusting story anytime but I really am missing where this is connected to this whole bunny fix."

"Well, that's just it Spike. I don't know why I didn't put this together before. Anyway, the family wanted revenge for me killing this guy."

"Wait a minute, the good guys wanted revenge for you killin the big evil?"

"It isn't really revenge. It seems like it at the time, but in the long run, it isn't. I know that doesn't make much sense, but just bear with me a minute and all will be explained."

Spike nodded waiting to hear the rest of the story.

"Because the Alsheatow demons are not evil, they in a way keep watch on the slayer. Kind of a protection. They know me. They see me as being hard and shut off. They did this to us to try to get me to open up. The spell will only end when I have opened my heart again. I have been pushing everyone away Spike. Willow, Xander, Tara, Giles, Anya and you. I haven't talked to my mom since she left and before that, I may have had one good conversation with her in the last two months. I put up this wall and I swore no one would break through it. I had to be tough. I had to be closed off. At least that's what I thought. But I was wrong and now I have all these hurt people who I have spent so much time pushing away. And most of them kept their distance. Willow and I barely talk anymore and Giles left because he thought I needed some time. But you never gave up on me. No matter how badly I treated you, you refused to stay in the shadows. You continued to show up every night to help me patrol and you always treated me like a person. Not a slayer. You saw me Spike and in return, I used you. I'm killing you Spike." Buffy had tears streaming down her cheeks again.

Reaching over and wiping the tears away, Spike told her. "You have not used me Buffy. You didn't make me do anything I didn't want to do."

"I was nice to you as long as you were helping me but as soon as the demons were gone, I treated you like dirt."

"Buffy, listen to me. You have an incredible responsibility, being the slayer and all. It is not an easy job. Your under a lot of stress and are bound to have bad days. But you did not use me. I knew what I was signing up for when I decided to help. And yeah, you have said some mean things, but it is nothing I cant handle. You haven't killed me Buffy, you brought me to life. You gave me a reason to continue. A reason to want to live and if loving you is death, then it is the sweetest death a man can go through. I love you Buffy and nothing you have done or could do could ever change that. I'm drowning in you."

Looking up at Spike, Buffy was beginning to feel much better. "I love you too Spike."

Spike put his hand on her cheek and pulled her to him and kissing her gently. Buffy snaked her hand around to the back of his head and pulled him closer. She had been in love with Spike for well over a year now and now she could finally be with him. Spike suddenly pulled away confusing Buffy and making her think something was wrong.

"Spike? What's wrong?"

"Nothing pet. You're ears, they're normal again and your big floppy feet are gone. You're you again luv." Taking in what he was telling her and looking at herself, she realized he was right. She looked back up at Spike to see that he had gone back to normal also. Hugging Spike to her and squealing, Buffy told him "It's over! The spell is finally gone."

Still a little apprehensive and wondering if she would drop him now that the spell was gone, Spike looked down at his feet. Just then the phone rang. "I'll be right back Spike." Buffy said getting up and running downstairs. Spike just continued to sit there and wait for her return. Buffy came running back up the stairs two minutes later and looked at Spike. "That was Giles. He came back early and he, Willow, Xander and Tara are coming over. They'll be here in about ten minutes." Spike nodded.

Buffy noticed that Spike was just staring at his feet and not saying anything. Having a feeling what this was about, she sat back down beside him. Taking his hand in hers, she began to speak. "Spike, look at me." He looked up and met her eyes with his. "Just because the spell is gone, nothing is going to change. I love you. That was not that spell talking, it was me. You don't have anything to worry about. I am not going to just throw you away. I love you and I want you here with me."

"You really mean that pet?" He asked her. Before she had a chance to answer, the doorbell rang. Giving him a smile and running back down the stairs, Buffy quickly opened the door. After saying hi and giving everyone a hug, Buffy had everyone walk into the livingroom. Spike had come down the stairs and was sitting on the couch. Buffy suddenly stood up and looked at everyone.

"Listen up everyone. There is something I need to tell you all. I want you to know that although I want all of your opinions, nothing is going to change my mind or make anything different."

"I'm not liking the sound of this Buffy." Giles said.

"Yeah, me either." Willow said and Tara nodded in agreement.

"I am not asking you to like anything Giles, what I am asking is for you to listen. Spike and I are together. I love him and I am going to be with him whether you like it or not. Now, you can either accept him or leave because if you want me, you get us both. We are now a package deal and I will not give him up because someone else doesn't approve."

Spike sat there now knowing that what she told him before was true. If he ever doubted it before, he didn't now.

Giles began to giggle followed by Willow, Tara and Xander.

"What's so funny?" Buffy asked.

"Buff, we already knew the two of you would end up together." Xander told her.

"You did?" Spike asked.

"Well, yeah. It has been obvious for a long time that you two were macking on each other whether you admitted it to each other or not." Giles replied.

"It was that obvious?" Buffy asked.

"Oh yeah!" They all said in unison.

"Congratulations you two. You are perfect for each other." Willow said.

"Couldn't have said it better myself!" Tara responded.

"So Giles, what are you doing back so soon?" Buffy asked.

Not wanting her to know that he never went to England in the first place, Giles lied his way through it. "Uh, well, I missed it here." He knew that if he let it slip that he never went, then it wouldn't be long before Buffy or Spike or both realized that he had gone in and loosened the pipe in Spikes apartment causing the bust and that he and Joyce had this whole thing planned. They had felt like Buffy and Spike would be good for each other and since Buffy and Spike couldn't seem to realize it, they needed a little push.

"Um, Giles." Spike said.

"Yeah Spike?"

"I went to my apartment this morning to see how far they were on fixing it." He stood up then walked towards the kitchen. Giles followed. He couldn't possibly know! Giles told himself. No, he was just filling him in on the progress.

"And?" Giles asked.

"And I just thought you might want this back." Spike said as he handed a package to Giles. He then winked at Giles and walked back to the living room.

Opening the package, Giles nearly passed out right there. For he was holding a pipe wrench with the name Rupert Giles engraved into the handle.

TBC...