Closer to thee Part 21:
Washed out

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Andy entered his apartment again. It was 11pm. After work he still was at a bar. He couldn't go home. At home he was alone with his thoughts. Alone with the fact that Prue was engaged. He opened the door and just stood in the open door for a while. He starred into his apartment. It was empty. He was alone. He was confronted with his loneliness while Prue was engaged.
'Prue.'
Prue filled all his thoughts this day. Whatever he did, his thoughts seemed to run back to her. To their relationship. To the relationship they had and then there was the one thing, which pulled him so much down: Prue was engaged. Finally he entered his apartment. He threw his keys onto the dining table and then went for the kitchen, grabbed himself a bottle of water, then plopped down on one of the kitchen chairs. He said there in silence. Sipping on the bottle, emptying it step by step while he starred into nothing. He tried hard to block the thoughts about Prue out, but there it was again.
'I had the time of my life...'
Andy's eyes closed tightly. He again tried hard to remove all the memories in his head. All the pain. He finally put the bottle down and covered his face
"She'll marry someone else... she said, she'd only do it with me"
Andy mumbled into his hands.

6 year old Prue and Andy sat in the back yard of the manor. Each on one swing, licking on their ice cream. Andy's parents were at a wedding and so Andy was dropped off at the manor and would stay there over night.
"Andy?"
"Huh?"
"Do you think marrying is cool?"
"I don't know, but mom said, if u love someone very much and shared a lot of stuff with him or her, it's the coolest you can do with this person."
Little Prue smiled
"Well, I know someone I share a lot with and if it's that cool, I know that I want to do it with only that person"
"Your dad?"
"No! Never!"
"Well... who then, cause Piper and Phoebe you are not allowed to, because they're girls just like you and you need a boy or a man to do it with!"
"Man, Andy, you're so silly. The one I'm talking about is you."
"You saying you want to marry me when we're older?"
"Uh hum"
Andy's smile grew wide
"Only if you want to, naturally"
Prue added fast and added grin to the comment. Andy starred into her eyes for a few seconds.
"I think you're right. There's nothing we didn't share yet. So we should also do something this cool together, if it's really that cool"
Little Andy said smiling as little Piper came running into the garden and ran up to Andy. She tapped him and then ran away again
"You're it!!"
She yelled while she was already nearly inside the manor again

Andy woke up from his memory. He was short before crying. He closed the bottle again and got up, wandering off to his bathroom. He got undressed and under the hot water of his shower.
'How could I have been this stupid? I didn't keep our promise. How could I just believe she would do? I broke up with her. I left! I was married! How could I think she lived like a nun while I was gone? It's her right to be happy also without me.'
Andy thought
'But why can't I be the one to make her happy. Why does it have to be someone else? Why does it hurt so much to be sure, she was gone. Not my g/f anymore, not my fiancée not my wife, but soon someone others'
Finally some tears mixed up with the water of the shower flowing freely down his cheeks and body. But soon enough he pulled himself together again and started to get washed.
After he was done, he went for his bedroom, there laid the broken picture frame from the morning

"Okay, so far she's not married"
Andy told himself, smiling a little. He had nearly finished the files, the police had from Prue. Only some more pages and he didn't read anything so far, he didn't know.
"Newest develop: engaged; signed for wedding on the 1st of May..."
Andy read out loud and then looked hurt up at the calendar. It was in only 3 weeks. His gaze started to check the room over till his eyes landed onto the picture of Prue and himself. His hands were placed on her stomach. The prom picture. He starred for a few seconds sadly at it, as suddenly rage overcame him. He grabbed the frame and threw it against the wall. Then left his bedroom.

Andy carefully knelt down next to the broken frame. He starred a few seconds down on it and then started to clean it up. Carefully he picked up the shattered glass and the wooden frame around it. With the other hand he placed the picture itself on top of his bed. He went back to the kitchen and threw the frame away, then returned to the bedroom. He let himself falling onto the bed and starred a few more endless minutes onto the picture of his family. Then got up and placed the picture in the box, he put all those sad, hurting and heart breaking memories in. his hopes had died. He had to realize that his right on Prue has vanished along with their daughter. That his right on Prue died the day he left.