A disclaimer such as an author's note: Ok so I want to say first so I don't get hunted down by the band and the company. Ok first I don't own JN that's by DNA Productions. I don't own "Martini Kiss". That's written and sung by Senses Fail. Also I want to say thanks to my G home girl CrazyFairy and Thundera86. Lol. I would like to also thank the following (ahem) the person with the !?!. U spelled cool wrong. Enema-of-the-state182, where the hell are you? I still can't email you cause well uhh..somethings the matter with your email. FanJimmy cause you've been there for me in every chapter plus in all of my other stories. YEA YOUR COOL! 666..ooo devil's sign. But I guess it's your name. Anyway it's cool and I thank you. And last but certainly not the least Lillian. Uhh thanks for being cool and well yea. Hey were still cool friends. (Wonders why you aren't talking to me). Ok that's all.
"Jimmy you ok?" Sheen said with a hint of seriousness.
"Yea Jim, you seem kind of down after visiting the counselor. What'd she talk to you about?" Carl said wanting to know what happened.
"Nothing, nothing important." I said showing a smile to cover up what really happened.
"You sure." Sheen said serious now.
"Yes Sheen, everything's cool. I've never seen you serious before."
"Well just looking out for my buddy, right." He said with a wide smile.
I then saw Cindy and her boyfriend, Nick, at the lockers. Cindy then saw me and whispered something to Nick and started walking toward us. Nick then joined his friends. Sheen then saw Libby at the end of the hall and left along with Carl. Great everyone abandons me with this girl.
"Um Jimmy you ok?" She said with a hint of hope in it.
"Yea im good." Saying it with a flat tone.
I eyed some people in the halls and they started whispering something and snickered. I grabbed Cindy's arm and brought her to a more private spot outside so we can talk. We stood there not talking and tension building between us.
"So um you take the morning after pill?"
I looked at my shoes feeling stupid but also wanting to know if she was or was not tested positive.
"Yea I did."
"Did you check?"
"Yes...I'm not positive."
I released a sigh of relief and my heart started to beat normally.
"Jimmy I think we should talk about our relationship."
I looked up at her.
"What relationship?"
She looked at me as if I was stupid.
"For God's sake, we just had sex Jimmy! Tell me you at least felt something!"
"I couldn't feel anything Cindy cause fucking drunk!"
"If you weren't would you have felt something?!"
She was now having tears run down her face, obviously getting ready for a negative response.
"Dammit Cindy. I wouldn't know cause I wouldn't even try."
I looked at her as I felt my guilt eating my insides making me weak.
"So you don't feel anything for me."
She looked down and I saw tears falling faster. I looked away and for the first time I didn't know an answer for that question.
"Cin...
"Save it Neutron. You obviously don't have a heart you bastard!"
She spat her last words with acid adding to my guilt. She ran off leaving me bitter and to die a horrible death slowly.
There's poison in my drinking glass
Don't stop just sip it down
And in a swirling masquerade of sound
My body hits the ground the ground
I'm beautiful when I'm asleep
Martini kisses land On my blistered bloody scarlet lips
The bottles in my hand
I walked into the house which was filled with emptiness and shallow memories. I walked into the kitchen and opened the cabinet drawer to grab a glass.
Burn out not fade away
Burn out not fade away
Burn out not fade away
I'll speak in riddles so you can understand
I'll draw in pencil so you can trace with pen
So in love with me like sand to wet feet
I'll write both our names into the wet concrete
I grabbed a glass and stopped and saw a capsule of sleeping pills. I grabbed both the pills and a glass of water. I sat on the couch and stared at the pills.
We're glistening like silver spoons
Beneath the summer night
Oh can you smell the subtle hint of frost
As the flowers start to cry
The autumn winds are bringing graves
To all the emerald trees
They're so beautiful in their dismay
The colors slowly bleed
I got out a couple and popped 8 in my mouth. I sat back and heard the door fly open as my world became dark. Everything was spinning and the last thing I heard was someone yelling.
The pawns will fade away
Burn out not fade away
Burn out not fade away
I started drying up my eyes as I sat on my bed. I looked to at my desk and saw a picture of me and Jimmy as 14 years old. I was shoved in with Jimmy and Carl was making a face, with Sheen holding a peace sign, and Libby smirking at both me and Jimmy.
The kings at his checkmate
Burn out not fade away
Burn out not fade away
I held the picture in my hands as I continued to stare at it as my heart felt like it was being ripped out and thrown in a pit of broken glass. Soon I heard the sound of sirens outside my window. I ran and looked out the window and saw an ambulance taking Jimmy away. My heart skipped a beat and I ran out to Mrs. Neutron.
"What's going on?"
I said about to cry. Judy was crying and I could tell she didn't want to talk. She ran up to me and hugged me. I held her trying my best to comfort her fading body. I stared at the ambulance as it drove away. Mrs. Neutron then looked up at me.
"We should go."
I nodded and followed her to her car. Jimmy please still be alive. I can't survive without you here to live life with me. I sobbed quietly as we headed towards the ambulance.
And I sit here
With a sick grin
Choking as I laugh until I die
(Sniff) that's sad. LOL. No its not. Ok people review right now or else (cocks the rifle) hehe. Ok anyway. People go out and buy DJ Fight for NY and GTA San Andreas. When you get the GTA game give me a call. I'll fly there with my tickets and play at cho house. We'll have the nachos and pizza going on. YEA! That's what I'm talking about. LOL.