Total Eclipse Of The Heart
Des sat at a bench in his prison cell, 9 months after he last saw Sheelagh. He had hoped, and prayed for her to come and visit him. He had cried for her all night, every night, and most of the days too, unless he's got something else to think about. That's why he tried to keep himself occupied at all times but it was just no use. All that was ever in his head was Sheelagh, from the happier times they had spent together, laughing and loving, to the terrible times when he had taken her for granted, used her and hurt her. He couldn't stop the nightmares either. He kept having flashbacks in his sleep of that slap, he couldn't believe he had done that! He knew he wasn't that type of person, he knew he cared too much about Shee to ever want to hurt her, emotionally or physically. But he had, he'd slapped her one right round the face on that day, the worst day of his life. He really honestly wasn't himself that day. That day he was a kidnapper, woman abuser, hijacker and nearly, so nearly murderer.......but then again he was already a murderer. He sighed as he thought of this label. It wasn't really fair to call him that, he did kill 6 people but it's not like he meant to! "Bloody dodgy fifties," he muttered angrily to himself.
Sheelagh sat in her car, contemplating whether to go in and see him or not. It was Christmas eve and she doubted anyone else would be going to see him. She had had a really hard time trying to get over him and get her head round everything that had happened, and to make it all worse there was her son's involvement in a crime, and his sexuality.....but this wasn't about Conor.
This was about her, it was about Des and seeing if he had really gone back to the way he was before. She decided just to do it before it was too late so she opened her door and got out of the car. She walked inside and approached the man behind the desk. "May I help you miss?" Shee gulped, "um...yes I'd err like to visit a prisoner please." The man smiled at her, "what's their name?" he asked. "Des Taviner."
The guy behind the desk raised his eyebrows and looked at her. Shee was feeling uncomfortable so she asked him what was wrong. "You wouldn't happen to be Sheelagh?" he enquired. "Yes...." she replied, surprised that this man, who she'd never met before knew her name. "Wow, this is great, he's gonna be so pleased! oh, sorry if im freakin ya out luv, Taviner n me are pretty good mates, he's a decent guy and ya dont come across many of them here!" he winked at Shee, who smiled in return. The guy took her through and asked her to sit down at one of the benches, then he went to get Des.
Des was still deep in thought, hoping that Shee was having a good Christmas, not thinking about him and the pain he'd caused her. There was a knock on the door which broke Des out of his thoughts, then the guy from the desk opened the door and smiled at Des. "Hows ya day been Des?" he asked cheerfully. "Crap Steve!" Des was obviously in one of his moods...not for long! Steve smiled cheekily, "got a surprise for ya Dessie!" Des looked up at him questioningly, "yeah?" Steve signelled for Des to follow him so he did. Steve escorted Des to the room where his 'surprise' was waiting and told him to shut his eyes. Then Steve left them on their own. Shee walked up to Des who still had his eyes shut and whispered, "I missed ya, couldn't keep away!" Des' eyes shot open and he grinned more than anyone ever has before! Then he shook his head and said, "I've had this dream before!" Shee laughed, yep this was definately her Des back! She wrapped her arms around him. "It aint a dream darlin! Happy Christmas Des," she said, making his grin grow even wider. "I can't believe you're here!" Shee rolled her eyes, "No neither can I!" Des looked into her eyes. "I love you Shee," he said quietly and slowly, not knowing what response to expect. Sheelagh saw the fear in his eyes, "I love you too." Des kissed her, so happy to be allowed to do that again.
Every now and then I get a little bit lonely
And you're never comin round
Every now and then I get a little bit tired
Of listenin to the sound of my tears
Every now and then I get a little bit nervous
That the best of all the years have gone by
Every now and then I get a little bit terrified
But then I see the look in your eyes
Every now and then I fall apart
Every now and then I fall apart
Every now and then I get a little bit restless
And I dream of something wild
Every now and then I get a little bit helpless
And I'm lying like a child in your arms
Every now and then I get a little bit angry
And I know I've got to get out and cry
Every now and then I get a little bit terrified
But then I see the look in your eyes
Every now and then I fall apart
Every now and then I fall apart
And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'd only be making it right
Coz we'll never be wrong
Together we can make it to the end of the light
You're love is like a shadow
On me all of the time
I don't know what to do
And I'm always in the dark
Im living in a powder keg
And giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Once apon a time I was falling in love
Now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
Total eclipse of the heart
Once apon a time there was light in my life
Now there's only love in the dark
There's nothing I can say
Total eclipse of the heart