A/N I finally updated. Took me forever and a day! I'm sorry for everyone out there in cyber land, staying up till three in the morning, bitting the fingernails, watching the screen desperately for my to update. I understand several of you have attempted suicide without my wonderful Sessyessence and for that I am sorry! I'd like to thank KBMaster for this suggestion and I'd love to thank everyone who keeps suggesting songs! If I don't pick them it doesn't mean I don't understand where you're coming from, it's just some songs take more work to convert for this then others and sometimes I just can't make them work. But keep suggesting song, I appreciate it greatly! I've never actually heard Numb and if I have I don't remember so I hope the words work! Forgive me for delaying this! Please, enjoy!

P.S. the two rabid fangirls are copyrighted to me. We've been over this before, there's a void in my soul that slowly fills with the pus of my despair and I hope that by copyrighting random object and filler chars to me that someday the empty void may be filled and I will once again have a reason to live!

NUMB

"Did I forget my fluffy?" Sesshomaru asked, sticking his head into the bar and looking around owlishly.

"Nope," Scary Ned answered casually.

"But I can't find it anywhere!" Sesshomaru said thoughtfully.

"Is it on your shoulder?" Miroku asked trying to be helpful.

Sesshomaru stepped into the bar and stared at his shoulder for a long time. His fluffy was indeed absent form it's normal spot of glory.

Two fan girls in the back of the room burst into tears at the sight of him there fluff-less. The two jumped up and declared for all the world to hear in brave, but quavering voices, "We will not rest until your fluffy has been found!"

Then they ran from the bar, sobbing wildly to find the fluffy and hide their tears. Sesshomaru shrugged and then looked mournfully at his shoulder.

"I miss my fluffy," he said to himself. "It was so beautiful and I never got to say goodbye!"

"Well don't be sad," Scary Ned advised. "Why don't you sing us another song? It'll make you feel better!"

"Yeah!" agreed the demon Sesshomaru had slashed before singing 'Holding out for a Hanyou.'

"You aren't dead yet?" Sesshomaru asked him mournfully.

"Guess not," the demon shrugged.

"I'm a bad, bad fighter," Sesshomaru drawled sadly, sitting on the stage and resting his head in his hands. "Why must I fail at everything I attempt?"

"Hey," said the should-be-dead demon. "If it'll make you feel better, you kill me again!"

Sesshomaru looked up between his fingers hopefully. "Really?" he asked perking up slightly.

"Sure," the should-be-dead demon confirmed. He lumbered unsteadily to his feet and held his arms open. "Free shot!"

Sesshomaru drew the Tokijin and slashed him across the chest.

He sheathed the sword and smiled faintly as the other demon fell over, giving him a thumbs up.

"Nicely done!" the should-be-dead demon rasped.

"You know," Sesshomaru said, sounding much better. "I think I will sing another song!"

He got on the stage he'd been sitting on seconds before and grabbed the mike.

"I'd like to dedicate this song to a very special lady in my life. KBMaster!"

"Who's she?" Miroku asked, looking up hopefully.

"Damned if I know!" Sesshomaru shrugged. "But here it is, for you! GetThereFaster!!"

"KBMaster!" corrected Scary Ned.

"Whatever," Sesshomaru shrugged.

I'm tired of you being the first thing I see

Feeling so listless, dodging your embrace
I don't know what you're expecting to see
I've turned to pills and made friends with booze

(Find the happy place, just find your happy place)
Every step that I take is another mistake with you

How'd you become so dumb
I can still see you there
I became so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming pissed, all I want to do
Is spend more time with Rin and less with you!

Can't you see that I'm smothering you?
Holding too tightly, afraid to let go
Letting you live is the last thing I wanna do

I'm falling apart, right in front of you
(Find the happy place, just find your happy place)
Every step that I take is another followed by you
(Find the happy place, just find your happy place)
An' every second with you is more than I can take

How'd you become so dumb
I can still see you there
I became so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming pissed, all I want to do
Is spend more time with Rin and less with you!

And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
They'd be like me
Followed by someone like you!

How'd you become so dumb
I can still see you there
I became so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming pissed, all I want to do
Is spend more time with Rin and less with you!

You've
Become so dumb
I can still see you there
I'm tired of you being the first thing I see
I'm tired of you being the first thing I see