Meehx. Im so sorry.. i didnt have any drive, so the one with the many chapters will be FURTHER delayed.. brain dead currently for the other chapter. gomen nasai.. and well exams soon, so thats another big wrong factor.. sighx. i think i'll publish my stories on my blog too.. then maybe ill get some drive.. anway.. to quake your story reading, this is some angst sadness thingy.. hope you'll like it..

Ed could not stand it any more.. Life was just too tough.. Too hard for a dog of the military.. Too hard for him..

Plunging over the edge of his fifth floor french windows, he was prepared to face his death. Or whatever that may come.

It could be that evil white smiling guy, his form looking just like his mothers, so that he could grasp Ed's hand.. and make Ed's life his..

Or it may that he be reborn.. as a homuculus, in Greed's place.. Sadistic, powerful, and eternal..

Or just maybe, just maybe, he could go to the true heaven (if such a place really existed) and see his true mother again; with the angels and the cherubs and seraphims..
As he dropped down, he turned his head to look into the fourth floor window, only to see Bradley, King Bradley, grasping a tattered and torn photograph, small but unmistakable. The man was covered in wires, and seemed to be grinning. not happily though, but in an evil and menecing way.

Bradley's tears dripped from his cheeks, his other hand holding a newer photograph of him, his wife and son. In this photo, nothing seemed sinister, and all 3 of them were happy and smiling.

How ironical.. a homuculus weeping for the lost of his own life, attatched to this human world, attatched to his family..
As the third floor dawned nearer, he saw, again through the windows, Envy. He (as we would use to refer,) was changing, from a stunning male figure to a petite feminine female one.

switch.
switch.
switch switch.
switch.
switch switch switch.

Undescisive, Envy kept changing, until he finally chose the female form, his long blackish-green hair curled and tied back in a high ponytail. His body took the curves of that belonging to a international supermodel, with full red sensual lips and high cheekbones. But his eyes remained as cold as ever. It would always be..
The second floor flew by, but the image it contained remained in Ed's mind, confirming the suspicions which had developed in his mind ever since he saw Roy, with Riza standing at his back. In Roy's spacious office, the young accomplished man stood with is back facing the window, Lieutenant Hawkeye, hugging him tightly. Tears were visible on her symmetrical cheeks, like pearls, falling from a broken necklace, each drop precious and beautiful.. And on the table stood the long awaited box.. It was open, and a simple engagement ring stood there, with two diamonds embedded in it, beautifully made, and yet meaningful.
But suddenly the door was knocked sharply twice, and the two broke apart hurriedly, and the box was closed sharply and shoved into a nearby open drawer. Delayed..
But what he saw last wrenched his heart the most.. As though in slow motion, he saw his younger brother come running toward him, both metal limbs outstretched, reaching out in the motion to catch him. The sounds then started registering in his ears... The first thing he heard was,
'Nii-saaaaaaaaaaaa..' he felt as though somebody had plunged his/her hand(s) into his body and ripped out his heart out.. while he was alive and kicking..
Nobody regretted suicide more than he did.. his mind finally cleared itself of all the suicidal thoughts suddenly, and he realised that his life was not bad actually, compared to Bradley who wanted to protect his family yet couldnt; Envy, who could not decide who he was; Roy and Riza, who could never be joined together and mostly, he was now better off than his brother.. Al.. Now Al had to live on.. with nobody for support.. absolutely nobody.. nobody who would joke with him about finding a girlfriend, nobody who could oil the smallest joints in his armour, nobody, nobody could ever be his brother ever again..

stretching his hand out toward his brother.. he finally wanted to turn this situation around..

but no, no alchemy could do that.

no, not even the philosopher's stone would work.. nothing..

then everything went black.

TO BE CONTINUED..

heex. im so mean.. but exams round e corner.. :p Tomorrow, infact. well review, please! And my capital letter thingy, i know that, but i cant be bothered.. typical me..