PART 13
Prue awoke as the sun shone down onto her, at first she was confused as to where she was but then the night before replayed in her mind, she felt the cold stone on her back and the hot sun on her face, how much she wanted to just go back to sleep and forget everything. She could never remember a time that she had cried so much but last she didn't seem to stop, after leaving the manor she drove and drove with no destination planned but she found herself here, looking around at the emptiness she had never felt so alone, so lost, so desperate to relive the previous night, she was at the beech and had obviously fallen asleep against the cliff side. She looked out across the ocean, remembering all the simpler times when they were younger, then after the few memories of happier times came to an end on memory popped up, uninvited in invade her thoughts
- A sixteen year old Phoebe walked through the kitchen and into the foyer, "Prue please, don't leave me here again. Piper's gone out again and Dad will be back soon."
"Phoebe, I have plans, what you want me to put them on hold because you don't want to be here alone?" Phoebe moved closer to the oldest, "Please Prue, just tonight."
"Phoebe no. Maybe you should go out, you have got friends?"
"Prue I can't I have to look after Paige."
"Dad will be here..." Phoebe lifted her shirt to revile a bruise, "and there is no way I'm letting him do this to her."
"Phoebe dad would never do that to you or her..."
"Why do you protect him? He did this."
"He's my father and I know that he wouldn't you probably fell."
"Well then amuse me, stay..."
"Phoebe you are sixteen grow up, I have better things to do than play along with your stupid games." With this Prue turned and left the house, the younger sister left standing hoping that, for once tonight would be different...it never was.-
Prue remembered returning home that night to find Phoebe had a black eye, she once again had told Prue it was their Dad, but Prue passed it off as Phoebe fooling around and falling over...
These memories caused tears to flow faster down Prue's cheeks, her heart ached, Phoebe had betrayed her but she had also betrayed Phoebe ever since they were little, she was never there as a friend, an older sister sure, a mother in ways, but never a friend.
Prue sat looking out across the ocean trying to think of what she should do next, how she should go about the rest of today, the rest of her life,
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Phoebe was sat on the chair in the living room, staring into the emptiness, she had the dark glasses back on and had zipped he jacket up to her chin, she had been there for over half an hour now and she still had a need to get the hell out of this place but there was something, like a gravitational pull that was keeping her there, Love for her other sisters were keeping her there.
The door opened and Dean walked in, Phoebe looked over at him and sniffed, she was obviously trying to hide the sobs that escaped, he sat next to her, Phoebe looked back at the empty space in the room, "I'm sorry about before...how I acted."
"Forget about it" He spoke lovingly, "So do you mind if I hold you now?" He asked,
"Could you?" She asked, he smiled sympathetically and put an arm around her pulling her into his chest, "No problem." He body trembled with sobs and he knew she was trying to hold it in, and that was never good, "Phoebe you don't have to hide it" He said,
"What?" She asked,
"The tears, I'm here for you, you can cry to me Phoebe." He rose up his hand and slowly took the glasses from her face, her black eyes were now rimmed with red and her face stained with tears, he wiped her eyes with his thumb softly and looked into them, they were filled with sadness, "i love you" she cried,
"I love you too, don't ever forget that." Phoebe nodded, how about you and me go up to your room and you have a nap, because I know that you sure as hell never slept last night." Phoebe nodded and with that she stood to her feet, he followed picking up her bag both headed to her room.
Paige sat on her bed, tears rolling down her face as her heart ached at the thought of losing Phoebe, piper was sat next to her trying to comfort the young girl, "Paige she's in the living room with Dean, she's not going anywhere."
"She...she wanted to...to leave me!"
"she was confused, up set, hurt, you know that Phoebe would never leave you."
"Prue hit her again, she...she kept punching her..."
"I know Paige and trust me, when Prue comes back I'm going to have a long talk with her" Paige continued to cry, "Make sure she doesn't leave please Piper...don't let her."
"Paige I wont, neither of my little sisters are ever going to leave...your both my babies."
"But...Phoebe is...nineteen?" Paige questioned wiping away the tears, Piper smiled, "She's my big baby" Piper laughed, "Now you just get dressed and then you can go and play in the garden."
"What about Phoebe?" Paige asked, concern still audible, "Dean and I will handle that" Paige deep down knew that Piper would handle it but, she wasn't stupid she knew that the possibility that Phoebe left was still all to real. Paige was so confused.
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Phoebe walked into her room and Dean followed, he put her bag on the floor and Phoebe just fell onto the bed, tears still rolling down he face as the events of three years were all catching up with her after been made only too real by the events of last night.
Dean looked at her, she looked so broken so helpless, he knelt onto the bed and turned Phoebe onto her back she looked up at him, "Come on Phoebe, lets get this jacket off so that you can sleep." Phoebe never spoke, or moved just looked into his eyes; she saw the loving concern and knew that she was safe. Dean knew that she was exhausted so he unzipped the jacket and with great difficulty and little help from Phoebe he managed to take it off of her and through it to the floor, after that he moved to the foot of the bed as he took the boots from her feet after that he lay next to her and held her, both silent, he watched as she absently stared into his eyes, both looking into each others she felt a sense of calm.
Phoebe never slept just cried three years of pain away, built up anger towards all the people who hurt her were beginning to show, and all that Dean could do was lie and watch helplessly, as he held her crying frame close, hours passed and tears fell, until there was nothing left to cry until there was nothing more to be spoke, then she was left, silent in her own thoughts and memories, hopes and dreams that had all been cursed, the hope that Prue and Phoebe could get back the love they had when they were kids, a sisterly love that now proved improbable and even impossible to regain.
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Piper was sat at the kitchen table, she was reading the letter Phoebe had given her that morning, tears rolled down her cheeks and bounced of the page as the words cut deep into her heart;
Dear Piper,
You are my big sister, my friend and a whole lot more. Do not ever think that I take for granted what you give me because I don't, every morning when I wake up, every meal that I sit down to and every night I close my eyes I thank god that you are my sister, a lot of people do not understand and most likely never experience what we have, a friend ship so strong and a sisterly bond unbreakable, not all sisters have that, look at me and Prue...
As you read this, if all went as planned then I'm probably hitching a ride from some trucker, riding of into the sunset, hopefully to make a new life, but I will never forget the old life, there were some good times, some happy times, sad times, worse times but I made it through even the toughest because I knew no matter what you would always be there.
Do you ever wonder if things would have turned out this way if mom and grams were still her? If they never died? And If dad never drunk? I do all the time, but I shouldn't dwell on the past. I want you to continue with the life I know will turn out so great, look after my baby sister and tell her I love her, just like I love you. I don't know when we will meet again not to long I hope? But if you only remember one thing in this letter remember this, Don't let Prue take anything out on you. Don't blame yourself for this and don't wonder what could have been. Remember that you are the one who can make a life for yourself and hopefully with out me there to screw things up you'll turn it into a life that you are proud of, a life that un dubitably you will love and hopefully a life in which one day we will be reunited, we will be brought back together, to the unbreakable love.
Piper this isn't your fault, blame me, blame Prue blame dad but never blame yourself.
I just need time. How much time is unclear I will only know when the time has passed. My love, as always, keep safe.
Phoebe
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Piper couldn't take it, she cried harder than she thought was possible, she let her head fall into her hands and she balled, her eyes stung and her head hurt but Piper didn't care, she was so close to losing her sister, and even now she was unsure as to what Phoebe's next movement and action would be. All Piper knew was that she needed Phoebe and wouldn't let anyone come between them not Roger not Prue and not her father, Piper would make things better and hopefully rebuild their family. She could only hope, pray and try to fulfill her wish.
Piper saw Paige sitting in the garden, she hadn't played since she went out there, most likely she was crying, but Piper knew she could not comfort her while she was in this state, instead she stood to her feet and decided to try and get hold of herself.
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Phoebe turned and looked at Dean, his eyes were watching her lovingly, she sighed, and after a few moments she shot up from the bed, from Dean's loving hold, from comfort, from safety and swiped the desk not far from the table sending everything flying to the floor, "Phoebe?" Dean asked worried, he received no answer just Phoebe bursting into laughter, she swung around, "Yesterday I had everything, now look at me" She screamed, "Phoebe calm down, it'll be okay." He attempted,
"How?" She screamed, she walked over to the bed and put her boots back on, Dean was worried what was she going to do? "Phoebe just calm down"
"CALM DOWN, Prue just battered me, what's wrong I practically let her?" Phoebe took her jacket and attempted to walk out the door but Dean pushed is hand against it, Phoebe turned and looked at him, "MOVE!" she ordered sternly,
"Tell me what you are doing? Where are you going?"
"Out, Dean I'm going out. I'll be back later I just need to be alone."
"Look promise me then, nothing stupid"
"I won't do anything stupid, I just have to get the hell out of here away from Prue, from last night" Dean stood in front of her, "Let me come with you then"
"I don't need a minder Dean, please let me go..." Phoebe looked into his eyes, "I need time." Dean moved forward and kissed her on the lips, she looked at him, "I'll be back, promise" Dean nodded and moved his hand from the door allowing her to go through, she looked at him once more me for turning and leaving...
she walked down the stairs, happy not to have to face anyone else she walked out the front door, looking at the manor she wondered, would this be the last time that she walked through that door? She looked at the door and reached out, moving her hand down it one last time she remembered the good times in that house, but there were also many bad times that she was reliving...she was going to put an end to this NOW!
Prue awoke as the sun shone down onto her, at first she was confused as to where she was but then the night before replayed in her mind, she felt the cold stone on her back and the hot sun on her face, how much she wanted to just go back to sleep and forget everything. She could never remember a time that she had cried so much but last she didn't seem to stop, after leaving the manor she drove and drove with no destination planned but she found herself here, looking around at the emptiness she had never felt so alone, so lost, so desperate to relive the previous night, she was at the beech and had obviously fallen asleep against the cliff side. She looked out across the ocean, remembering all the simpler times when they were younger, then after the few memories of happier times came to an end on memory popped up, uninvited in invade her thoughts
- A sixteen year old Phoebe walked through the kitchen and into the foyer, "Prue please, don't leave me here again. Piper's gone out again and Dad will be back soon."
"Phoebe, I have plans, what you want me to put them on hold because you don't want to be here alone?" Phoebe moved closer to the oldest, "Please Prue, just tonight."
"Phoebe no. Maybe you should go out, you have got friends?"
"Prue I can't I have to look after Paige."
"Dad will be here..." Phoebe lifted her shirt to revile a bruise, "and there is no way I'm letting him do this to her."
"Phoebe dad would never do that to you or her..."
"Why do you protect him? He did this."
"He's my father and I know that he wouldn't you probably fell."
"Well then amuse me, stay..."
"Phoebe you are sixteen grow up, I have better things to do than play along with your stupid games." With this Prue turned and left the house, the younger sister left standing hoping that, for once tonight would be different...it never was.-
Prue remembered returning home that night to find Phoebe had a black eye, she once again had told Prue it was their Dad, but Prue passed it off as Phoebe fooling around and falling over...
These memories caused tears to flow faster down Prue's cheeks, her heart ached, Phoebe had betrayed her but she had also betrayed Phoebe ever since they were little, she was never there as a friend, an older sister sure, a mother in ways, but never a friend.
Prue sat looking out across the ocean trying to think of what she should do next, how she should go about the rest of today, the rest of her life,
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Phoebe was sat on the chair in the living room, staring into the emptiness, she had the dark glasses back on and had zipped he jacket up to her chin, she had been there for over half an hour now and she still had a need to get the hell out of this place but there was something, like a gravitational pull that was keeping her there, Love for her other sisters were keeping her there.
The door opened and Dean walked in, Phoebe looked over at him and sniffed, she was obviously trying to hide the sobs that escaped, he sat next to her, Phoebe looked back at the empty space in the room, "I'm sorry about before...how I acted."
"Forget about it" He spoke lovingly, "So do you mind if I hold you now?" He asked,
"Could you?" She asked, he smiled sympathetically and put an arm around her pulling her into his chest, "No problem." He body trembled with sobs and he knew she was trying to hold it in, and that was never good, "Phoebe you don't have to hide it" He said,
"What?" She asked,
"The tears, I'm here for you, you can cry to me Phoebe." He rose up his hand and slowly took the glasses from her face, her black eyes were now rimmed with red and her face stained with tears, he wiped her eyes with his thumb softly and looked into them, they were filled with sadness, "i love you" she cried,
"I love you too, don't ever forget that." Phoebe nodded, how about you and me go up to your room and you have a nap, because I know that you sure as hell never slept last night." Phoebe nodded and with that she stood to her feet, he followed picking up her bag both headed to her room.
Paige sat on her bed, tears rolling down her face as her heart ached at the thought of losing Phoebe, piper was sat next to her trying to comfort the young girl, "Paige she's in the living room with Dean, she's not going anywhere."
"She...she wanted to...to leave me!"
"she was confused, up set, hurt, you know that Phoebe would never leave you."
"Prue hit her again, she...she kept punching her..."
"I know Paige and trust me, when Prue comes back I'm going to have a long talk with her" Paige continued to cry, "Make sure she doesn't leave please Piper...don't let her."
"Paige I wont, neither of my little sisters are ever going to leave...your both my babies."
"But...Phoebe is...nineteen?" Paige questioned wiping away the tears, Piper smiled, "She's my big baby" Piper laughed, "Now you just get dressed and then you can go and play in the garden."
"What about Phoebe?" Paige asked, concern still audible, "Dean and I will handle that" Paige deep down knew that Piper would handle it but, she wasn't stupid she knew that the possibility that Phoebe left was still all to real. Paige was so confused.
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Phoebe walked into her room and Dean followed, he put her bag on the floor and Phoebe just fell onto the bed, tears still rolling down he face as the events of three years were all catching up with her after been made only too real by the events of last night.
Dean looked at her, she looked so broken so helpless, he knelt onto the bed and turned Phoebe onto her back she looked up at him, "Come on Phoebe, lets get this jacket off so that you can sleep." Phoebe never spoke, or moved just looked into his eyes; she saw the loving concern and knew that she was safe. Dean knew that she was exhausted so he unzipped the jacket and with great difficulty and little help from Phoebe he managed to take it off of her and through it to the floor, after that he moved to the foot of the bed as he took the boots from her feet after that he lay next to her and held her, both silent, he watched as she absently stared into his eyes, both looking into each others she felt a sense of calm.
Phoebe never slept just cried three years of pain away, built up anger towards all the people who hurt her were beginning to show, and all that Dean could do was lie and watch helplessly, as he held her crying frame close, hours passed and tears fell, until there was nothing left to cry until there was nothing more to be spoke, then she was left, silent in her own thoughts and memories, hopes and dreams that had all been cursed, the hope that Prue and Phoebe could get back the love they had when they were kids, a sisterly love that now proved improbable and even impossible to regain.
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Piper was sat at the kitchen table, she was reading the letter Phoebe had given her that morning, tears rolled down her cheeks and bounced of the page as the words cut deep into her heart;
Dear Piper,
You are my big sister, my friend and a whole lot more. Do not ever think that I take for granted what you give me because I don't, every morning when I wake up, every meal that I sit down to and every night I close my eyes I thank god that you are my sister, a lot of people do not understand and most likely never experience what we have, a friend ship so strong and a sisterly bond unbreakable, not all sisters have that, look at me and Prue...
As you read this, if all went as planned then I'm probably hitching a ride from some trucker, riding of into the sunset, hopefully to make a new life, but I will never forget the old life, there were some good times, some happy times, sad times, worse times but I made it through even the toughest because I knew no matter what you would always be there.
Do you ever wonder if things would have turned out this way if mom and grams were still her? If they never died? And If dad never drunk? I do all the time, but I shouldn't dwell on the past. I want you to continue with the life I know will turn out so great, look after my baby sister and tell her I love her, just like I love you. I don't know when we will meet again not to long I hope? But if you only remember one thing in this letter remember this, Don't let Prue take anything out on you. Don't blame yourself for this and don't wonder what could have been. Remember that you are the one who can make a life for yourself and hopefully with out me there to screw things up you'll turn it into a life that you are proud of, a life that un dubitably you will love and hopefully a life in which one day we will be reunited, we will be brought back together, to the unbreakable love.
Piper this isn't your fault, blame me, blame Prue blame dad but never blame yourself.
I just need time. How much time is unclear I will only know when the time has passed. My love, as always, keep safe.
Phoebe
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Piper couldn't take it, she cried harder than she thought was possible, she let her head fall into her hands and she balled, her eyes stung and her head hurt but Piper didn't care, she was so close to losing her sister, and even now she was unsure as to what Phoebe's next movement and action would be. All Piper knew was that she needed Phoebe and wouldn't let anyone come between them not Roger not Prue and not her father, Piper would make things better and hopefully rebuild their family. She could only hope, pray and try to fulfill her wish.
Piper saw Paige sitting in the garden, she hadn't played since she went out there, most likely she was crying, but Piper knew she could not comfort her while she was in this state, instead she stood to her feet and decided to try and get hold of herself.
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Phoebe turned and looked at Dean, his eyes were watching her lovingly, she sighed, and after a few moments she shot up from the bed, from Dean's loving hold, from comfort, from safety and swiped the desk not far from the table sending everything flying to the floor, "Phoebe?" Dean asked worried, he received no answer just Phoebe bursting into laughter, she swung around, "Yesterday I had everything, now look at me" She screamed, "Phoebe calm down, it'll be okay." He attempted,
"How?" She screamed, she walked over to the bed and put her boots back on, Dean was worried what was she going to do? "Phoebe just calm down"
"CALM DOWN, Prue just battered me, what's wrong I practically let her?" Phoebe took her jacket and attempted to walk out the door but Dean pushed is hand against it, Phoebe turned and looked at him, "MOVE!" she ordered sternly,
"Tell me what you are doing? Where are you going?"
"Out, Dean I'm going out. I'll be back later I just need to be alone."
"Look promise me then, nothing stupid"
"I won't do anything stupid, I just have to get the hell out of here away from Prue, from last night" Dean stood in front of her, "Let me come with you then"
"I don't need a minder Dean, please let me go..." Phoebe looked into his eyes, "I need time." Dean moved forward and kissed her on the lips, she looked at him, "I'll be back, promise" Dean nodded and moved his hand from the door allowing her to go through, she looked at him once more me for turning and leaving...
she walked down the stairs, happy not to have to face anyone else she walked out the front door, looking at the manor she wondered, would this be the last time that she walked through that door? She looked at the door and reached out, moving her hand down it one last time she remembered the good times in that house, but there were also many bad times that she was reliving...she was going to put an end to this NOW!